~peNgLipuR LaRa~
*Age: 16 pLus 10, CaNceRiaN
*GeNdeR: VeNuS
OccuPatiOn: proFessionaL heLper
*LoCatiOn: hOme is wheRe d heaRt is (",)
26 years have paSsed & many more fruitfuL years of Life ahead, insyaAllah. I tenK HIM for every breaThe i taKe & for aLL HIS bleSsings.
i aM stiLl learning, stiLL falling, stiLL risinG, stiLL loVing, stiLL whininG, stiLL appreciating, stiLL discoVerinG. i aM STILL.
my heaRt is fiLLed with lots of Love nOw. in 6 weeKs tyM...d heaRt wiLL be overfLowing much moRe wiTh loads of iT! *griNzz*
cOm'on, wuN u aDd more lurVee in my Life & GimmE sUm T-L-C!! (",)
*HUGS* TOTAL!
give juzfaj more *HUGS*
Get hugs of your own
[better tomoRrows]
[to be induLged in bOoks & muVees]
[to be marrieD to thaT sUmoNe]
[weLL-deServeD resPite & resT]
[..& ONLY YOU]
mengaPa iSa?
wrIte & pLay!!
duNia bakaL pM.. =P
d reD oNe =D
leMonz r swit!
teeNy-bOoper aLeeya!
aNa's horNy? =P
woMen wHo wiN
a fooL he is Not!
Linda's LaiR
X-TuTee.. =P
funKy juNi.. ;o)
yuN deaRest.. =)
kak ManJa!
A qaMostrophic Lyf
taN sri?? =P
kaK dieLLa
peNtas aKu!
**cooKies haNgoVer**
**aNy proMisEs?**
**d eNd. sOon.**
**brieF-iNg**
**hePi 26tH to Me.**
**i'M a ceLebritY??**
**seeiNg nuMberzzz...NOttTt!!! =P**
**~10-miNute breaK~**
**d grEat raMadHan worKout**
**raMadhaN aL-muBaraK**
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In d midSt of mY anxiEtieS bCos d u-Know-Whoz r coMing doWn nexT weEk & mY struggLes TRYINg desperateLy to comPlete d u-knOw-whaTz....i'D deciDed to taKe a breatHer dowN herE.
meT my beSt maiTe, priS @her offiCe aFter a meetinG & chaTTed awhiLe. taLked abOut liFe & werK & companioNshiP & lurVe. i always kNew taT besides sociaL werK, deR r otHer tingz taT she hoPed to dO. priS saiD she mYt moVe into journaLism or werK in a churcH settinG.
sHE asked me, "u Leeh? staYing loNg @ur current werkpLace or nOt?"
i peppered mY answeRz wiF bitz & pieCes of siLence & uncertaiNty geLLed togeTher. come to tinK of it, i duN tinK i reaLLy answeRed her questioN.
sO, wad lieS ahead?
i'V paSsed d 3 yeaR marK in my caReer & i muZ admiT taT i neVa did expect myself to mOve @ My preseNt raTe. new chaLLenges. more ResponsibiLitieS ie. More werK.
[praY my boSs doesN't read diS.] painfuLLy, i muz saY taT fer d 1st tyM in my werKing liFe...oF laTe, i'Ve toLd myseLf a couPle of tyMz taT i juz waNna droP everytinG & ruN away froM werK.
i M a bit tirEd. NO. in faCt, quitE.
No, itz not tat i dO not loVe my jOb. i dO...BUT:
i'M not exactLy suRe if i feeL liKe i'm routiNely doiNg stuFz daY in n daY out. i'm not exactLy suRe if i'M burnT out. i'M not exactLy sURe if mY braiNz r werKing @ d ryT pLace. @ diS poiNt..i'M juZ thaT - UNSURE. UNCERTAIN. GREY. BLUE. i geT daYz of GREEN too.
deR r tyMz i feeL chaLLenged. whiNing to Mak doeSn't heLp 'cOs her resPonse woUld be: "if U're so tirEd & got so mucH werK, juZ chaNge jobz lorr." *sighz*
deR r daYz weN i fiNd goiNg to werK dreadfuL. i draG my feeT. literaLLy. i feeL guiLty abOut it. But deN i tinK agaiN - i haVe d ryT to my feeLingz tOo.
sEe. i stiLL hvN answeRed d questiOn yeT. i'M juz...grousinG wiTh a capitaL G. weLL, maYb i'M noT readY to tinK abOut iT yeT. maYb i feaR waD my heaRt truLy saYz 'coS maYb itz not wad i waN to beLieve iN. maYb i'LL wait a littLe & sEe waD surPrises liFe has 4me b4 i chaRt out consequenT paThz.
smacK rYt in d middLe i aM. not iNert; aM awaRe. juZ ambivaLent.
perhaPz..diS is juz a pHase...perhaPz itz contemPlatioN. perhaPz iTz juZ a highLy imaginatiVe minD waNdering...perhApz..perhaPz..perhapz!
So, priS..asK me agaiN in a yeaR's tyM, can?
n yeS, i'd trY to geT moMMy's briYani wiF loaDs of niCe side disHes 4U, hoRr? =P