falling hearts

The-Lady

~peNgLipuR LaRa~
*Age: 16 pLus 10, CaNceRiaN
*GeNdeR: VeNuS
OccuPatiOn: proFessionaL heLper
*LoCatiOn: hOme is wheRe d heaRt is (",)


26 years have paSsed & many more fruitfuL years of Life ahead, insyaAllah. I tenK HIM for every breaThe i taKe & for aLL HIS bleSsings.


i aM stiLl learning, stiLL falling, stiLL risinG, stiLL loVing, stiLL whininG, stiLL appreciating, stiLL discoVerinG. i aM STILL.


my heaRt is fiLLed with lots of Love nOw. in 6 weeKs tyM...d heaRt wiLL be overfLowing much moRe wiTh loads of iT! *griNzz*

cOm'on, wuN u aDd more lurVee in my Life & GimmE sUm T-L-C!! (",)



*HUGS* TOTAL! give juzfaj more *HUGS*
Get hugs of your own

Desires


[better tomoRrows]
[to be induLged in bOoks & muVees]
[to be marrieD to thaT sUmoNe]
[weLL-deServeD resPite & resT]
[..& ONLY YOU]


What Inspires?


Her Tunes


By My Side

mengaPa iSa?
wrIte & pLay!!
duNia bakaL pM.. =P
d reD oNe =D
leMonz r swit!
teeNy-bOoper aLeeya!
aNa's horNy? =P
woMen wHo wiN
a fooL he is Not!
Linda's LaiR
X-TuTee.. =P
funKy juNi.. ;o)
yuN deaRest.. =)
kak ManJa!
A qaMostrophic Lyf
taN sri?? =P
kaK dieLLa
peNtas aKu!

Precious days

**a PreggiE's refLectioN**
**coMic reLief**
**Date Of d yeaR....**
**d oNe abOut motHerhOod...**
**I loVe U becaUse......**
**d missiNg pieCe is missiNg agaiN**
**d iNNer d(A)emOn**
**picTure perFect**
**speLL: e-L-e-v-e-N**
**mY reD 'Ain**

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waNNa runaWay??
Saturday, December 31, 2005

cuRrent earwaX: runaWay traIn by souL asyLum. i liKeee..aLL diS roCk baLLadz lelaMe giTu, reaLi2 soothiNg to d earz.. (",)

RunaWay traiN - souL asyLum
Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a blow torch burnin
I was a key that could use a little turnin

So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep
There's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

Chorus
Runaway train never goin back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Can you help me remember how to smile
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded
Life's mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

And Everything seems cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it

CHORUS

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughin' at the rain
Little outta touch, little insane
Just easier than dealin with the pain

CHORUS

Runaway train never comin' back
Runaway train tearin' up the track
Runaway train burnin' in my veins
I runaway but it always seems the same

nO poiNt ruNNinG awaY aiTe..uNpacK mY baGGages, waSh cLean aLL d taiNted Or dirTy liNen & moVe on wIf liFe. dOesn't maTTer iF i geT deR oN an airpLane OR a buLLock CarT...

jaNji kU telah meNcUba daN saMpai juA akhirNya..

-thOughTz sPoKen @ 10:28 AM :)

iTz aBout personaLitY...
Friday, December 30, 2005

i'M baCk wiF more tesTz...heHehe..itZ aLL abOut beIng mE..

Main Type
Overall Self
Take Free Enneagram Personality Test


Enneagram Test Results
Type 1 Perfectionism |||||||||||| 46%
Type 2 Helpfulness |||||||||||||||| 70%
Type 3 Image Focus |||||||||| 34%
Type 4 Hypersensitivity |||| 18%
Type 5 Detachment |||||||||| 38%
Type 6 Anxiety |||||||||||||| 58%
Type 7 Adventurousness |||||||||||||||||| 74%
Type 8 Aggressiveness |||||||||||||||| 62%
Type 9 Calmness |||||||||||||||||| 74%
Your main type is 7
Your variant is social
Take Free Enneagram Personality Test


yeaH..yeaH..i nEed adVentuRe. i Need chaLLenges. kaLo taK, ku senanG bOriiNggGgg... =P

aNd anotHer One....

ESFP - "Entertainer". Radiates attractive warmth and optimism. Smooth, witty, charming, clever. Fun to be with. Very generous. 8.5% of the total population.
Free Jung Personality Test (similar to Myers-Briggs/MBTI)

iTz aLL abOut coNtroL..

Locus of Control Test Results
Internal Locus (75%) Individual believes that their life is defined more by their decisions and internal drive.
External Locus (25%) Individual believes that their life is defined more by genetics, environment, fate, or other external factors.
Take Free Locus of Control Test
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mE scaLed oN 16 faCtorz:

Cattell's 16 Factor Test Results
Warmth ||||||||||||||||||||| 62%
Intellect ||||||||||||||||||||| 62%
Emotional Stability |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74%
Aggressiveness ||||||||||||||||||||| 62%
Liveliness ||||||||||||||||||||| 70%
Dutifulness ||||||||||||||| 46%
Social Assertiveness ||||||||||||||| 50%
Sensitivity ||||||||||||||| 46%
Paranoia ||||||||| 26%
Abstractness |||||||||||| 38%
Introversion ||||||||||||||||||||| 66%
Anxiety ||||||||| 22%
Openmindedness |||||||||||| 38%
Independence |||||||||||||||||| 54%
Perfectionism ||||||||| 30%
Tension ||||||||| 30%
Take Cattell 16 Factor Test (similar to 16pf)
personality tests by similarminds.com


maCam amiK TJTA giTu. toKking 'bOut TJTA..i'V an aPpointmEnt to Re-sIt foR mY tJTA next weeK. caN't waiT to cOmpare scOrez! =P

