falling hearts

The-Lady

~peNgLipuR LaRa~
*Age: 16 pLus 10, CaNceRiaN
*GeNdeR: VeNuS
OccuPatiOn: proFessionaL heLper
*LoCatiOn: hOme is wheRe d heaRt is (",)


26 years have paSsed & many more fruitfuL years of Life ahead, insyaAllah. I tenK HIM for every breaThe i taKe & for aLL HIS bleSsings.


i aM stiLl learning, stiLL falling, stiLL risinG, stiLL loVing, stiLL whininG, stiLL appreciating, stiLL discoVerinG. i aM STILL.


my heaRt is fiLLed with lots of Love nOw. in 6 weeKs tyM...d heaRt wiLL be overfLowing much moRe wiTh loads of iT! *griNzz*

cOm'on, wuN u aDd more lurVee in my Life & GimmE sUm T-L-C!! (",)



*HUGS* TOTAL! give juzfaj more *HUGS*
Get hugs of your own

Desires


[better tomoRrows]
[to be induLged in bOoks & muVees]
[to be marrieD to thaT sUmoNe]
[weLL-deServeD resPite & resT]
[..& ONLY YOU]


What Inspires?


Her Tunes


By My Side

mengaPa iSa?
wrIte & pLay!!
duNia bakaL pM.. =P
d reD oNe =D
leMonz r swit!
teeNy-bOoper aLeeya!
aNa's horNy? =P
woMen wHo wiN
a fooL he is Not!
Linda's LaiR
X-TuTee.. =P
funKy juNi.. ;o)
yuN deaRest.. =)
kak ManJa!
A qaMostrophic Lyf
taN sri?? =P
kaK dieLLa
peNtas aKu!

Precious days

**aPe naK jaDii???!!??**
**sO sHu-wEeTtt**
**jiTTerY oVer jumbLed noTez**
**hiJab or hiJab-eD**
**triBute tO huBby@werK - mR r.a.P.**
**troUbLehooTinG & mY sUndaY**
**~tidaAaaaKkkkk~**
**yiPeeEe..yaaAayYyy!!!!!!**
**ceRita tentaNg raYa**
**suM stufz bOut mE & bLoGgiNg..**

Lost Memories

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InsaniTy frOm cHanges
Wednesday, November 23, 2005

hMmm..deR's so Much toK aBout chanGes lateLy. i heaR freNz sPeak of iT. sUm freNs share 'boUt it. and i myseLf aM goinG throUgh iT.

iTs suMtyMz haRd to diGest. aLL diS chaNges. sUmtymz i asK myseLf. Y is iT aLways Me taT haS 2B d oNe adaPting & trYing 2 coPe wiF d chaNges? i am chaNging tOo. Y caN't otHers understand tHat? Y caN't otHers give suM consideRation to tat tOo?

*sIghzz*

aFter aLL diS yeaRs, i tiNk i aM exHaustEd. i aM aN exhaUsted daUghter grOwinG uP in diS famiLy. aLL d chaNges. aLL d noNsense. aLL d craP.

famiLy liFe is reaLi oNe roLLer-coaSter riDe fuLl of turmoiL. i jUZ diN tiNk taT i haD 2b shouLderinG aLL diS.

i wisHed suM individuaL oPEned theiR eyEz 2C hOw exhaUSted i'Ve beeN. trYing 2b d oNe liVing it uP in diS famiLy. tryIng 2keePmyselfsaNefrOmaLLdinsaniTy.

i wouLd aLways likE to tiNk taT i m stroNg. maNy freNz & peopLe ouT deR see me as sUch. strOng-wiLLed. iNdepeNdent. capabLe. aLive.

bUt i'M aLL WEAK & MEEK insiDe. i M cruMbliNg. d mORe i trY 2maKe myseLf beLieve taT i'LL be oKie & aM abLe to maNage; d moRe i feeL taT mY lIFe's maDe up frOm suM woven or faBricaTEd truTh.

i dRaw stRenGth frOm my indepEndenCe, 'coS taT's waT keePs me aLive & staNding firM. aNd i tenK Allah feR tAt.

buT i aM weaK noW. i dUnnO iF i haVe d streNgth aNymore 2faCe anyMoRe chaNges in diS househoLd. i juz duNnO.

Allah, pLease heLp me. i feeL taT i'm riDing d roLLer coaSter aLone.

i'M goinG undEr.
"d moRe tiNgz chaNge..d moRe theY remaiN...insaNe?"
~aNon~

hU nOEs waD hiDes beHInd thoSe eYez..beHind d smiLe...

-thOughTz sPoKen @ 5:18 AM :)