Its a coLd tuesdaY afternOon at d Office & my braiN cannot and somehOw wiLL not functiOn. *fainTzzz* couLdn't sLeep lasT nigHt, d stoMach was uPset & d baBy waS haVing a parTy iNsiDe, kicKing heRe n thEre.
sumHow, my Lil' geM is confusiNg daY wif nYt and Nyt wif daY. i hoPe she doeSn't maKe uMmi & daddY werK nyT shiFts weN she'S out. Pleaseee.... jadilah maCam kak NuruL. seNang nOh naK jaga deKtuh. asiK tidOOooo aJer.. criEs onLy weN she waNts 2b feD. HweHwe. =P
aNywaY, siNce my braiN is not in a werkinG moDe..let Me jUz bLog suM thoTs hEre.
a coLLeague sHared taT she coUldn'T imagiNe herself beinG pregNant. hMmm...i tinK sumhOw moSt preGgers dun imaGine their preGnant seLves eveN b4 deY get pregNant. *hiaKzz* (i duNNo, maYbe if u'Re d suPerb daydreaMer speciEs, u probaBly haVe d perfeCt visioN of a preGnant U. Hehehe.)
i grew uP babysiTTing moSt of my 11 nieCes n nepHews.. waTch my sisterS in preGgie staTe (aKa exPanding.. =P) ever siNce i waS in primarY 4. Hehe. NeVa croSsed my miNd to thinK abOut MyseLf iN a preGnant Body. heHe. So..perhaPs pregNancy is a Lil' culturaL shocK for me. hweHwehwe. d experieNce is so surreaL - d monThly check-uPs, d babY taLks, d naUsea, d fatiGue, d rise & faLL of d hormOnes, d bodiLy changEs. i'M alreadY intO my 7 mThs of pregNancy aNd weN i Look @ myseLf & my groWing tuMmy... aLL i can saY is.. MasyaAllah & Alhamdulillah.
TheRe's liFe groWing in Me - a Mix of deaR & mE. wiLL she haVe my eyeS, or deaR's lasHes; whO's temperaMent wiLL she foLLow? wiLL shE havE daddY's cheeKy disPositiOn, or UmMi's cinCai-Ness? i woNder... =) i hoPe she'LL be an adorabLe chiLD who makeS her parenTs and familY memBers happY, proUd & smiLey aLL d tiMe. i praY she groWs uP 2b a soLehah chiLd & a stroNg & resiLient woMan. Gee. d thinGs taT go thrOugh d miNd oF a pareNt-to-Be. niE anaK beLum diLahirkaN lagi.. biLa dah diLahirkaN, d List of thoUghts & thinGs on d pareNts List .... i caN't imagiNe!
parentHood, Like marriaGe, is a jourNey fuLL of discOverieS. i duNNo whetHer its a learned mechaniSm, or a genetiC conditiOn, oR a survivaL respoNse. suMhOw, beinG pregnanT (or having a pregNant spoUse) maKes u moRe motherLy, fatHerLy, sisterLy... in a nutsheLL, more nurturinG. All d hiddeN parentaL instincTs are suddeNly unLeashEd. *hiAkzzz* watchinG urseLf and ur partneR groW into d roLe of a parenT, is aN enrichinG expErienCe. u begiN to appreciaTe & beLieve tHat urseLf and ur spOuse is capabLe of 'stePPing uP' to fiLL biGger sHoes, insyaAllah.. (",)
I shoUld geT one of diS portraiTs doNe, wiF deaR's haNds on Our Lil' geM. AwwWw.. sOo romantiC. Hehehehe. ;o)
sO muCh woNder & joY to Share; yeT i caNnot aptLy pUt aLL of theM in wOrds. i freT thaT i caN't giVe d experieNce justiCe.
"woRds saY too mucH; loVe coMes in siLence..." ~d storyteLLer~
iTs aMazing hOw ur spOuse's idiOsyncraciEs caN ruB oN u easiLy (eveN if Tat particuLar haBit puzzLes oR ticKles u at tiMes..).. Hwehwehwe.