-thOughTz sPoKen @ 5:11 PM :)

2006 wiF muHaraM roUnd d cOrner
Thursday, December 29, 2005

oH weLL..2006 iN a feW dayz tyM. muHaraM roUnd d coRner tOo. 1427 sOon to coMe.

resoLutiOnz? nTaH eHh. yeaR by yeaR. resoLutiOnz i draW uP. perhApz 30% achieVed??

beTter thaN nutiNg ryT, faJ?

dUn forGet d UnexPectaBlez. u haD maNy diS year. wAaaAayy maNy.

meH pK psL ur Tym & moMenTz diS yeaR.

d iNnocEnce of yesterYearz.. suMtyMz..iGnoraNce reaLLi IS a bLiss. aLas..~

~duN leT d suN go doWn oN me~

i waN a Life as tranQuiL as d wateRz..yEt risIng to d waVes of chaLLengez....


"woMen Need reaL moMentz of soLitude & self-reFlectiOn to baLance oUt hOw mucH of ourseLves we give awaY.."

hMmm..tyM fer suM stOck taKe oN my 'seLf' left hUh?

-thOughTz sPoKen @ 8:08 PM :)

berpesaN, meMesaN daN diPesaN

haD a pRograMme for yOung couPles juZ now. thEir coNvictiOn to maiNtaiN aNd enHance their reLatioNshiP waS inspiriNg.

maJor takeaWay. pasaL pesaN2.

berpeSan. meMesan. daN diPesaN.


aPe pesaNan niE? *faJ poNderrRrz*

maHu berpesan, tetaPi takot untuK memesaN. keraNa yaNg diPesaN, tidaK suKa daN tiadA maHu diPesaN-pesaNkaN?

pesaN apa niE?

pesaN PeSan laaaah.

taK paHam jUga?

tinggaLkan pesaNan suDaaaHhh.

in otHer werdZ..

KIRIM SALAM SUDAAAAH LAAAAAHHH.

*faJ poNderZ agaiN*

kaMu meMesaN taPi munGkin kaMu yaNg perLu diPesaN. kaLau kaMu perLu diPesaN, aDa guNa ke kaMu berPesaN-peSan?

aDoOooii..

pesan aPa niiE?

peSan-peSan aJer. taK kiSah saPer dipesaN daN siaPa meMesaN. pesaNkan saHaja.

jaNji, pesaNan suDah diPesaN. aKu berPesaN, meMesaN daN keMungkiNan besaR haRus juGa sedaR yaNg aKu akaN diPesaNkan daN laYak dipesankaN.

Wallahu'alam Bissawab.
HanYa Allah sahaJa yaNg taHu.

Ya Allah, i praY u giVe me guidaNce to heLp thOse i caN & heLp myseLf as well. I praY u maKe tiNgz easIer for me. onLy YOU kNow my intenTionz. i praY u heLp me stEer clear oF aNy pathz of disTracTioNz.

AmiiN.

-thOughTz sPoKen @ 5:28 PM :)

LanD oF a thoUsanD mosQuez
Tuesday, December 27, 2005

mY dO'az for d viCtiMz of d tsuNami; perisHed & taKen On deC 25th, 2004.

As i waTChed d doCumenTary 'LaNd of a tHousaNd mosQues - d aCeh storY', teArz weLLed uP. [taPi terpAksa maIntaiN seBab aPak waS in d liVing rOOm wiF mE. shEesh.] feeLz liKe yesTerdaY, i waS juz deR in meuLaboh, aCeh.

Is a beautifuL thiNg isn't it? d beaCh, d waVes, d waTer.

d waTerz bY meuLaboh. i reMember d siGht so vividLy in my miNd. d siGht - breathtaKing. yeT weN i turNed mY bacK from d beaCh..mY breaTh was taKen awaY as weLL..by d devaStatiOn..d damAge..d LosSeS.




~waVezz of destrUctiOn~

i reMember so cLearly d victiMz i counseLLed at d hospitaL. hOw couLd i foRgeT paK J? d LaffTerz masKing d saDness of d chiLdreN wHo coMe to pLay at d hospitaL comPound; hOw couLd i forGet heRa & her sibLingz? d lOokz oN d eyeZ of d schOOl youThz, losT, yeT deterMIned to mOve oN wif liFe. hOw couLd i foRgeT maRadoNa? memOries etChed so cLearLy in my miNd & heaRt frOm d reLief werK exPerieNce aT meuLaboH.

1 yeaR has paSsed; i do hoPe deY haVe picKed uP suM pieCes & haVe rebuiLt their Lives sLowlY. Neva easY to let gO of loSses. NeVa easY to bLock d iMages of loVed oNez taKen aWay bY d forCes of naTure. nEva eaSy. to forGet.

yes, nOt eaSy. i wUn forGet it tOo. d exPerieNce so Life-transfOrmiNg, or raTher..liFe saving. weNeva i feeL chaLLenged by liFe..i recaLL bacK d experIence. i brOwse thRu' d iMagez of meuLaboH, again.

i Miss Dem..Much.

i PraY fOr their weLL beiNg & streNgth.
i miSs u. aLL of U.

yOurs truLy,
jUz anotHer musaFir

i saY a littLe praYer foR yOu, swiTiez.

