Sunday, January 29, 2006
SometiMez i wuNder..dO i eVa get jeaLouss??
"Jealousy in romance is like salt in food. A little can enhance the savor, but too much can spoil the pleasure and, under certain circumstances, can be life-threatening."
~Maya Angelou
tiNgz liKe diS tiRe yoU much & maKes u tiNk twiCe suMtyMz. aM i feeLingless ke 'coS i seLdom geT dis feeLing? hOw much is muCh, how littLe is LittLe?
~i stOOd bY d rIver of dreaMz & wasH my teaRz awaY...i recaLL: "if loVe waS a choiCe..deN hOW can it giVe U such exquisite paiN?"~
-thOughTz sPoKen @ 11:32 PM :)
Saturday, January 28, 2006
i recaLL. sUmtinG i shaRed wiF yoUng couPles in a proGraMme.
A) yoUr view of d situaTioN
B) his/her viEw of d siTuatiOn
C) yoUr viEw on his/her view of d situatIon
D) his/her viEw oN youR view of d situaTion
coNfused yet? iT's caLLed criticaL inter-suBjectiVity. refLect on viEws & viEws of viEws. checK. reconciLe. coMproMise. werK it.
TaKe a viEw frOm heRe..
pFfFt.
reaLi a caSe of uPz n dOWnz. i m daMn tiRed.
aLredi tireD as i aM. duN niD moRe pfffT to draiN me. aaRgh.
y is it aLways d wOmen?
i'M ouTta heRe. :(
-thOughTz sPoKen @ 5:34 PM :)
Friday, January 27, 2006
How do I change?
If I feel depressed I will sing.
If I feel sad I will laugh.
If I feel ill I will double my labour.
If I feel fear I will plunge ahead.
If I feel inferior I will wear new garments.
If I feel uncertain I will raise my voice.
If I feel poverty I will think of wealth to come.
If I feel incompetent I will think of past success.
If I feel insignificant I will remember my goals.
Today I will be the master of my emotions.- Oq maNdiNo
n If i feeL liKe liKe bLowiNg uP..iTs bOnYoh baBy to d resCueeeee....:
huRhUrhur..sHouLd i or shouLd i Not??? ALaaaarr..tiDo Jer lah rehatKan oTak..
nYtz smUer. tuaN puteRi naK beraDuuUuu...(",)
-thOughTz sPoKen @ 4:40 PM :)
i loVe surprisEs. i reaLi dO. waD moRe couLD i asK fOr tHan a BIG surPrisE bOO! frOm mY dearesT huNny, swItie, lurVelY..bOo-ti-fooL.. adorabLe..aLredI chuBby sisTa... =D
YUYUUUUUUUUUUNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
mY gerLLLLLL..... *huGgzz*
i wiLL use it each tyM i driNk paPe kaT oPis & smiLe@oUr piC on my notiS boaRd.. ;o) noT siAw laaah..nie naMe nYer meNghargaI.... *griNzz*
teNx sOoo mucH yUnn..meaNs so mucH to Me...seE..sEe..sEe..d bLog profiLe dId d tricK dIdn't it? =P huRhurhUr..
bIIiiIiiiiiIIiiGGGGGGGGGGGG huGGgzzzz foR yuYunnnn...iTs aLL trUe; i quOte:
"here R suM tinGz werth sharIng of tt someone i call a fwen
....a sisTer (preseNt tense for buLLy)
playful n cheeKy she caN be.. at any opportunity;
indecisiVe & uncertaIn she haS been..
in futuRe i wisH thosE 2b 'had beeN'...
big tummy she haS, juz put all ur food to d test
passionate towaRdz love n life,
to men out der, for her hand u muz strive
engage her in a discussion, she will give u her attention
maNy would come to a realisaTion, tt her frenshiP & loVe meaNz her dediCation"
Can i crOon foR U?? kweNg kweNg kweNg...laLalAlalaaaaaa....