DeaR has a haBit of Laff-inG or guFfaw-inG out of d bLue weN he recaLLs any fuNny moMents frOm TV shOws or incideNts. I, on d otHer hanD, wiLL chiDe hiM. macaM kelakar giTu kan tetiBa ketawa triNgat2 benda macaM tuh. *hiaKzzz* suMhow....of Late, i finD myseLf beinG ticKled easiLy weN i reMemBer candiD/humOurous momentS on scReen, or reaL-Life incideNts. KweKweKwe. LooK who has d lasT laff. AhaaKz.
couLdn't stoP myself frOm laff-iNg afTer watchiNg GUBRA last saturday. adiBah Noor geTs thuMbs uP for kelaKar seLamba. hwahwahwa.
"If i weRe in Labour and haVe to waiT for the ambuLance, my chiLd woulD be in primaRy oNe by noW!!"
Wakakakakaka. ticKled me so Hard lah thiS sceNe n diaLogue. probabLy becaUse its preGGie-reLated. eacH tiMe i recaLL thiS sceNe, i jusT can't stoP myseLf froM laughinG. =P
EheM Ehem. 8 November 2008. I will be serenadeD by aBaNg aNuarKu. HweHweHwe.. Sorry deaR eHhhh.... All-gerLs outinG lah. BabY aLso wanT to heaR uncLe aNuar's sOothinG voIce n experiEnCe his charmIng persoNa. *hIaKzzz*
*sWooOOn2*
kweKwe. eheM. siKEt siKet suDaah. =P
ThoSe interesTed to be sereNaded bY THE man as weLL, cLicK HERE. ;o)
Its been awhiLe since I've bLogged. yeaHs..yeaHs. each tiMe i coMe in saying that i'M bacK.. but sOmehoW i disappear agaiN. =P Hwehwe. AnywaY..this shaLL be my virginaL entrY on beinG a motHer & motHerhoOD.
beinG parents is oftEn d nexT miLestOne or liFe eveNT couPles looK forwarD to afTer marriagE. LikewiSe for myseLf and my deaRest... we'Re parentS 2b nOW! =) I'm 6 and a half months into my pregnancY now; i can'T even begin to descriBe d loadfuL of feeLings and anxieties insiDe me right nOw.
aLLow me to sHare dis amaziNg journey thus faR...
d discoVery of d pregnancY was raTher..eMmm..painfuL? keke. I was quite sicK wHen i foUnd out thAt i was pregNant. sharinG of d neWs wif deaR was eveN more interestiNg 'cos He gaVe a ratHer.. unforgettabLe reactioN to d neWs. *hehehee* by dis staTement, i onLy have myseLf 2b reminDed of that particular memoRy. =P
1st triMester was....hoRrid. i'M not complaininG about d preGnancy, buT d mornIng sicKness anD all d siDe effecTs that coMe wif d pacKaGe. i was literaLLy a vomit-machIne for d 1st 4 mtHs of d pregnanCy. everYthing I ate caMe Out back intO d toiLet boWl. i aLmost develoPed a phobia for eatinG, weLL, aLmost. *hweHwe* when i thinK back of d 1st few Mths, i stiLL get d shuDders. bRrrrRr.
preGnancY & hormOnes - yEs, i crY easiLy, i get annoYed easiLy & i geT depressiVe thoUghts easiLy. weN i thinK bacK of d moMents i'Ve broKen doWn or geT into grouchi-Ness... i haVe a guD laff @ myseLf. But yeS, poor deaR hAs to pUt up wiF d emotioNal penduLum of diS motHer-to-Be.
I teaRed @ d 1st lOOk of Life insiDe me. suCh a woNdroUs thing to Have a LiL' "you & me" growinG insiDe. you see d liL' finGers n feeT n u juz smiLe to urseLf. i teaRed agaiN @ d nexT sCan, weN i was 5 mths intO d pregnanCy. See-ing a moRe compLete n larGer forM of Life in Me. i saW d babY's indeX finGer sticKing out & pOking my tuMMy. *hehehe* hOW cuTe n adorabLe.
