Yes..it waS a sundaY @ d oFis wif 2 other ladiEs. we brOke d 9pm curfeW. *griNzz*
heaRd diS song oVer cLass 95fM. i lurVeeeee.....(",) oriGinaLLy suNg by roD stewaRt & covered by KennY loggiNs fOr sum moVie's soundtracK.
fOr d firsT tiMe
Are those your eyes, is that your smile? I've been looking at you forever, but I never saw you before Are these your hands holding mine? Now I wonder how I could have been so blind
For the first time I am looking in your eyes For the first time I'm seein' who you are I can't believe how much I see When you're lookin' back at me... Now I understand what love is, love is For the First Time
Can this be real? Can this be true? Am I the person I was this mornin' and are you the same you? It's all so strange..how can it be? All along this love was right in front of me
For the first time..I am looking in your eyes For the first time I am seein' who you are I can't believe how much I see When you're lookin' back at me Now I understand what love is, love is For the First time
Such a long time ago I had given up on finding this emotion ever again But you're here with me now Yes, I found you somehow And I've never been so sure
And for the first time I am looking in your eyes For the first time, I'm seein' who you are I can't believe how much I see when you're lookin' back at me
Now I understand what love is, love is For The First Time...
-thOughTz sPoKen @ 6:54 PM :)
sMacK ryT in d middLe!
Saturday, October 28, 2006
In d midSt of mY anxiEtieS bCos d u-Know-Whoz r coMing doWn nexT weEk & mY struggLes TRYINg desperateLy to comPlete d u-knOw-whaTz....i'D deciDed to taKe a breatHer dowN herE.
meT my beSt maiTe, priS @her offiCe aFter a meetinG & chaTTed awhiLe. taLked abOut liFe & werK & companioNshiP & lurVe. i always kNew taT besides sociaL werK, deR r otHer tingz taT she hoPed to dO. priS saiD she mYt moVe into journaLism or werK in a churcH settinG.
sHE asked me, "u Leeh? staYing loNg @ur current werkpLace or nOt?"
i peppered mY answeRz wiF bitz & pieCes of siLence & uncertaiNty geLLed togeTher. come to tinK of it, i duN tinK i reaLLy answeRed her questioN.
sO, wad lieS ahead?
i'V paSsed d 3 yeaR marK in my caReer & i muZ admiT taT i neVa did expect myself to mOve @ My preseNt raTe. new chaLLenges. more ResponsibiLitieS ie. More werK.
[praY my boSs doesN't read diS.] painfuLLy, i muz saY taT fer d 1st tyM in my werKing liFe...oF laTe, i'Ve toLd myseLf a couPle of tyMz taT i juz waNna droP everytinG & ruN away froM werK.
i M a bit tirEd. NO. in faCt, quitE.
No, itz not tat i dO not loVe my jOb. i dO...BUT:
i'M not exactLy suRe if i feeL liKe i'm routiNely doiNg stuFz daY in n daY out. i'm not exactLy suRe if i'M burnT out. i'M not exactLy sURe if mY braiNz r werKing @ d ryT pLace. @ diS poiNt..i'M juZ thaT - UNSURE. UNCERTAIN. GREY. BLUE. i geT daYz of GREEN too.
deR r tyMz i feeL chaLLenged. whiNing to Mak doeSn't heLp 'cOs her resPonse woUld be: "if U're so tirEd & got so mucH werK, juZ chaNge jobz lorr." *sighz*
deR r daYz weN i fiNd goiNg to werK dreadfuL. i draG my feeT. literaLLy. i feeL guiLty abOut it. But deN i tinK agaiN - i haVe d ryT to my feeLingz tOo.
sEe. i stiLL hvN answeRed d questiOn yeT. i'M juz...grousinG wiTh a capitaL G. weLL, maYb i'M noT readY to tinK abOut iT yeT. maYb i feaR waD my heaRt truLy saYz 'coS maYb itz not wad i waN to beLieve iN. maYb i'LL wait a littLe & sEe waD surPrises liFe has 4me b4 i chaRt out consequenT paThz.
waD liEs aheaD?
smacK rYt in d middLe i aM. not iNert; aM awaRe. juZ ambivaLent.
perhaPz..diS is juz a pHase...perhaPz itz contemPlatioN. perhaPz iTz juZ a highLy imaginatiVe minD waNdering...perhApz..perhaPz..perhapz!