She's aLwayZ a woMan....bY biLLy joeL
She can kill with a smile
She can wound with her eyes
And she can ruin your faith with her casual lies
And she only reveals what she wants you to see
She hides like a child
But she's always a woman to me
She can lead you to love
She can take you or leave you
She can ask for the truth
But she'll never believe
And she'll take what you give her as long as it's free
Yeah, she steals like a thief but she's always a woman to me
Oh, she takes care of herself
She can wait if she wants
She's ahead of her time
Oh, and she never gives out
And she never gives in
She just changes her mind
And she'll promise you more
Than the Garden of Eden
Then she'll carelessly cut you
And laugh while you're bleedin'
But she'll bring out the best
And the worst you can be
Blame it all on yourself
Cause she's always a woman to me
Oh, she takes care of herself
She can wait if she wants
She's ahead of her time
Oh, and she never gives out
And she never gives in
She just changes her mind
She is frequently kind
And she's suddenly cruel
But she can do as she pleases
She's nobody's fool
And she can't be convicted
She's earned her degree
And the most she will do
Is throw shadows at you
But she's always a woman to me
tenKiu oNce agaiN yUn..u reaLi maDe mY daY.. MuuUuuuaaAahhhh!!!
---{---@
-thOughTz sPoKen @ 4:22 PM :)
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
iTz 530 in d maWning. caMe bacK frOm werK & tuiTioN (buT deN agaiN, tuitiOn IS werK too)..erMmm..werK, yesTerdaY nyT & i weN straiGht to beD. sumtyMz taT juZ haPpenz ryT? shacKed weN u coMe bacK. u juZ waNNa buM aroUnd n resT AWHILE. eNd uP u juZ gO zzzzZzz d whoLe nYt. huRhUrhuR. lEpaKz tseH. niaRi is anOther lOoNg daY.
iF i toT i'V manaGed tyM faiRly weLL & staYed organiSed in D pasT..tHen i serioUsly neeD to RegrOup maNz! i reaLi2 neeD to reLearN doinG aLL thoSe tinGz.
i Need mOre haNDz pLUs strenGth pLeaSeeee.....
i tiNk i'M begiNning to heaR voiCes in mY heaD; aLL@oNe tyM. aLL asKing me tO dO d tiNgz i'Ve noT doNe. aLL trYing to fYt fEr prioRitY frOm yOurs truLy. GeeZ..i soUnd sO schizO. heHehe..weLL, d iNNer Me speaKz. "faJ bUat niE duLu.", "faJ keJe cePat sikIt.", "faJ haBiskaN beNde niE.", "faJ..keJe tuH bLom buaT.." gaWd. i soUnd liKe MAk. kweNg kweNg kweNg..
un abLe to accePt d raTe i'M groWing ke? suMtyMz i wuNDer iF i riLi aM gOing thRu' diS phaSe of questiOning myseLf & my abiLitieZ. Not taT i'M not tenKfuL taT i'M giVen d oPportuNitiEs & faiTh tO caRry out my respOnsibiLitieZ. i aM. i reaLi aM. iTs weDer i caN liVe uP & riSe to d oCcasiOn.
i Noe chaLLengeZ, i dO. i aM chaLLengeD rYt nOw. iTs onLi jaNuary & i aM:
a tAd biT eXhausTed...
caPek deH skaraNg iNi. maU saKit poN adA. maU pusiNg2 aJa kepaLa iNi. aDuuUuuhhh...
oK..breaThe in..breaThe oUt..
gaWd..aKu niE macaM asiK komPlen psL keJe. buKan kompLen..luahaN aJer, tinKing aLoud laH kataKan. cuBaaN kU skaraNg niE. i nOe i caN get tHru'. i wiLL & i haVe to. 'coS i aM, mE.
"soMe peopLe jUz pusH d ceiLing uP higHer & hiGher. aNd u'Re oNe of thOse, weN giVen chaLLengeS..jUz do taT."
i caN do tis. shaLL maKe do wiF my haNdz, taKe loaDz of vitaMin C, eNergY boosTerz & loaDz of seLf caRe, pLeaSeee.
anOther daY begiNz...tiRed, bUt stiLL waNting to gO on strOng..(",)
-thOughTz sPoKen @ 10:07 PM :)
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Once uPon a yesterdaY..........