-thOughTz sPoKen @ 3:02 PM :)

aPa artiNya ciNta?

duN u juZ loVe indOnesiaN soNgz? mY curreNt faVe: aPa arTinya ciNta by meLLy goesLaw & arY lassO. tinK i shOuLd gO looK foR d VCD oF diS indOn muVee.. =) aNyboDy gOt LobaNgz to geD diS VCD?? *griNzz* sO peopLe, taKe a lisTen to d sOng hOrr..lalalaa...


aPa artiNya ciNta

tiba tiba engkau ada
dunia akan hadir
laksana kerdil ku memeluk
lihat aku lebih dalam

dimatamu kumelihat ada cinta yang tersirat
tirani hati merebak..
barangkali aku salah
tediam bukan bisu

kU tahu engkau besar malu
tutupi rasa gelisah
biar saja waktu nanti yang menikmati resah ini
bersamamu aku senang

korUs:
belum juga kah kau menyadarinya
aku lah yang pantas untuk kau cintai

dibawah langit biru aku bersumpah
diriku
tanpamu apa artinya cinta

cinta ini sudah menelan waktuku
siang malam hanya untuk fikirkan engkau
sejuta kali aku berani bersumpah
diriku tanpamu apa artinya cinta

biar saja waktu nanti
yang menikmati kisah ini
bersamamu aku senang

korUs:
belum juga kah kau menyadarinya
akulah yang pantas untuk kau cintai

dibawah langit biRU aku bersumpah
diriku
tanpamu apa lah artinya
cinta…

arti cinta ini sudah
menelan waktuku
siang malam hanya memikirkan engkau
sejuta kali aku berani bersumpah
diriku tanpamu apalah artinya cinta


aDuuuH..apa-aN siH inI ceweK jatUh begiTu..bUruK skaLi deeH!! =P

-thOughTz sPoKen @ 11:36 AM :)

yeLLow mE
Monday, December 26, 2005

sUmboDy seNt me yeT anoTher personaLity tesT..tRy iT!

sO heRe's waD d tesT said:

Yellow
You're yellow, the color of joy and energy — two things you definitely bring to everyone around you. It's hard for anyone to be sad or lonely in your presence; your sunny disposition and cheery outlook just won't allow it. The warmth of your personality shines through in the kindness you show friends and family (and strangers, too). Always ready with a lighthearted joke or heartfelt compliment, you know how to make people feel good about themselves, so they can't get enough of you. Yellow is a warm and inviting color for a warm and inviting person — you!

hUrHurHur..toK about energY, i seriOusLy neeD to reCharGe for 2006. reaLLy fasT tyM fLies..Its staRtinG to scaRe me. suMhow tYm has maDe me maTure FasTer & suMwHat ruNNing thRu' my werK liFe liKe suM 100m sPrint raCe.

wHere or raTher, weN d hecK caN i geT TAT breaK? i'M aLwayS wantiNg to taKe a breaK, bUt suMhow..caN't fiNd d tyM to fiT it inTo my whOle werK scheduLe. iroNicaLLy..weN i haVe tyM, i juZ caN't fiNd d khaKiz to gO hoLidaYing wiF me. *SIGHZZ*

i shouLd juZ go aHead to pLan for a hoLidaY. i sOoo badLy waNNa go KL!!!! haiZzzz..

neBer miNd..praY for mOre resTed daYz ahEad. insyaAllah, deR's b tYm & oppOrtunity to rechaRge.. =) haNg in der, faJ. i nOe u caN do it.

niwaEz..hOw do u liKe d neW aDd-oNz to mY bLoggiE? *grinzz* teNx shiKin fer d tiP! (",)

-thOughTz sPoKen @ 6:43 PM :)

cOld, coLd..morNing... bRrrRr...
Sunday, December 25, 2005

heI..itZ 6aM in d mornIng. Sis woKe me uP frOm my beauTy sLeep to locK d dOorz. nOw i caN't sLeep. sHeeSh. niCe weaTher nie..

bloGhoPPed & foUnd tiNgz to dO..heheHe..sOrry laH. *griNzz* i tiNk i'M aLL hooKed to blOgthiNgz. heheHe..




You Are a Sensitive Kisser



For you, kissing is a way to connect



And you need lot of care, attention, and privacy



It may take you a while to kiss someone...



But when you do, it's total fireworks


HurHurHur..maWningz wouLd b greaT if fiLLed wiF kiSses..*faJ dreaMy looK in ProGreSs* heHehe..insyaAllah, in tyMz to coMe. ;o)



Your Vibe Is Secretly Sexy



Sexy isn't exactly a word you'd use to describe yourself

But you have a quite allure that certain men feel appealing

You don't need to flaunt your stuff to be sexier

A little more confidence in yourself, and you'll really light up a room!




yeaH maNz..sUmtyMz, i tiNk i lacK d confideNce. iN d paSt, i Used to tinK taT d oNi waY i couLd geT attaCHed waS iF tHe gUy kNoWs me as a FreN 1st. i'M noT gUd at goIng aroUnd, maKing maLe frenz..yeaHzz. taT was hOw i foUnd deaRest - tHru' frenZ. *wiNkzz* sTarTed oUt as freNz.. nOw... =) haPpy. bLiss. jOy. teaRs. But at d eNd of it aLL, we'R a haPPy coupLe.



