falling hearts

The-Lady

~peNgLipuR LaRa~
*Age: 16 pLus 10, CaNceRiaN
*GeNdeR: VeNuS
OccuPatiOn: proFessionaL heLper
*LoCatiOn: hOme is wheRe d heaRt is (",)


26 years have paSsed & many more fruitfuL years of Life ahead, insyaAllah. I tenK HIM for every breaThe i taKe & for aLL HIS bleSsings.


i aM stiLl learning, stiLL falling, stiLL risinG, stiLL loVing, stiLL whininG, stiLL appreciating, stiLL discoVerinG. i aM STILL.


my heaRt is fiLLed with lots of Love nOw. in 6 weeKs tyM...d heaRt wiLL be overfLowing much moRe wiTh loads of iT! *griNzz*

cOm'on, wuN u aDd more lurVee in my Life & GimmE sUm T-L-C!! (",)



*HUGS* TOTAL! give juzfaj more *HUGS*
Get hugs of your own

Desires


[better tomoRrows]
[to be induLged in bOoks & muVees]
[to be marrieD to thaT sUmoNe]
[weLL-deServeD resPite & resT]
[..& ONLY YOU]


What Inspires?


Her Tunes


By My Side

mengaPa iSa?
wrIte & pLay!!
duNia bakaL pM.. =P
d reD oNe =D
leMonz r swit!
teeNy-bOoper aLeeya!
aNa's horNy? =P
woMen wHo wiN
a fooL he is Not!
Linda's LaiR
X-TuTee.. =P
funKy juNi.. ;o)
yuN deaRest.. =)
kak ManJa!
A qaMostrophic Lyf
taN sri?? =P
kaK dieLLa
peNtas aKu!

Precious days

**What Hurts d Most**
**peMinat maTi keRas - caWan duNia**
**keNa taGGed laGikkk...**
**sHadez oF greY**
**HeRe or tHere?**
**deaRest naNa....**
**s.*.i.T.**
**loUd haiLer, naiL or haMMer?**
**frUst tOnggeK & otHer muSes**
**idoL feVer**

Lost Memories

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taT oNe moMent...whaT iF..iF onLy...
Wednesday, July 05, 2006

iN d waKe of My quarTer of a centurY's exisTence in dis werLd (thaNk U AllaH!), i aM:
  • throAt-hurtiNg (d kiNd tat huRtz weN u swaLLow & choKes uP a baD koFf on U suddeNly)
  • fEvering (boDy heatiNg up at niGht)
  • FeeLing so lethargiC
  • achinG aLL oVer (especiaLLy d reaL bad stiFf necK)
  • aLL stoNed uP
aM iN a midsT of a 2-daY werkshop; oUt of ofIs & smacKed intO a rOomfuL of traiNing maTes & d whoLe roUtinE of havIng new neighBourz, netwerKing & surfaCing taT much-difficuLt smiLe to brinG about On my faCe.

aFter todaY, i asKed myseLf: whaT if taT 1 preciOus moMent of mY cLients' compLaining, caLLing me uP to Lament & groUse was a decidiNg facTor beTween Life & deaTh? wHat iF d coNversatiOn wiF d cLient on d pHone or faCe-to-Face waS d Last liFeliNe a cLient haD to his/hEr existenCe on earF?

*geeZ scaRy*

iT was a waKe-uP caLL fer Me to reflEct on d werK i haVe doNe thuS faR. liKe it or noT, deR r tyMs weN doUbts & percePtionz toWards peopLe sinK in.

dO i giVe d NEEDED attentiOn to my caSes? dO i eveR subconsciOusly maKe mentaL noteS of certaiN cLients tat shUD b deserVing my attentiOn oVer soMe others? dO i bruSh off werDs oF suM cLients over d othEr?

tiMe: sOmetymz 24hrs isN't enuF. to asK for 36hrs or eveN more in a day wiLL no doUbt, exhaUSt aNy individuaL as weLL.

deAr Allah, granT me d abiLity to conscientiousLy reflect on mY professionaL seLf. In d rusH to meeT dateLines or review caSes; or eveN in a hasTe to settLe issUes in caSes, i may haVe (praY not!) overLookeD d underLying messaGEs from d cLients.

a sociaL workeR i aM; buT i aM a huMan tOo. Soo...

deaR Allah, chiDe me if i jUDge. smacK me wiF reaLisatioN iF douBt & percePtions cLoud mY asSessMent as a werKer. granT me d patieNce to fiNd d strenGth of 'chaLLenging' cLients & noT to giVe up hoPe weN suCh caSes brinG me doWn.

This haS beeN...

.reneWed conVictioNz.

d daY i'M reminDed taT i MAY be a LifeLine.

d daY i'm remInded taT littLe tinGz i dO MAY mean sumting to sum1 (eveN if i feeL otherwisE)..

d daY i'M remiNded taT: I = suPport = resoUrce.

d daY i waS resCued tOo frOm potentiaLLy dispLaying suicidaL behaviOurs tO d seLf - d werKer & d 25-year oLd-2B.
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GAWD.

abSent-mIndedneSs.lethaRgy.forgetfuLness.maturiTy.hoPe.responsibiLities. transitiOns.transformatiOn.uncertaiN.dreaMz.faitH.struggLing.saTisfiEd.MoRe.

72 moRe hours.

-thOughTz sPoKen @ 2:30 PM :)