-thOughTz sPoKen @ 9:42 PM :)
i M taKing an extremeLy loNg tyM to adaPt i tiNk. i tiNk i weRy too Much. tiNk deR's too much douBt. n i haVe no ideA whEre or whY theSe anxietieZ r heRe. juZ hoPe deY'r not heRe to sTay. i'Ve beeN livinG liFe weeK by weeK wif werK; uLtra maNy werK. (piaNgz so maNy doubLe Uz my eyez keRo oreDi.haH!) humaiRa & mE werKing our aRses oFf d proG evaLuatiOn rePot. pooR gerL's koFfing & sniffIng thRu' aLL d werK. meH kita abiskaN cecePat jadi bLeh amaN idoP. heHe..
beeN sLacking & stoNe-iNg awaY. Note: i seLdom parTy. gettiN' oLd. d oni paRty i geT iS d bLardY corNy joKez..poKing fuN wif my maiTez & simPly trYing to liVe our liVes d besT we caN. (geeZ..duN get me wroNg. we aiN't TAT patHetiC..hurHurhur.)
tuiTioN's staRted. i'm stiLL struggLing wif d scheduLez. gaWd. diS tyM aLL neaRby. iTz 4tyMz a weeK thO'. lalalaLAlala..no kOmenZ. heH. k laH. leT d piCz do d toKking.
mY..mY..lOok@ aLL d fOod.
2 weeKz baCk, we weRe aT tanjoNg paGar raiLway staTion fiLLing our emPty tuMMiez wif gLorioUs fooD. d besT-esT paPer thoSai i'V eatEn in my enTire liFe. kuaH diEr niKmaaAattt..faJar kaSi 5 ooOoo!! =P aNa had chapaTi, d sambaL sotoNg was fabuLous. we'D murtabaK, roJak, nasi ayaM, burger ramLy..n oF tos', waD's lepaK withOut oUr teH tariKz & d Likez?? *griNzz*
staNdarD. daH maKan mestI poSe. tenGok ciK abaNg tuH. buKan maIn laGikz. haHa.
d laDiez aLL smiLez for my cammiE.
aArrGh..attacK of d ta-Gha moNstErzzz!!!
hUrhurhur..aFter d maKan sessiOn. reverSe roLe pLakz jadik. yG coupLe balik awaL. yg singLe-mingLe melencoNg ke mt.faBer. HAHA! koNon-Nyer reccEe kaN spoT untUk d coupLe. aL-kiSaaaHhh..hurHurHur..
lasT weeK weN fer trainIng 'boUt woMen in isLam. leMme see. taT was d hOw maNy tyMz i've seeN d CourT's preseNtatiOn. 4 or 5? heHe. huMaira & me foUnd a waY to eNtertaiN ourseLves. N ya shE woKe me uP from my haLf sLumBer. buat maLu aKu aJer. usTaz yaNg maNis tuh naMpak agaK nYer. kweNg kweNg kweNg.
yes i Know. uLtra-esT poor attemPt @ a sHot of d swiT wraPper
ya maNz. diN noE peeLing sWit wraPPerz was thriLLing. greaT comic reLief laffiNg@d quoTez oN d insIDez of d sWit. i quOte: "maY yoU get a watermeLon and b heLpfuL." or suMting to taT effeCt. "true loVe has no endiNgz. trUe loVe doeS not haVe an eNding." LikE huH? preciseLy. gO buY sWitHearT sweeTz peopLe! haHa!
I aM a kaUr. =P
i kNew der was suMting wroNg in d waY deY speLLed apaK's naMe. mY braIN muz haVe beeN reaL sLow maN. diN reaLise i waS conVerted to d kaUr (pardon d pUn). duN werY, i weaR my tudoNg; noT d saRban oN my heaD. *griNzz*
faJ turNed faJar-saN lasT saTurdaY:
memoIrz of a geisHa. meMoirZ of a queSt for loVe?
waaah. taa-chiNg shOw. hatsuMomo uLtra bi-aTchy. keN wataNabe, mr chairmaN diN seeM to haVe agEd. saYuri dari aGe 9 taHun saMpai 20-an giTu. taKkan si chairMan taK tua2 tseH. haHa. buT yeaH. maKes me woNder. waD if duA insaN tuH meaNt fer eacH Other buT dey go a suPerbLy lOoong waY to finD each otHer. macAm chaiRmaN ngaN sayUri. sO wad? lessOn of d daY is luahkaN sahaJa raSa hati, mana taU si aNu terpiKat daN terjaToh saMe? soaL hati nie compLicaTed eh..erMm..tak tak tak..kiTa yg buaT compLicaTed. taK gitu? tePok dada siKit taNye sLera.
