faJ uP yEr LiFe!! (",)

a PreggiE's refLectioN

2008-10-07T18:05:00.000+08:00

Its a coLd tuesdaY afternOon at d Office & my braiN cannot and somehOw wiLL not functiOn. *fainTzzz* couLdn't sLeep lasT nigHt, d stoMach was uPset & d baBy waS haVing a parTy iNsiDe, kicKing heRe n thEre.

sumHow, my Lil' geM is confusiNg daY wif nYt and Nyt wif daY. i hoPe she doeSn't maKe uMmi & daddY werK nyT shiFts weN she'S out. Pleaseee.... jadilah maCam kak NuruL. seNang nOh naK jaga deKtuh. asiK tidOOooo aJer.. criEs onLy weN she waNts 2b feD. HweHwe. =P

aNywaY, siNce my braiN is not in a werkinG moDe..let Me jUz bLog suM thoTs hEre.

a coLLeague sHared taT she coUldn'T imagiNe herself beinG pregNant. hMmm...i tinK sumhOw moSt preGgers dun imaGine their preGnant seLves eveN b4 deY get pregNant. *hiaKzz* (i duNNo, maYbe if u'Re d suPerb daydreaMer speciEs, u probaBly haVe d perfeCt visioN of a preGnant U. Hehehe.)

i grew uP babysiTTing moSt of my 11 nieCes n nepHews.. waTch my sisterS in preGgie staTe (aKa exPanding.. =P) ever siNce i waS in primarY 4. Hehe. NeVa croSsed my miNd to thinK abOut MyseLf iN a preGnant Body. heHe. So..perhaPs pregNancy is a Lil' culturaL shocK for me. hweHwehwe. d experieNce is so surreaL - d monThly check-uPs, d babY taLks, d naUsea, d fatiGue, d rise & faLL of d hormOnes, d bodiLy changEs. i'M alreadY intO my 7 mThs of pregNancy aNd weN i Look @ myseLf & my groWing tuMmy... aLL i can saY is.. MasyaAllah & Alhamdulillah.

TheRe's liFe groWing in Me - a Mix of deaR & mE. wiLL she haVe my eyeS, or deaR's lasHes; whO's temperaMent wiLL she foLLow? wiLL shE havE daddY's cheeKy disPositiOn, or UmMi's cinCai-Ness? i woNder... =) i hoPe she'LL be an adorabLe chiLD who makeS her parenTs and familY memBers happY, proUd & smiLey aLL d tiMe. i praY she groWs uP 2b a soLehah chiLd & a stroNg & resiLient woMan. Gee. d thinGs taT go thrOugh d miNd oF a pareNt-to-Be. niE anaK beLum diLahirkaN lagi.. biLa dah diLahirkaN, d List of thoUghts & thinGs on d pareNts List .... i caN't imagiNe!

parentHood, Like marriaGe, is a jourNey fuLL of discOverieS. i duNNo whetHer its a learned mechaniSm, or a genetiC conditiOn, oR a survivaL respoNse. suMhOw, beinG pregnanT (or having a pregNant spoUse) maKes u moRe motherLy, fatHerLy, sisterLy... in a nutsheLL, more nurturinG. All d hiddeN parentaL instincTs are suddeNly unLeashEd. *hiAkzzz* watchinG urseLf and ur partneR groW into d roLe of a parenT, is aN enrichinG expErienCe. u begiN to appreciaTe & beLieve tHat urseLf and ur spOuse is capabLe of 'stePPing uP' to fiLL biGger sHoes, insyaAllah.. (",)

I shoUld geT one of diS portraiTs doNe, wiF deaR's haNds on Our Lil' geM. AwwWw.. sOo romantiC. Hehehehe. ;o)

sO muCh woNder & joY to Share; yeT i caNnot aptLy pUt aLL of theM in wOrds. i freT thaT i caN't giVe d experieNce justiCe.