Your Ideal Marriage Proposal Is



Spontaneous, on a tropical vacation, when he realizes he can't be without you.


kweNg..kweNg..kweNg... =P




Your Inner Retro Girl Is



1980s Goth Girl



caN't imaGine dressing uP like diS fOr fsC's retrO partY. BruddeR wiLL FREAK out! hurHurhur..bUt deN agaiN, tudOng & gotH..hMmm..coUld be aN interesTing kOnseP. =P

oK, d nexT one i caNNot 'anGkat'...HAHhahHAHhaha!!!



You Have Your PhD in Men



You understand men almost better than anyone.

You accept that guys are very different, and you read signals well.

Work what you know about men, and your relationships will be blissful.



erMmm..LaMe quOte? heHehe..



Your Love Quote


Love makes the wildest spirit tame, and the tamest spirit wild.






Your Reputation Is: Sweet Girl



While you're well known, there's nothing to worry about.

You're reputation is mostly good - as good as any rep can be.


ErMmmmm..Okies.




You are a Great Girlfriend



When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtful

But you also haven't stopped thinking of yourself

You're the perfect blend of independent and caring

You're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!





Men See You As Understated



You are an intreguing mix of girl and woman.

You're feminine, quiet, and a total mystery to most men.

Yet they often feel the urge to protect you, even if they don't know you.

You *are* a flirt, but you usually only flirt with those you know well


HmmMm..undersTateD? aiYooOo.. =P

geeZ..overLoaded wiF quiZzes earLy in d maWning. iTz aLL thuNderY oUtsiDe. HmmM..i m stIll coNtempLating wHetHer to aTTend d weDdinG in SERANGOON. yeaHz. jurOng to seRangOOn. hoW COOL is thaT..OMG. LeT's asK coaCh nantI iF shE's goIng. laLalala...

k Lah..tiNk i shaLt juZ resT my heaD, goNNa geT bacK to bEd nIE. duN waNNa waSte d weaTher, suCh fiNe weaTher..oN a LoooNg weEkend. wHeEeeEe~

haPPy hoLidaYz peepZ! (",)

*aLL geaRed uP wiF my faVouriTe bLankiE..yaWnZzz. nYtz werLd!*


-thOughTz sPoKen @ 10:50 PM :)

graPhic desiGner waNNabE! =P

i gOt coMfy wiF my handpHone laTely [pSsst..itS beeN monThz siNce i boUght dis modeL.. =P]. So..i waS oN a foTo-eDitin sprEe fOr d pasT feW daY & bOy, i luRveeeEe mY haNdphOne functIonz!! haHa...

gOnna pUt suM of d pIcz uP heRe..i LoiKeEeee.. =D

sisTerhoOd's maDe lyF more bLissfuL: oUr joYz, laFfter & kLutz i kiP cLose to mY heaRt. (",)

mY deaRest nePheW...i miSs hiM sOoOo muCh!

loVing Our moMentz toGethEr...(",)

So hoW..can qualiFy or Not? heEhEe.. =)

-thOughTz sPoKen @ 9:27 AM :)

piCz frOm horLickz, miLo, koPi & teH

beRaneKa minuMan, berLainan periSa....(",)

iNah & yuN warmiNg uP...miLo drinKz in chocoLate!

aNa - teH..& raudHa..erMmm..koPi? =P

mE horLickz caaN? hehe..sorY gerLz..aLLocatiOn iKot skiN kaLer. HAHA!

mE & yuN...erMm..CNY laGik sebuLan kaaAn?? =D yuN muKe macaM innoCent (noNSensE) gItu. *kweNg2*


mE & yuN..seMpat feeLiiinG Uuuu... *griNzzZz*


Me & yuN caTchinG uP on mOre foTo moMenTz. teNgok jer laH muKE si deKni. paRt amiK gaMbar..hiDOPPPPPP!!!!!!!!

-thOughTz sPoKen @ 9:12 AM :)

sHeesH...
Saturday, December 24, 2005

juz a tOt befoRe i tuRn iN:

i wUnder Why or waD coUld make peopLe so bLind to Their owN fLawz?

iTz alwaYs Otherz. iTz aLwaYz d environmenT. iTz aLwayZ d sysTemz around. neVer U.

iF nOtinG seeMz 2b werKing oUt aroUnd U, maYbe U, yes, Y-O-U shOulD trY looKing aT yourseLf.

tiNgz maY not b werKinG oUt, becaUse U duN seeM 2 maKe d RYT effoRtz to maKe tiNgz work foR U. for US.

uurGh!

'Nuff saId.

nOw, caN u spaRe me d frustraTionz pLeaSe??

tiNk i juZ had 'boUt enUf laah.

jUZ looK at yoUrself. fOr oNce.

i beG u.

beFore U faLL furTher; befOre WE get damaGed.

tireD laaH.

pFfFt.

grOw uP. u dUn neeD me to teLL u taT!

aaRgh.

sOry feLLaz.

daT was d daiLy doSe of frUstratiOnz in proGress.