micheLLe yeoH as mamEha.
sumhoW i foUnd micheLLe yeOh more eLeganT & mesmerizIng. yA..wHo couLd forGet..sHe proNounCed "daNNa" wiF a thiCk saBdu. teEheeHee. memOirz lefT d grUp mucH to craP abOut. greaT imaGinatiOn dis peePz haVe, nameLy sLeeVez, eeLz & caVez..HAHA!
as usuaL, caM-whOring aFter d mUvee. ;o)
we'D diNNer kaT beacH roAd aFter d muVee. seMpat amiK piCz tyM ngaH tunGgu traiN. i haVe d weirdesT of enCounterz weN i'M wif d gruP. meT d puNitiVe goDfaTher & his passiVe soN whiLst traveLling on d traIn. kaHkaHkaH.
coMing ryT uP...i waNna catCh diS....:
le grand voYage; leT's watch iT kiaHhh!!!!waaaah..so mucH rambLingz. heHe. Ok. stiLL neeD to ceNtre myseLf & fiNd my equilIbriuM. dis caNnot go oN beB. u neVa taKe such a loNg tyM to adaPt tseH. buck uP swiTie. *huGggGgzzz*
iTu aKu. Ok kaAan?
daH 5 paGi lebiH poN. moDe burOng haNtu betoL arH. laGik 4 jaM dah start keJe. naK cariK kaYu. naK cariK kaYu. (soRry ah liNe cipLakz! =P)
-thOughTz sPoKen @ 9:19 PM :)
mY shoe siZe's 8, waD's yoUrz? =P Sunday, January 15, 2006
heHe..i'M not here to decLare mY shOE sizE (weLL, i'V partLy doNe taT). But to peN sum tiNgz bout thiS:
iN her sHoeZ... i enJoyed d muVee; d Laffter, d paiNz. sHed a fEw tearz
tOO..
watched d muVee wiF deaR on fRi eveNing. caMeron diaz'S suCh a versatiLe actreSs. go catch d muvee peopLe. dYnamics of a sibLing relatioNshiP, its uPs & doWns, d crisIs & diLemmaz..@d enD of d daY, u'Re stiLL bLood.
waD i loVed mosT 'boUt d moVee is d uSe of poeTry to refLect meaNing & emOtioNz. taa-chiiNg. i criEd tseH. weN maGgie (diaZ's sCreeN persoNa) reaD tO aN Aged professOr a poeM; and weN sHe reciTed a poeM @roSe's (Toni coLLette) weddiNg. aKu nie kaN geMbenG. hehe. =P
simPle poeM; wiF suCh depThs, such boNdz & weaLth oF emoTioNz..
i carry your heart with me
by e. e. cummings
i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fear
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)
tsK..tsk..sniFfz..sniFfz..aWwww.....perfeCt anniversaRy giFt. *griNzz*
her eYez r so prettY..n her smiLe can liGht uP aNy faCe lookiNg @her.. =)
her's d othEr excerPt oF a poeM; d oNe shE reaD tO d Aged professOr:
One Art
The art of losing isn't hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.
Lose something every day. Accept the fluster
of lost door keys, the hour badly spent.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.
Then practice losing farther, losing faster:
places, and names, and where it was you meant
to travel. None of these will bring disaster.
I lost my mother's watch. And look! my last, or
next-to-last, of three loved houses went.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.
I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster,
some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent.
I miss them, but it wasn't a disaster.
— Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture
I love) I shan't have lied. It's evident
the art of losing's not too hard to master
though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.
— Elizabeth Bishop
d lOSs of d bonDz..of reLationshiPz. hOw easiLy we caN lose deM. loSs oF d tangiBles leaD to loss of d intangibLes. =( geeZ..noW i miss poetRy. laSt poetry booK i toucHed was waaaY bacK in JC - ElizaBeth JenninGs's coLLectioN.
