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waD is it liKE 2b diFfereNt?

Sunday, October 30, 2005

mawNing werLd. i m stoNeinG afTer saHur niE..kweKwekwe. hMmm..waTched 'fuLL circLe' smLm & haVe suM tHotz stuck in me heaD.

waD iS it Like 2b diFferent? diFFerent ideaLz, diFferent gender, diFferent opiNionZ, diFfereNt personality etc etc Etc. DeR's aLwaYs toK aBout accepTing differeNces, beinG opeN to uniQueneSs, taT diFFereNces r gOod & taT we shOuLd accePt & appreciAte peoPle as deY aRe. buT i wuNDer to wat exTent dO peopLe reaLi toLerate diFfereNces?

waTching 'fuLL circLe' smLm reaLi gaVe me an insiGht intO d brutaLities of beinG differeNt. i appLaud d maiN charaCter; coS i tiNk it taKes suM1 liKe hiM a loT of coUrage 2 coME forwaRd & shAre his Life's stOry.

LeroY is a perfOrMer. a maLay-musLim maN, he was moRe interesTed in beiNg d oPposite geNder. peNdek kaTa, diEr macaM kuMar laH. So, d episOde waS shAring hoW his famiLy, especiaLLy his daD did not accept hiM; hOW he feLt so isoLated & aLone; hOw he struggLed in uphoLding hiS differeNce thRu'out his Life. nOt verY surE if hE is a hoMosexuaL; buT ya, waD's fer sUre is tHat he is a Drag artisTe lah.

iN my heaD, i thOught. caMne ehh. HomosexuaL behaviOur, or@leasT behaviOurs not befiTting yoUr owN sexuaL orienTation is sinfuL in Islam. oN 1haNd, i waS appaLLed taT leroY braNi tampiL ke hadaPan untuK berkoNgsi cerita nyer; oN d oTher haNd, i appLauded hiM foR his braVery. d story coUld haVe opEned paNdora's bOx 'coS it maY be encouRaging oTher's of LEroY's kind to coME forwaRd; bUt on d otHer haNd, deR r uniqUE n diFFerent peopLe amonG us in soCiety, anD we neeD to celebratE thaT as weLL. WooHoo~ kekadaNg susaH naK reconciLe d twO.

i recaLLed an incideNt whErE i diScoVered tHat a freN i'd knoWn sinCe mY secondarY skuL daYs, is actuaLi gaY. i haD alWays knOWn him 2b a guD musLim & geE, i suRe diN nOe how to reaCt to thaT newFound knowLedge. i waS torN. aS a musLim, i waS disaPpoinTed. As a sociaL werKer, i undersTood & appreciAted differeNces.

i googLed "homosexuaL in Islam" & i foUnd sUm interesTing materiaL.

Homosexuality is considered sinful within Islam
Homosexuality is a profound mistake
Humans are all naturally heterosexual
Homosexuality is caused by environmental factors, particularly near the time of puberty.
People can control their thoughts and steer themselves away from homosexuality
Homosexuality is a chosen sexual orientation.
Any homosexual can become a heterosexual.

Makes me wuNder if hoMosexuaLity; or d incLinatiOn 2beHave liKe d opposIte geNder (girLie boYz, toMboY gerLz etc) iS a tesT in itseLf giVen bY HIM to certaiN individuaLz. a tesT for whO? d individuaL or thOse he/she Loves? dO u rejeCt d persOn u loVe if u fiNd thaT he/sHe is thaT differeNt? If reLigiOn teaChes d vaLue of relationshiPs wiF oThers, iS der aNy leewaY fOr d 'diffeRent' oNes to exisT in sociEty or eveN d coMmunitY itseLf? aiYa..soRy..diS issUe maKing me haVe internaL discoUrse in my heaD. caN't eveN concretiSe my toTz proPerLy.

hMmm..sUm peopLe shUn individuaLz like LeroY; fOr deY r diFferent, & taT thEir choiCe of lifestyLE defeaTs d law of naTure perhaPz? bUt on d otHer haNd, thEse individuaLz r aLso humanz who vaLue liFe, relationshiPz & r also individuaLz with eMotioNz & compassioN as weLL. hMmm..

heRe, caN reAd bOut diS issUe fuRther is u r inTEresTed - HomosexuaLity in d LighT of isLam and Islam & homoSexuality. Oh ya & checK tis Out too: a gaY affaiRz weBBie of soUth afriCa.

moRe HmMmmzzz... * faJ contiNues poNderiNg* teNkiU lerOy feR shariNg ur stoRy. it certainLy is maKing me re-thiNk boUt certaiN tiNgz....

-thOughTz sPoKen @ 10:06 PM :)