*ouTz noW*

-thOughTz sPoKen @ 7:38 PM :)

maMaak...horlick, miLo, KoPi & teH saTuuUuu!!!

nYt out wiF gerLfreNz waS fuN. i thorouGhly enJoyed 'horLickz, MiLo, koPi & teh' by Teater kaMi! aaah...it waS juz liKe tunIng in to coFfee shOp toK on peopLe's life storiEz. loVe & liFe was d maiN crUx of d pLay..d issUes in d pLay were reaL issUez..cLose to d heaRtz of gerLfreNz..yuN..myseLf..& probabLy memBerz of d audienZ.

iT was suPPer @NewtOn foOD centrE afTer d pLay. d mi goreNg, sataY, ikaN pari baKar & coMpany were greaT! yeaH..laTe nyT. aL-makLomlaaH..d Catz aren't aroUnd, So deaR moUse is out tO pLay! *kwengz2*

Ok..back to d pLay. Itz about 4maLez in their laTe 20s..aGe catching uP & yet to finD love. d proTagonists, aLL 29 yEars of aGe, are besT buddiEz. deY sort of maDe a paCt for eaCh oF theM 2b couPled within a yeaR, eLse..deY wiLL haVe to treaT each other tO a hoLiday geTawaY...hehehe..

so theiR quesT fOr loVe bRingz abOut maNy refLectionz 'boUt d meLodraMa traGedieS of loVerz & staR-croSsed loVerz..'boUt hOw musiC & entertainMent haS shaPed oUr viEwz 'boUt loVe..'boUt hoW famiLy & oLd foLks' vieWz & expectatIonz impaCt ouR searCh for loVe..

InteresTing i muz saY..oF 'cOs d buDdies enDed uP not treaTing anyone to d hoLidaY. It waS 2hrs fuLL of jiwaNg muziK, feeLing zaMan 70-80-an & basKEtz of LaffTer. Of coS, beneaTh d huMour, were maNy messages....

...wiC leaVes much to be thoUght abOut. taT's waD pLayz are about ryT? To me, at leaSt. pLays aLwaYz made me tinK much 'boUt d issUes taT have beeN broUght uP. in taT sensE..pLays aRe meaNz tO finD answeRz to d issUes we share affiniTy wiF wiThin d pLay itseLf. geddiT? hehe. buT weLL..One wouLd haVe to Look beneaTh d theatricaL spAce, usE of diaLoguez & symboLz, to truLy gaiN perspEctiVes on d issUes at haNd.

i haVe alWays thOught taT in issUes concerNing liFe's journeYz, d huMan feeLingz & especiaLLy loVe: No maNuaL, or tV shOw or pLay for taT matter couLd giVe uS instructiOnz on hoW to maKe d issUes more bearabLe. huMan feeLingz r suBjectiVe & varY froM oNe individuaL to d otHer...sUm maY seeK a 3rd parTy's vieWz..bUt at d enD of d daY, thOse viEwz become reduNdanT, coS onLi 1 voiCe staNdz oUt - d voIce of one's heaRt.

liKewiSe dis pLay..unleaShes d miNd oN tinking 'boUt d sCenez & diaLoguez. In doIng sO, perhaPz sUm lost souLz coUlD shed suM lyt inTo theiR owN situaTion. yours truLy, inclUded.

frOm dis particuLar pLay, i wouLd saY taT my maJor taKeawaY iS d unpredictabiLity oF loVe & d "comPlexitieZ" piNNed to iT: marriaGe, courTshiP, expecTatioNz, secreT hoPez, moTivatiOnz. in aLL, love is a feeLing..2b feLt, saVoureD, enJoyed, sUffeRed, soughT, reGrettEd......?!?

loVe is comPlicated, it seeMz?

or is it nOt?

taKe a differenT leNz, my friEnd?

caRe to put oN my paiR of shaDez?

p/S: piCz of d gerLie oUtiNg wIll b uP sOon! stay tuNed! (",) loNg weeKend aHEad! wOohOo!! =P

-thOughTz sPoKen @ 7:23 PM :)

i'Ve beeN charMed!!

i'M on leaVe todaY!!! wOohOo~ sO wad's d pLan?? sLack..sLack..sLack.. laTe luncH wiF yUn@beaCh rOad. i feeL lyK eaTing tuLang..& @nyT, gerLfreN oUtinG to waTch suM 'HorLicks, miLo, teH tariK' pLay@bLack bOx. N yA..i'M hoMe aLone agaiN..asiK keNa tinggaL jer ngaN maK & paK..bOo hOo hOo..anaK terBiaR gitU..hurhurHur..

niwaEz..i'Ve beeN eatiNg mY heaRt oUt on d nEw seaSon of d chaRmed seriEs. i LoiKeeeee......pSssTt..deR's a New wiTch!! saPer nak teNgoK, biLang jer Ks..wiLL gLadlY shaRe my coLLectiOn wiF U..hurHurHur.. *grInzz*

biLLie's d neWbie.. sHe's kiUttt..StubbOrn tho'.. =P

iS it a muZ for wiTches 2B seXy?? =P

i aDoreee..whiteLightErz!! mOSt of d maLe whiteLighTerz in d shOW r sOoo..kiuTtttt!! =)

stIll finDing LurVee..sHe iS.

beTween wiTch-InG & motherhOod..

hMmm..i couLdn't finD aNy mengancaM imaGes of briaN kraUse thO'.. yeaHz..he'S mY faV whiteLighter. eVa siNce d daY he wOrkeD as a haNdymaN@d haLLiweLL's hOme..yeaH..taT's How lOng i'Ve beeN adorIng hIm. *kwaNg2*

