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Wednesday, February 15, 2006

sO maNy tinGs can happen witHin a spaN of 2 weeKz. d iroNy of tyM. and of huMan behaviOur. weN tyM goEs by faSt..we compLain. weN tyM moVes too sLowlY, we get boreD. weN too maNy tiNgz happeN, we speaK of stRess & d lack of tyM to deaL wiF tiNgz. weN too LittLe fiLLs our tyM, we saY our life uneveNtfuL. iroNic. biG tyM. pFffTt.

to begiN wiF: i m on 2 daYs MC. feVer pLus its accompaNying symPtoms: coUgh, fLu, headacHe & a caSe of baD throAt infectiOn. If my eYes couLd juMp ouT of my socKet, deY wouLd; weN d docTor shOwed me mY temperatUre yesterdaY - 39.4 DegreEs, d fiGures shOutinG at Me. i'V not had feVer in a Loong, lOooNg tyM. sO, i'Ve beeN sLacKing, restIng & sLeeping d whoLe daY. sO weak. so Liat. sO riMas. pFfft. haTe faLling sicK.

catching uP on sLeep dis 2 days...

guEs i'Ve been preTty caughT up wif werK past few moNths. oN d brYt siDe, i geT to catch uP on my resT n stUfs..'cos seriousLy, i tiNk i'V been puttiNg mY head too much into werK & haVe not been taKing gud care of myseLf. dowN side, had to canceL engagemenTz, rescheduLe appointmeNts wif cLients..sHeesH. *faJ shows thuMbz down* Let's praY i get beTta sOon, b uP & ruNning soon baCk to my usuaL daiLy roUtine.

i tinK wen u haVe settLed ur miNd to werK towarDs sumtinG, maNy chaLLenges wiLl come ur waY. It aiN't easY weN it invoLves otHer parties, nameLy d eLders. *siGh* i shalt endure & i wiLL survIve. juz hoPe taT HE giVes me d strengTh to puLL thrU' d tesTs HE has giVen me. insyaAllah.. aMiin..

hoPe a cuPpa coFfee will helP soothe mY nerves...wen d goinG gets tuF..d tuF has to get gOing...i hoPe.. :S

BreaThe in..and oUt. I shouLd juz foCus on tingz i can controL & pUt my fooT in weN others staRt maKing decisioNs for me. Juz hope taT i am not aLone in hoLding on and defeNding dis PrinciPle. tinGz can Get reaLi2 painfuL sumtyMz.

werK has beeN fiNe; got A major event kamIn end dis mOnth. seeMs excitiNg & i'm looKing forwArd to it..dis is sUreLy a moNth of LurVeeee.. hiaKhiaKhiaK.. (",) d juggLing of tasKs & catchiNg up on deadLines - tat's d tad bit painfuL part though..

d ofiS is presentLy pLaying dis angeL-cheruB tingY. reaLi a chaLLenge to pass tiNgz to mY cheRub..tryIng 2b discreeT & unaffected@d saMe tyM caN b a painfuL experieNce. reaLi forCes d braiN 2b creatiVe iN tip-toeIng about n droPping off Notes & gifts withOut beiNg noticed.. hiakHiak..we'LL see if d cheruB caN guEss hu I aM. i tinK my cheruB has gueSsed whO i aM. kweNg kweNg. tuFf protectiNg identitiEs. hwahwahwa..

k..'nuFf said aboUt paiN. shaLL get oVer d paIns of beiNg sicK, beinG stuck & feeLing heLpless. n deN moVe.
On.

-thOughTz sPoKen @ 4:35 PM :)