~ eveN permanencE is temPoraRy. bUt it wuN hurT if wE reLived moMentz to keeP oUr loVe aliVe wouLd it?
we wanT it. for keePz. we Do. wE reaLi dO. ~
-thOughTz sPoKen @ 6:53 PM :)
| READ | = READ in between the lines.. Saturday, January 14, 2006
suMtinG i chaNced uPon whiLe goiNg thrU' a freN's sIte. pardOn d innueNdoZ. nO pUn intendeD. hurHurhur.. =P
Man who stand on toilet high on pot. Man who jump off cliff, jump to conclusion. Man who run behind car get exhausted. Virgin just like balloon ... one prick, all gone. Secretary not permanent until she screwed on desk. Man who put cock in Peanut Butter jar is Fucking Nuts. Man with tool in woman mouth May not necessarily be dentist. Couple on 7-day honeymoon make hole weak. Man with hand in pocket feel cocky all day. Man who excels at putting worm on hook is Master Baiter Man young when he snatches kisses, old when he kisses snatches. Man who go to sleep with itchy butt, wake with smelly fingers... War do not determine who right, war determine who left. Man who walk through airport turnstile sideways going to Bangkok Schoolboy who play with schoolgirl during wrong period, get caught red-handed. Girl who sit on judge's lap get an honourable discharge. Man with tight trousers is pressing his luck. He who farts in church sits in own pew. He who sneezes without a handkerchief takes matters into his own hands. He who fish in other's hole often catch crabs. Man who go to bed with hard problem wake up with solution in hand. Squirrel who run up woman's leg not find nuts. He who kisses woman's ass get crack in jaw. Passionate kiss just like spider web - lead to undoing of fly. Girl who sit on jockey's lap get hot tip. If you want pretty nurse, you got to be patient. Man who stand on street corner with hands in pockets, not feeling crazy, feeling nuts. Woman who go to bachelor apartment for snack get tit-bit. Man who put rooster in Ice Compartment take out Stiff cock. Nail on board is not good as screw on bench.
noW, teLL me whO so frEe to pLay (wiF werdz)?? *griNzz*
-thOughTz sPoKen @ 5:14 PM :)
Thursday, January 12, 2006
deciDed to jUz do a ruN tHrouGh of lYf@dmOment.
nEws fLash oF mE!
*faiLEd my TP for d 2nd tyM*
bLardy testeR saId my laNe disipLin daMn baD. waS preTTy pissEd oFf 'coS i toT i did fiNe overaLL. waS quiTe affecTed bY d faiLure initiaLLy. i'm oVer it lEr. tOt taT i couLd haVe goTten my leseN by d 2nd sittinG. aLas, nO rezeKi. naK buaT ape kaN? ntaH braPer buLan laGikz naK keNe tunGGu fer d nexT oNe. cam daH pataH smAngat tseEehh... =S neH miNd, cuBa & cuBa lagiKz.
*werKz in progresS*
JD baRu; skoP keJe poN baRu. seLf-exPlanatorY kaaN?
*tiPah tertiPu baAang!!*
eVen thOse whO baNter haVe feeLingz, reaL enUf noT 2b cheaTed. gaWd. pfffTt. neH miNd. goT 1 tuiTion oFfer@d moMent. kaLo ade reZekI, daPat 1 moRe, insyaAllah...
*buaT TJTa*
oK laH. satisfIEd wiF d tesT. aLhamduLillah, affirMz d changeS iN aSpecTz of mE i'Ve werKed hard to deveLop. (",)
*loVe-froNt*
waD's loVe withoUt itS tesTz?? i'M triEd & tesTed. nOw even mOre sO siNce his mOm haD goNe off fer haJ. maY Allah graNt me patiencE & abiLity to kawaL praSaan. mucH neeDed. diRe. kweNgz2. taT besiDes d poInt, tiNgz r fiNe. =)
*CharMed*
aKu daH giLer chaRmed laaaah!!!
*new Love*
Lisa oNo i loiiiKeeeeEeee.....mcM nak bLajar giTar pLakz..teeHeehee.. =D
sekiaN, taMat beriTa paGi iNi.
wassaLam.
hAha.
-thOughTz sPoKen @ 7:21 PM :)
iTz aLmost 3aM in d maWning & i'M fiLLing uP earwaX wif oLdies. i lurVeeee oLdiez..sO vinTage gitU. teNx to ruDz & yuN; gOt me huNtinG fer biLLy joEl & d liKez. tO my surPrisE, diS so caLled 'oldies' r tuNez i've huMmed & saNg aLong to. Juz taT i diN nOE wHo d siNgers weRe..hUrHurHur. thUmbz uP to biLLy joeL, d temPtatioNz, doris daY & d LiKez..
kLasiK giTu kaaaNnn... =)
i luRveeee dis SonG by biLLy.