So, priS..asK me agaiN in a yeaR's tyM, can?
n yeS, i'd trY to geT moMMy's briYani wiF loaDs of niCe side disHes 4U, hoRr? =P
-thOughTz sPoKen @ 4:33 PM :)
cooKies haNgoVer
Friday, October 20, 2006
i'M haVing a cooKieZ-baKing hanGoVer. i breaThe, dreaM, smeLL & perhaPz taSte liKe bisKot raYa. perhaPz i shUd juz serVe myseLf weN guesTs coMe. hOw 'bout taT?
2 doWn..2 mOre to Go. gaWd.
aLL in d naMe of goiNg aLong wiF waD maK sayZ, maKe her hePi..brinGing botH of US out of d cooKie-baKing hiaTus..n nOt forGettiNg..as raYa faVourz 4 d fUtuRe mOmsiE-in-Law.
[i caN aLmost heaR deaR griNNing in d bacKgroUnd.]
gaWd. dreAd. dreAd.
i Love bakiNg though. hAaa. iroNic ryT?
iTz cornfLakez & biskot dahLia nexT.
-thOughTz sPoKen @ 1:12 PM :)
aNy proMisEs?
Thursday, October 19, 2006
i heaRt diS soNg @ d moMent...:
nO proMisEs - ShayNe waRd
Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love. Every time you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high I don’t want to let go, girl. I just need you to know girl.
I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight, No promises. Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight
Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love. Everytime you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high I don’t want to let go, girl. I just need you you to know girl.
I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight, No promises. Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
I don’t want to run away, I want to stay forever, thru Time and Time.. No promises
I don’t wanna run away, I don’t wanna be alone No Promises Baby, now I need to hold you tight, now and forever my love
No promises
I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight, No promises. Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight, No promises. Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms Here tonight. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
erMmm..nO proMiseS to cLear waD's neCessarY BUT i shaLt trY!!!! (",)
onwaRddddd faaaAjJJJj!!!! =P
-thOughTz sPoKen @ 8:04 PM :)
d eNd. sOon.
iTz d 26tH daY of ramadHan. GeEz. suRe doeSn't feeL liKe a month jUz raN past mE. gaWd.
seeMz & feeLz liKe i'Ve losT aLL sensE of tYm.
i'Ve beeN swiMming & tryinG 2 catcH my breaTh in d sea of werK. nOw.. wiF festivitieS rouNd d corNer..itZ d yearLy roUtinE cleariNg uP d "uNseeN meSs" in d hoMe & "back to d kitcHen to get iN toucH wiF my abiLities" pHase.
*siGhzzzzz* i M serioUsly in NO mooD to ceLebratE dis Year. duN ask mE whY. itS Juz SO. haIzZZzzz.
mAcieM nak relek 1 corNer aJerrr... *roLL eyezz*
i'M on a few daYs leaVe. taT'd giMme suM leeWay 2 dO my chOres & baKing; N hopefuLLy no lasT minuTe frantic moMents liKe preVioUs yeaRz. my heaD, haNdz & feeT r juz foLLowing roUtine.
d braIn. hoWever, is parKed morE @ weRk & d ofis. mY bodY's @hoMe; yeT @d bacK..No, d froNt of mY miNd, itZ juz werK, werK..werK.
aiYoOo. i jUZ waNNa get oVer d next feW daYz n geT my aSs back to OffiCe. i NEED 2b on my desK..doiNg d tingz i niD to dO. juz weN my braiNz r begiNning to functioN....d festivitiEs had to kicK iN. aAargH!!!
audiT is in 2 weeKz tyM aNd i haVe reasOn to saY taT..i AM sO uLtra DeAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
d eNd of mY p/E/S traUma; It'd beTta eNd d bacKloG of mY caSe recordIngz as weLL. Ya Allah...heLp me! give my fingeRz d suPer soNic spEed to tyPe, n a fabuLoUs-O heAd tO tinK pLus owL-sharP eyeZ to siFt tHru mY squiggLe-wiggLe-heLLuva haNdwriting! =P
no reLatioN to d entrY; buT hecK..laff iT ofF!