PipEr's kIDz r sOoo kiUttt...WyaTt!! he'S growinG uP..& i stiLL can't fiGure out hiS brO's naMe. heHe...imaGine haVing maGicaL chiLdreN...but weLL..aLL chiLdreN briNg maGic & jOy to yOur werLd, duN thEy?? =)

LemmE contiNue basKing in chArmeD laNd! i M sOoo-enJoyiNg my day's LeaVE from werk!! (",)


-thOughTz sPoKen @ 2:58 AM :)

feaR
Thursday, December 22, 2005

d oNLi fear i haVe (nexT to ALLAH) iS tHe

FEAR OF MYSELF......

hOw trUe iT is d saYing taT goEs 'One's werst eneMy is himseLf'.

diRi iNi perNah leMas daN haNyut diBawa aRus cuBaaN...

diRi ini perNah aLah kePada niKmaT2 keHidupaN...

diRi ini perNah hiLang daLam kegeLapaN..siSa-sisa Nur kupaDamkaN..

diRi iNi perNah tidaK bertuJuan...tiaDa beraraH...

yOur praYerz i nEed.

aKu tidaK maHu keJauhaN lagi.

aKu tidaK bisA berjaUhan lagi..

aKu...
taKuUutt...

*soBz*

sLamatKan diri inI yaNg daiF laGi hiNa.....


-thOughTz sPoKen @ 4:06 PM :)

suMtinG abOut marriaGe

ah-Huh!! juz toT i shouLd shAre dis reaLi2 interesTing stuFfz 'bOut marriaGe wiF aLL..teNx to d leMonY gerL fer shariNg tHesE wif me!

marriaGe wiF a tinge, eeNy-weeNy biT of saLt.. kweng kweNg.. =P


-thOughTz sPoKen @ 7:21 AM :)

streSsed@werK?
Tuesday, December 20, 2005

guD mawNing werLd! Let's begiN d daY oN a gUd nOte..waS juZ suRfinG aroUnd & foUnd suM materiaL aBout maNaging streSs@werK. aL-makLumlaaH..hamBa Allah niE barU meLalui traUma mengeNdaLikan 1 eveNt besaR sekaLi kaT keJe..hurHurhur..

juZ toT i shouLd shaRe this articLe wif aLL. aiN't anYthiNg wiF greaT powerS to tranSform liFe totaLLy, bUt i tHot it reaLi proVide gud poiNterz 'boUt manaGing d streSs buG at werK.

sO much chaNged coMing my waY @werK. i caN't begin to imAgine waD 2006 wiLL be liKe. aLL d chaNges..aLL d traNsitioNz.. diN eveN croSs my miNd i'D surviVe 2005 diS mucH. tenKiu ALLAH, foR giVing me d strenGth to pusH myseLf to LimitZ & foR puLLing thRu' d wOrst of tyMz. teNk..YOU.

How To reDuce wOrkpLace sTress

*griNzz*

A 40-year-old marketing executive, highly stressed from deadlines and problems at work, developed ulcers and saw his hair turn prematurely gray. One morning, he said, "I'm sick, not happy, getting old and not doing this anymore." He quit his job and sold his mini-mansion, BMW, plane and boat. He and his wife bought a Volkswagen camper and traveled across the U.S. looking for their next home. They eventually settled in York Beach, Maine, where he writes books and enjoys life. His hair has turned brown again.

A sales manager who enthusiastically accepted a position at a major corporation on his first day was greeted by hostile staff members. They were angry because he got the job they each wanted. The rejection felt like a personal defeat. He became depressed and anxious, lost weight and started arguing with his wife. "All of a sudden, I was unsuccessful at my work, and it played a number on my head," says the executive, who's now the president of a high-tech recruitment firm in Pleasanton, Calif.

What these two executives had in common was stress that affected their health and personal lives. Stress can be as debilitating as heart disease, cause as much time off from work as the common cold and is more far-reaching than cancer. The leading source of stress for adults is their jobs.

The workplace holds a plethora of anxiety-producers. Many are from unpredictable sources such as sudden job losses, relocations, losing co-workers to downsizings or having multiple bosses in quick succession.

To reduce stress brought by such changes, employees need to assess their skills periodically, learn new ones, participate in professional or trade associations and stay current on industry trends. "By maintaining employability and support systems, you can be better prepared the next time your company downsizes, merges or changes focus," says Sue Aiken, chair of the graduate program in career development in the School of Management of John F. Kennedy University in Walnut Creek, Calif.

We can't eliminate stress, but there are ways to manage it. The following 10 tips can help you reduce your overall stress and ease specific sources of anxiety.

  1. Maintain a sense of personal power. A study of high-pressure work environments by Essi, a San Francisco research firm, shows one factor that predicts which employees would become ill and which stayed healthy: people's perception of their personal power or lack of it. Personal power is defined as how much control you feel you have over your life, your ability to function and express yourself.

    Ideally, your work environment will be an organization where colleagues and superiors listen to your problems and solutions and you're consulted when your role is redesigned, given the resources and information needed to perform the job and can contribute your ideas.

  2. Practice effective communication. Communication is essential for preventing and easing tensions. Whether you head a team or are a team of one, how effective you are at communication depends on how well you understand others' verbal and nonverbal messages. Pay attention to co-workers' gestures, tone of voice and posture.