For the loNgesT tiMe
Whoa oh oh oh
For the longest time
Whoa oh oh
For the longest...
If you said good-bye to me tonight
There would still be music left to write
What else could I do?
I'm so inspired by you
That hasn't happened for the longest time
Once I thought my innocence was gone
Now I know that happiness goes on
That's where you found me
When you put you're arms around me
I haven't been there for the longest time
Whoa oh oh oh
For the longest time
Whoa oh oh
For the longest time
I'm that voice you're hearing in the hall
And the greatest miracle of all
Is how I need you
And how you needed me too
That hasn't happened for the longest time
Maybe this won't last very long
But you feel so right
And I could be wrong
Maybe I've been hoping too hard
But I've gone this far
And it's more than I hoped for
Who knows how much further we'll go on?
Maybe I'll be sorry when you're gone
I'll take my chances
I forgot how nice romance is
I haven't been there for the longest time
I had second thoughts at the start
I said to myself - "Hold onto your heart"
Now I know the woman that you are
You're wonderful so far
And it's more than I hoped for
I don't care what consequence it brings
I have been a fool for lesser things
I want you so bad
I think you ought to know that
I intend to hold you for the longest time
Whoa oh oh oh
For the longest time
Whoa oh oh
For the longest time
Whoa oh oh
For the longest time (Repeat and fade)
oooH..oooh..Ooh Ooh Ooh..fOr d LonGest tyM..*faJ snapz her finGerz* i lurVee dis sOng...(",)
fOr d loNgesT tyM..i hoPe 2dO onLi d besT @werK. for d longesT tyM, i haD hoPed fOr moRe loVe tO exiSt wiThin d famiLy. fOr d loNgest tyM, i had waNted 2b a woMan whO iS independenT & geTs d tiNgz shE striVe foR. fOr d loNgest tyM, i hoPe to be abLe to loVe & be loVed.
naaH...duN wiSh to be wisHing & hoPing fOr d loNgest tyM, fOreVa rYt?
dEr is No trY, juZ DO? is deR?
*weiRd earLy maWning toTz in proGress*
haNgoVer frOm d NEW yeaR i tiNk. stiL not settLed eh?
aPa daAaaah!!! PoodAaaAahhh! =P bEtta sLeep sOon. seriUs bisNess haPpening 10am & pM tyM laTer oN..lalalala..fOr d loNgest tYm...... *wiNkzz*
-thOughTz sPoKen @ 7:05 PM :)
Thursday, January 05, 2006
12 more hRz & i'M feeLing aLL jitterY insiDe. Now i apprecIate sit-DoWn exaMz beTta, mucH2 beTta.
perOt aKu mcM tumbLiNg2 in d insiDe oF a wasHing machiNe. Rase serBa tak keNa. nie kaLi keduA i'M goiNg fer d tesT, taPi raSe geMentar nYer semakiN ketaRa. sHeesh. perhaPz i pressure myseLf wiF d diRe neeD to pass. Ya AllaH..tenanGkan fikiraN ku esOk, bantu laH hambaMu ini yaNg susaH payaH dah latiH laMe2. aMiin.
memandangkaN ku begitU gemeNtar skaLi...Ku buaT lah kuiZ2 utK menghiLangkaN sTress.. hurHurhUr.. =P
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aiSehmaN..baB mp3 tu betoL giLerrrr!!! ;o)
riGht On 'boUt me beiNg d canceR craB. fWaaah..teRer tseH test niE!!! =D
haHahahaha!! nie poN betoL..he'S a scorpiO!! =P
yeaH..haraP2 ku daPat jaLani ujiaN ini deNgan semaNgat ke-rUgged-aN.. reLek & raWk aJer esOk faJ!! *breaThe iNnn...... breaThe ouT*
praY fer Me, mY freNzz...
Ya Allah..makbuLkan dOa kU iNi...(",)
aMiin.
oK laH..naK resT ajer. siaPkan diri untuK esOk...