-thOughTz sPoKen @ 7:02 PM :)
brieF-iNg
Friday, October 13, 2006
curreNt mOOd: b-L-U-e
cuRrent feeLingz: disaPpointEd; tiRed; aimLess
curreNt coPing mechaNism: beIng proDucTive (or @leasT tryinG to); burYing my heaD & heaRt intO werK
cuRreNt escaPe: in Vegas miNing gOld (u juZ lurVe onLine gaMes, doN't chA?)
currenT staTe of miNd: swiTchinG oFF. eLsewheRe. How's taT fer wantiNg to pacK uP & jUz rUn away?
iS taT brieF enuF?
nYtz werLd.
-thOughTz sPoKen @ 4:15 PM :)
hePi 26tH to Me.
Thursday, October 05, 2006
juZ rememBered taT i wAs boRn in d moNth of ramadhaN.
5th RamadHan 1401H.
ceTt. miSsed it. iTz oredi d 11tH.
technicaLLy 26 yeaRs of aGe accoRdinG to d isLamic caLendar.
waH. so oLd.
hMmm.
[mentaL note: deaR's On 21st dZulhijjaH 1400H]
-thOughTz sPoKen @ 2:55 PM :)
i'M a ceLebritY??
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
waS waitiNg for buKa...decideD to fiLL my tyM wiF sumting construcTive. *griNzz*
iF oNce famOus waSn't enOugh...here's anUder roUnd:
thIs couLd explain mY affiNity wiF priDe & preJudiCe & foreiGn induLgences sucH as koreAn & jaPaNese muVees & draMa seriEs. =P
uH-huH..diS exPlains my fetiSh fer d entertainMent werLd.. muvess + vCds..no wuNder i haVe john wOO, juLia stiLes & j.K.rowLinG on diS lisT.
*aHakzz*
wAaaHh....sO maNy ceLebritiEs looK like me!!! =P
-thOughTz sPoKen @ 9:42 AM :)
seeiNg nuMberzzz...NOttTt!!! =P
Sunday, October 01, 2006
heRe i aM in d oFfice on a saturdaY afterNoon. ReaChed office haLf an hOur laTe. enTer d OffiCe dOor & behoLd d proPhetiC expRessiOn taT saYz.. "U r Late!" hiaKhiaKhiaK. soRry bOss. YeS..i am guilTy as chaRged. =S sO sorrY, beeN feeLing siCk n raTher lethargiC of Late. *siGh*
ouT of aLL d ramadHans i'Ve gOne thRu' in my werkiNg liFe, diS is d moSt tirinG thuS faR. aiYooOo.
neH miNd..3 more weeKz of ramadhaN to gO. hoW faSt tyM fLies..gEez.
deciDed to taKe a breaK frOm aLL d thoUght-consuMing & finGer-pressiNg Sms-Es oN d heLpliNe phone wiF diS:
You scored as Mathematics. You should be a Math major! Like Pythagoras, you are analytical, rational, and when are always ready to tackle the problem head-on!
gaWd. i lurVe matHs, yEs. buT i m So nOt a maThs whIzz. in faCt, i deTest fiGures [whicH exPlains mY lurVE haTe reLationshiP wiF mr PES]; saVe d tuTor haT taT i'm weaRing.
bUt yeaH, d quiZ doEs me justiCe in terMs of anaLysing & rationaLising weN it coMes to probLem-soLving. *wiDe grinZzz* [whICh, couLD turN me intO miSs-tOo-practicaL @ tyMz. gaWd.baD faJ, baD.]
oKies..goTta geT back to werK. haVe a greaT weeKend peopLe!! i'M off to prePare myseLf for a weeKend oF sMs-es & wunDerrfOol conversaTions wiF d bLue-coLoured handphOne.... *kweNg kweNg kweNg*
falling hearts