  3. Develop good working relationships. Trust, respect, understanding and compassion are necessary in any relationship. Co-workers have to function as a team and reach a common goal. But they often focus all their attention on their tasks and very little on how they treat each other.

    Good work relationships will relieve stress and can buffer you from other stresses. Spend five minutes of each hour considering how to get along with your co-workers.

  4. Choose the right job. During interviews, ask the questions that help you make sure the job's right for you. Get a realistic picture of the company or department's culture, working relationships, problems and hidden agendas.

  5. Be flexible. Recognize and accept that things change. If you need to hold on tightly to the status quo, you need to loosen up. Think of your organization as a space ship. It's constantly correcting its course "to go where no man has gone before" in the marketplace. You have to change with it. Be proactive. You're in a better position to maneuver if you are primed and ready.

  6. Manage your anger. When you feel a surge of anger rising, back off and leave the scene as soon as you can. Repeat in your mind: "let go" or "relax." Breathe deeply until you feel your tension leave.

    Ask what's the real reason for my anger? Gain perspective and plan your next step. Practice what you'll say and how you'll say it. Make sure you're calm and in control of your emotions. Approach the person with a win-win attitude and desire to resolve the problem and have a good working relationship.

  7. Have realistic expectations. Don't set yourself up for disappointment or put yourself on an emotional roller coaster. Try to be optimistic and realistic at the same time. This outlook doesn't mean you shouldn't have desires or expectations. Just make sure you're not always longing for the impossible.

  8. Adjust your attitude. Your attitude--how you make others feel about you and how you make them feel about themselves--can make or break your future.

    How's your attitude? Do you complain the moment something doesn't suit you, or do you take things in stride? Try to see yourself through the eyes of others. Do you make others happy or miserable? If you need to, make an attitude adjustment.

  9. Tie up loose ends. Not being able to finish a task can be unsettling to those who like to shut doors and end sentences with a period. Most people need some kind of closure on projects, even the little ones.

    If you're on a treadmill where you're always beginning new tasks before finishing old ones, make a list of what's left hanging. This exercise can make projects seem more manageable. How can you structure your time to tie up those loose ends?

  10. Take time to revive. People aren't built like machines. They can't run with their engines revved up continuously. Eventually they wear out. That's why there are coffee and lunch breaks. It's long been recognized that people need to take a little time off every few hours to revive. They return to their tasks with renewed enthusiasm.

    If you can, try not to take work home. Every now and then a project may take some extra time, but work shouldn't be devouring your life.

cOnversatIonz wiF bIg Os' iN d proSes of pLanning tHe eveNt highLightEd to Me d poWer of perceptioN. wiF percePtioNz, coMe certaiN set of assUmptiOnz..& thaT is weN BIG proBlemZ come uP. U perCeiVe, U assUme, U duN checK wiF otHer partieS & u becoMe frustRated.

onLy to discoVer thaT u'Ve beeN such a duMb arSe later oN.

aNother lessOn learNt.

dO a reaLity checK wIf d percePtioNz taT u hoLd. for aLL u kNow, nanTi terTempiaS baLik kat uR aIr muKa.

Urs truLy keNa jiLat baLik kaTa-kaTa sendiRi diseBabkaN persePsi yaNg begItu waaaaAayyYy off.

ShHeSssh.

i leaRnt. hoPe suM otHerZ dO, tOO.

iGnoraNce maY not be bLissfuL in diS caSe. shEesh.

dUn ignore faJ, deaL wif it.

guD maWning werLd! haVe a greaT daY everYoNe!!

tiaP haRi Ku dIaJar. tiaP detiK diSedaRkaN.
Ku juGa ingiN.
meNgajaR tiaP harI. MenYedarkaN tiaP detiK.
(",)

-thOughTz sPoKen @ 11:22 PM :)

giMme suM TLC.. =P

nEw bLoggie aDd-Onz to toY aroUnd wiF. so peopLe, iF u'Re frEe, giMMe sum tLc wiLL ya? sHower me d hUGgzZ if u loVe mE & if u duN miNd.. *griNzz*

sO, scroLL doWn d naVigaTion oN yeR ryT n clIck oN "giVe juzfaJ a Hug" & u'D b re-diRected to a huG buTToN paGe. sO, giMMe as maNy huGzz as possibLe k? heHe...gaWd..i soUnd liKe i losT my chiLdhOod..hurHurhur.. =P kweNg kweNg..

weRk was a totaL bLank. physicaLLy i waS der, buT tiNk i lefT my miNd on my beD at hoMe. seriOus braIn malfunctiOn. i neeD more resT.

sacrificeD resT & brain ceLLz to prePare fer d nYt's proGramme. saYang seriBu kaLi sayaNg, oraNg-oraNg nya tak hadir puLa untuk program tuh..
sHeesh.

hmmm..munGkin hikmaH nyer is taT HE noez i was mentaLLy shacK.. maYbe he nOes mY brain ceLLz woUld probabLy haVe dieD out haLfway thrU' d sessiOn. i duNNo.

bUt i feLt d fOOd N d effOrtz weN wasted.

*siGhz*

neVa miNd, lessOn learNt.

earLier preparatiOnz myt juZ b heLpfuL d nexT tyM roUnd.