-thOughTz sPoKen @ 3:30 PM :)
reTrospecTion..contempLatiOnzz..& more refLectiOnzz... Tuesday, January 03, 2006
"woMen Need reaL moMentz of soLitude & self-reFlectiOn to baLance oUt hOw mucH of ourseLves we give awaY.."
hMmm..wiF 2005 goNe, waD lies ahEad foR me in thiS new yeaR, 2006? i'D wriTten d abovE werDz in an earLier entry; leFt me wunderiNg, hOw much of my 'seLf' i'Ve giVen awaY.
iT maY soUnd a tragedY 2b giVing away oNe's seLf. But isN't oUr lIFe greater thAn Just, ourseLves? d iNter-cOnnecTedneSs of ouR liVes to taT oF otHerz; how otHers infLuenCe our acTioNz & decisiOnz aNd likeWise, hOw We infLuenCe otHerz..
i'Ve aLways giVEn a larGe part of my liFe to sysTemz & individuaLz - wOrk, famiLy, freNz & otHer individuaLz or activiTies. i'Ve aLways put otHerz befOre myseLf, aND oVer d yeaRz, i'Ve learNt taT i niD 2b seLfisH aT tyMz. bUt neVertheLess, thOse important to Me stiLL maTTer a Lot to Me. eveN if i dUn shOw taT as oftEn as i shouLd. i juZ knOW deY DO matter.
2005 seeZ me devoTiNg a Lot of myself to werK, famiLy n loVe. werK has beeN fulfiLLing, and insyaAllah, wiLL alwaYS be. mY hoPe is to be abLE to grOw and develoP more profesionaLLy dis yeaR..dis yeaR saW me taKing uP & beiNg giVen maNy chaLLenges@werK. i'M gLad i maNaged weLL & i hoPe 2b abLe to maNage beTta, especiaLLy wif my caSes.
i received mY 2006 jOb descriPtioN yesTerdaY. d moMent i reaD it, my heart beaT sO faSt & maNy toTz camE to my heaD: aLL wunderinG if i couLd shouLder d resPonsibiLitieS giVen tO me. i M exciTed about d chaLlenges, yeT uncertaiN. gUes i'LL juz nOe beTTa weN i DO deM ryT?
sPeakinG of famiLy..i gUes i'V learNt 2accept d staTe of certain tiNgz, or raTher, individuaLz in d famiLy. no doUbt i geT sO daMn frustRated most of d tyM, bUt tiNgz r juz gonna b d waY deY r. mY onLi hope fer 2006 is feR der 2b hoPe fer dis familY memberz of miNe. hoPE fer change & hoPe fer deM 2 haVe d realisatiOn of their actiOnz.
iT caN b quite painfuL weN u're d oNe always depended uPon, yeT, often tYmz nOt understOod & misUnderstOod. but yeaH..famiLy's family after aLL. HE sees waD i dO..n HE sees waD my famiLy has doNe fer mE, whicH i haVe not. beaRing taT in miNd becoMes a buffeR to my frustRatiOnz & angeR. i jUz pRay my effOrtz r bLesseD, insyaAllah.
loVe: i foUnd loVe agaiN in 2005. loVing has tauGht me maNy tiNgz aBout forgiVing, acceptiNg, toleranCe, coMproMise, as weLL as understandinG. aLL lessoNz i couLdn't leArn or reaD elSewheRe. thanK u Allah, feR briNging taT sPeciaL suM1 to shAre my woEz & teaCh me d LittLe tiNgz in liFe. hoPefuLLy, 2006 wiLL see Me & deaR briNging Our relationshiP to d next leveL. sO peePz, probabLy seeiNg me taKing up more tuitiOn jObz dis yeaR yar? *griNzz*
a toT crOssed mY head thO' d otHer daY..i reaLised taT i feeL uneasY beinG aLone. i usEd 2b abLe to speNd tyM aLone - watch mUveez aLone, waLk arOund aLone. stoNe. aLone. sumhoW, i diN feeL comfortabLe beiNg aLone. SheeSh. losT tat paRt of me; perhApz beiNg aroUnd deaR often lateLy maDe me feeL taT waY. sUmtinG i neeD to re-LearN & geT useD too.
iTz ok 2b aLone. i haVe to geT used tO beinG aLone. i maY have to waLk aLone suM paThz diS yeaR. Not eaSy, taT i Noe. But i wiLL liVe thRu' d LonelIness, if i haVe to.