"woRds saY too mucH; loVe coMes in siLence..."
~d storyteLLer~

coMic reLief

2008-10-06T13:40:00.003+08:00

iTs aMazing hOw ur spOuse's idiOsyncraciEs caN ruB oN u easiLy (eveN if Tat particuLar haBit puzzLes oR ticKles u at tiMes..).. Hwehwehwe.

DeaR has a haBit of Laff-inG or guFfaw-inG out of d bLue weN he recaLLs any fuNny moMents frOm TV shOws or incideNts. I, on d otHer hanD, wiLL chiDe hiM. macaM kelakar giTu kan tetiBa ketawa triNgat2 benda macaM tuh. *hiaKzzz* suMhow....of Late, i finD myseLf beinG ticKled easiLy weN i reMemBer candiD/humOurous momentS on scReen, or reaL-Life incideNts.

KweKweKwe. LooK who has d lasT laff. AhaaKz.

couLdn't stoP myself frOm laff-iNg afTer watchiNg GUBRA last saturday. adiBah Noor geTs thuMbs uP for kelaKar seLamba. hwahwahwa.

"If i weRe in Labour and haVe to waiT for the ambuLance, my chiLd woulD be in primaRy oNe by noW!!"

Wakakakakaka. ticKled me so Hard lah thiS sceNe n diaLogue. probabLy becaUse its preGGie-reLated. eacH tiMe i recaLL thiS sceNe, i jusT can't stoP myseLf froM laughinG. =P

AnywaYs...

Looking forwaRd to YasmiN's next mOvie, mUaLLaf:

Date Of d yeaR....

2008-09-25T02:10:00.001+08:00

EheM Ehem. 8 November 2008. I will be serenadeD by aBaNg aNuarKu. HweHweHwe.. Sorry deaR eHhhh.... All-gerLs outinG lah. BabY aLso wanT to heaR uncLe aNuar's sOothinG voIce n experiEnCe his charmIng persoNa. *hIaKzzz*

*sWooOOn2*

kweKwe. eheM. siKEt siKet suDaah. =P

ThoSe interesTed to be sereNaded bY THE man as weLL, cLicK HERE. ;o)

d oNe abOut motHerhOod...

2008-09-25T01:45:00.004+08:00

Its been awhiLe since I've bLogged. yeaHs..yeaHs. each tiMe i coMe in saying that i'M bacK.. but sOmehoW i disappear agaiN. =P Hwehwe. AnywaY..this shaLL be my virginaL entrY on beinG a motHer & motHerhoOD.

beinG parents is oftEn d nexT miLestOne or liFe eveNT couPles looK forwarD to afTer marriagE. LikewiSe for myseLf and my deaRest... we'Re parentS 2b nOW! =)

I'm 6 and a half months into my pregnancY now; i can'T even begin to descriBe d loadfuL of feeLings and anxieties insiDe me right nOw.

aLLow me to sHare dis amaziNg journey thus faR...

d discoVery of d pregnancY was raTher..eMmm..painfuL? keke. I was quite sicK wHen i foUnd out thAt i was pregNant. sharinG of d neWs wif deaR was eveN more interestiNg 'cos He gaVe a ratHer.. unforgettabLe reactioN to d neWs. *hehehee* by dis staTement, i onLy have myseLf 2b reminDed of that particular memoRy. =P

1st triMester was....hoRrid. i'M not complaininG about d preGnancy, buT d mornIng sicKness anD all d siDe effecTs that coMe wif d pacKaGe. i was literaLLy a vomit-machIne for d 1st 4 mtHs of d pregnanCy. everYthing I ate caMe Out back intO d toiLet boWl. i aLmost develoPed a phobia for eatinG, weLL, aLmost. *hweHwe* when i thinK back of d 1st few Mths, i stiLL get d shuDders. bRrrrRr.

preGnancY & hormOnes - yEs, i crY easiLy, i get annoYed easiLy & i geT depressiVe thoUghts easiLy. weN i thinK bacK of d moMents i'Ve broKen doWn or geT into grouchi-Ness... i haVe a guD laff @ myseLf. But yeS, poor deaR hAs to pUt up wiF d emotioNal penduLum of diS motHer-to-Be.