LookIng forward to a weeK of tyM oFfz & leaVe. [whicH leaVes me wif more werK actuaLi. pFffT. doubLe pffFfTt. tripLe pfFfFtt. OMG!]

aKu naK tidO. sLamat maLam duNia. faJ daH peNat.

beriKan ku teNaga. keriNgatkU daH taK adA.

fiKiraN puLa daH lesU. mungkiN hatIkU turOt meMbisU.

tidaK.

beriKan kU teNaga.

-thOughTz sPoKen @ 3:29 PM :)

wriTe riGht
Monday, December 19, 2005

waS bLog-hoPping & fouNd sUmtinG to Do...Ta-DaaA!!! =P
The results of your analysis say:

You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry.
You are a person who thinks before acting, intelligent and thorough.
You are diplomatic, objective, and live in the present.
You are not very reserved, impatient, self-confident and fond of action.
You are self-confident and like to bring attention to yourself.

HmmMm..interesTed in beaUty? erMmm..maYbe nOt? hehe...baB penjaGaan muKa daN keterampiLan diRi niE caM maLas gitu. taK kuaSa naK guNa faciaL wasH nie daN appLy kriM ini daN itU. Am concerNed 'boUt weigHt manaGement thOugh. LoNg-drawM battLe wiF D faTz. HAHA.

bTw, naMpak saH handwritiNg aKu aWww-Biiitttt....hurhurHur...

finaLLy, h.o.M.e.@St.52 is OVER. yesteRdaY was a daY of hyPerventiLatiOn, dizzY speLLz, fainT feeLingz, FeeT-hurTing, heaRt-achIng, smiLez, sweaT & moMeNtz to reMember. wiLL posT piCz & stuFFz of d eveNt sooN.

ryT nOw, mY feeT stiLL hurT & i waNNa resT more.

anOther prograMme toMorrOw. GAWD.

*yawNz*

ta-Ta for nOw.


-thOughTz sPoKen @ 5:23 AM :)

peopLe & tinGz i miSs..verY2 mucH..
Wednesday, December 14, 2005

jUZ thOt i shouLd poSt piCz of peopLe & tiNgz i miSs befoRe i heaD fer werK. greaT waY to staRT off my daY.. =)

miSs yuyuN verY2 mucH. Y muz our hoMez be aT extreme enDz of d isLand??? pFfTtt.

yUn's startIng werK sooN. kiNda PT joB lerr. i hOpe sHe'd geT d joB taT she wisHes foR. hoPe tyMz wiLL be kiNder to hEr, sOOn. U go YuYuN!! neBer giVe uP hoRr!! miSs U loaDz.. *sMuaaackzzz*

d aPpLe of mY eYe...
yeaH..i'M missing my nePhew, furQan. weN i was teacHing tuitiOn in woodLandz, i go to mY sisTa's pLace weeKly. beeN qUite awhiLe siNce i'Ve haNg aroUnd at her pLace to pLay wif her kIDz. furQan's mY faVourite nePhew actuaLi [yeaH..yeaH..i nOe i'M suPPosed 2 praCtice impartiaLity.. buT can't heLp it.. i'Ve 11 niEcez & nePhewZ! heHe..]. i miSs hiM. he'S Like mY son giTu. sO attached 2me sinCe yoUng.


piCs taKen @ 1 oF my werKplaCe MC meMberz hoMe. weN oVer her pLaCe fer hari raYa luNch. Her chiLdreN are reaLi adorabLe rYt?? (",)

i mIss d preseNce of babies & youNg kidz around d hOuse. aLL my oLder sibLingz r aLL settLed wiF groWn-uP chiLdreN. gueSs i'd juZ haVe to waiT fEr mY turN to coMe..2d paRty concerNed, i waNt 3-4 chiLdreN, caN?? *griNzz*

hoLidaYzzz...i neeD a breaK!!!

i Need a breaK...BIG tyM!! i sweaR i'M goNna go fOr suM shOrt geTawaY aFter i'M thRu' wiF aLL d maDneSs@werK..hurhUrhUr.. my braiN neeDz it b4 it maLfuNctiOnz..

Needless to saY, rYt? =P

when a reLatioNship geTz more seriOus, & when d couPle maKes certaIn decisiOnz, mORe tesTz coMe & gO. onLy tyM wiLl prevaiL wheTher we wiLL liVe thOse tesTz. i praY fOr d besT, deaR. aMiin.

i'M huMming diS tuNe to kicK off my daY...

mY faVourite tiNgz from 'The soUnd of Music'

Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens,
bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens,
brown paper packages tied up with strings,
these are a few of my favorite things.

Cream colored ponies and crisp apple strudels,
door bells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles.
Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings.
these are a few of my favorite things.

Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes,
snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes,
silver white winters that melt into springs,
these are a few of my favorite things.

When the dog bites, when the bee stings,
when I'm feeling sad,
I simply remember my favorite things,
and then I don't feel so bad.

Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens,
bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens,
brown paper packages tied up with strings,
these are a few of my favorite things.

Cream colored ponies and crisp apple strudels,
door bells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles.
Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings.
these are a few of my favorite things.

Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes,
snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes,
silver white winters that melt into springs,
these are a few of my favorite things.

When the dog bites, when the bee stings,
when I'm feeling sad,
I simply remember my favorite things,
and then I don't feel so bad.

maK masaK nasi LemaK loRrr!! saRapaN yUuuukkk....... *wHeeeeEee~* aYuuh dOoooNggg!!!!

-thOughTz sPoKen @ 12:27 AM :)