Juz in caSe u're woNdering d geNder of d baBy..
we'Re goNNa have a Lil' pwiNCessss...
sO..uPon knOwing tHat we'Re goNna be gettinG a dauGhter, i'M juz so crazY over riBBons, pinK roMpers n aLL d gOwns and suCh. *wEeeEe~* deaR caN onLy shaKe his heaD wheN i starT goiNg aLL oggLy n gaGa oVer aLL d baBy gerL stUffz a Kiddy paLace and MotherCare. ;o)
AnxietieS...i thiNK aboUt wHether me n deaR wiLL make Good pareNts. we can onLy giVe our do'As and equip ourseLves wif knowLedge on parenthOOd. Of courSe, d besT teacHer is stiLL experieNce itseLf. InsyaAllah, we hope to be abLe to raiSe a chiLd who is soLehah, haPpy and sMart. =) its niCe and heartwarminG to see deaR do d babytaLk; how he caLLs d chiLd "anaK" and sOOthes d chiLd wiF all d kind worDs of hoPe, remiNders and at tiMes, chidinG d Lil' oNe to be kiNd to her Ummi thru'oUt d pregnancY. sO..suweEeett.
sOme maY thinK or say that perhaPs, it is tOO sooN for uS to haVe a babY. we'Ve been marrieD for Less thaN a year. i'm PositiVe that a chiLd is a siGn of reZki from Allah. Allah has been kind to Me & deaR thus faR. fiNances at tiMes, may b a chaLLenge for uS, but we've puLLed tHru'. dis mOther 2b wisHes to contiNue her stUdies; sHe received a graNt to easE d coUrse feEs.
MarriaGe & d 'impendinG' pareNthOod has its set of chaLLenges; buT i am eVer so greatfuL and aM feeLing raTher bLessed.
aPart frOm d dailY dOSes of depressiVe discoVeries thaT my cLothes duN fiT and my stretcH marKs are eveR visibLe, whaT more coUld i ask foR (noW)? (",)
Hunter Patch Adams: I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you straightforwardly without complexities or pride. I love you because I know no other way then this. So close that your hand, on my chest, is my hand. So close, that when you close your eyes, I fall asleep.
itS beEn crazY... Love's beeN greaT. worK's been chaLLenging. Life's Been A-okaY. i guEss.
i'LL starT by Leaving. i meaN wiF a storY on soMeone whO has LefT d workpLace. a deaR sisTer, whO's been suCh a greaT inspiratioN to me. i caLL her mY BiG O. (She's one of my TWO biG Os, actuaLLy)
biG O LefT d workpLace a weeK agO. soMeone whOm i dearLy loVe, someoNe whO giVes me a Lot of strenGth to fiGht & couraGe to groW beyoNd mY limiTz...
i can'T thaNk her enouGh for aLL she has doNe.
i triBute d foLLowing cLip of Love, friendshiP & inspiratiOn to heR:
Life goEs on...i'LL b grieVing a wee biT, but weLL, i knOw we'LL alwaYs meet agaiN... =) loVe u kaK...
Like i saiD, i'LL keep oN roLLing. i'LL catcH up, insyaAllah.. =D
10 November 2007: d daY, moment in tiMe n spaCe weN a uNion betweeN 2 souLs was officiaLLy forGed.
dearesT husbanD, tenkieW so much for givinG me d gifT of Love, care & concerN. maY ALLAH bless our marriaGe and giVe us strengTh & faiTh in our journEy as husBand & wiFe.
deepesT gratituDe to my beLoved family memBers, cLose freNz, coLLeagues & other lurVes for aLL d heLp giveN duriNg d soLemnisatiOn ceremOny & d weddiNg receptiOn.
falling hearts