2006: hopefuLLy toMorroW is a Better daY thaN todaY..
maY d yeaR aheaD b fruitfuL & maY d grOwinG by d moNthz be fiLLed wiF maNy more meaNingfuL experieNces..n hoPe i duN losE my seNse of seLf in my quesT to fuLfiLL my diFfereNt roLez in d sysTemz n wiF d individuaLz aroUnd me..aMiin.
i oSo praY fer 2006 to bE a greaT yeaR fer peoPle i loVe: my famiLy, deaR, eLin, freNz liKe kaK feah & my sLacker maTez, as weLL as my coLLeagUez..
*faJ in fuLL geaR to Live her chaLLengez*
carPe diEm!
KamBataaaaaaYyyyyy!!!! =P
Ready to roLL...back to werK in 9 hoUrz tyM! nyTz everyOne!! (",)
-thOughTz sPoKen @ 4:08 PM :)
NeW yeaR weekenD - grOOvY baBy!! =P
greetIngz aLL!! iTz aLreadY 2006. New yeaR, nEw hoPez, neW dreaMz & a BeTTer Me, hopefuLLy.
ceLebratiOn? not reaLi. 'cePt suM cLean fUn wiF famiLy, feLLow werkerZ & mY sLackEr maiteZ. (",) i'M a hePi gerL on d nEw yeaR'z wKD! wHeEEee~
iT was a g-r-e-a-T retRo affaiR aT rendezVous hoteL wiF feLLow coLLeagUEz & my famiLy. d theMe feR diS yeaR'z annuaL staFF famiLy daY waS RETRO. haD mE skimmIng arOund feR retrO toP & accesOrieZ. i toT waD i haD worN waS waAa-aaY beLow reTro staNDarDz. heHe..laSt miNute imProvisatiOn of a scaRf to be a saSh pLus retrO shaDez & fLashY accesOrieZ. itU poN jaDii-daH! =P
mE & odIn (mY 4th sisTa!)
oDin's yOungesT: firdaUs d cheeKy boY wiF yaNty, mY 3rd sisTa's yoUngesT..feeLing reTro toL anaK sedare Ku! haHa!
maK wiF her eLdesT graNddaUghter & grandsoN
gaWd..i riLi let mY hair doWn duriNg d fuNctiOn. haHa..daH soT saNgat gaK nyer. gUEs i waS juz hePi juz beinG abLe to briNg maK, mY siS & d kIDz wiF me to a werK functiON. feeLz sOo satisfYing to see deM enjOying d fOod & d gaMez. meeSha , A'aN & yaNty wOn preSsieZ!! heHehe.. =D
mY faVouriTe piC. piNky laDieZ & eLvis cLone! haHa! =D taT was My retRo reNdezvOus oN my nEw yeaR's eVe. More piCz of d fUnctiOn heRe.
buMmed wiF my sLacker maiTez at JP's mCcaFe aFter taT & More caM-whOring in actIon wiF deM. Haha!
reTro haNgover wiF maiTez oN nEw yeaR's eVe
neW yeaR'z daY: waD was pLanned waS a treKking triP frOm maCritchiE to BukiT timaH. deaR was driVing & we triEd our lucK driVing down to MacritcHie wif d hoPe taT it wouLd stoP raiNing By d tyM we reaChed deR. weLL, juZ in case u'Re wuNdering weDer we sweaTed it oUt, nO we didN't. feR d 1st tyM in d hisTory of sLackiNg around, i sPent 14hrZ wiF my maItez [wiF d excePtioN of chaLetz & hoLidaY triPz, of courSe!]. tenX to d dOwnPour, we heaDed to AdaM roAd fer breaKfasT, deN to bUgis to shoP, tO kaMpong gLam caFe fOr lePak sessiOn-cuM-gettiNg drUnk oN teH tyM & finaLLy, to WesT cOast fer diNner / suPper. OMG.
i draNk teH liKe 3 tyMz d whoLe daY. pRacticaLLy tooK aLL my meaLz wiF mY maiTez! neVertheLess, despite d achiNg feeT & haVing to wiThstaNd d coLd, i'D loaDz of fuN.
nEw yeaR = neW waLLet, new cLotheZ..& nEw... erMmmm..asK ana pLeaSee! hahAHhaha..i loiKeeee my purChaSes!!
gerLfreNz & mE: tai-taIz in Car. HeHe.. =P
-thOughTz sPoKen @ 3:00 PM :)
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