I teaRed @ d 1st lOOk of Life insiDe me. suCh a woNdroUs thing to Have a LiL' "you & me" growinG insiDe. you see d liL' finGers n feeT n u juz smiLe to urseLf. i teaRed agaiN @ d nexT sCan, weN i was 5 mths intO d pregnanCy. See-ing a moRe compLete n larGer forM of Life in Me. i saW d babY's indeX finGer sticKing out & pOking my tuMMy. *hehehe* hOW cuTe n adorabLe.

Juz in caSe u're woNdering d geNder of d baBy..

we'Re goNNa have a Lil' pwiNCessss...

sO..uPon knOwing tHat we'Re goNna be gettinG a dauGhter, i'M juz so crazY over riBBons, pinK roMpers n aLL d gOwns and suCh. *wEeeEe~* deaR caN onLy shaKe his heaD wheN i starT goiNg aLL oggLy n gaGa oVer aLL d baBy gerL stUffz a Kiddy paLace and MotherCare. ;o)

AnxietieS...i thiNK aboUt wHether me n deaR wiLL make Good pareNts. we can onLy giVe our do'As and equip ourseLves wif knowLedge on parenthOOd. Of courSe, d besT teacHer is stiLL experieNce itseLf. InsyaAllah, we hope to be abLe to raiSe a chiLd who is soLehah, haPpy and sMart. =) its niCe and heartwarminG to see deaR do d babytaLk; how he caLLs d chiLd "anaK" and sOOthes d chiLd wiF all d kind worDs of hoPe, remiNders and at tiMes, chidinG d Lil' oNe to be kiNd to her Ummi thru'oUt d pregnancY. sO..suweEeett.

sOme maY thinK or say that perhaPs, it is tOO sooN for uS to haVe a babY. we'Ve been marrieD for Less thaN a year. i'm PositiVe that a chiLd is a siGn of reZki from Allah. Allah has been kind to Me & deaR thus faR. fiNances at tiMes, may b a chaLLenge for uS, but we've puLLed tHru'. dis mOther 2b wisHes to contiNue her stUdies; sHe received a graNt to easE d coUrse feEs.

MarriaGe & d 'impendinG' pareNthOod has its set of chaLLenges; buT i am eVer so greatfuL and aM feeLing raTher bLessed.

aPart frOm d dailY dOSes of depressiVe discoVeries thaT my cLothes duN fiT and my stretcH marKs are eveR visibLe, whaT more coUld i ask foR (noW)? (",)

thE beLLy is grOwwwiNggg.....

I loVe U becaUse......

2008-06-10T17:50:00.001+08:00

Hunter Patch Adams: I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you straightforwardly without complexities or pride. I love you because I know no other way then this. So close that your hand, on my chest, is my hand. So close, that when you close your eyes, I fall asleep.

cOunting mOmentZ & dayS......

d missiNg pieCe is missiNg agaiN

2008-04-08T05:45:00.000+08:00

aM bacK froM d hiaTus.

itS beEn crazY... Love's beeN greaT. worK's been chaLLenging. Life's Been A-okaY. i guEss.

i'LL starT by Leaving. i meaN wiF a storY on soMeone whO has LefT d workpLace. a deaR sisTer, whO's been suCh a greaT inspiratioN to me. i caLL her mY BiG O. (She's one of my TWO biG Os, actuaLLy)

biG O LefT d workpLace a weeK agO. soMeone whOm i dearLy loVe, someoNe whO giVes me a Lot of strenGth to fiGht & couraGe to groW beyoNd mY limiTz...

i can'T thaNk her enouGh for aLL she has doNe.

i triBute d foLLowing cLip of Love, friendshiP & inspiratiOn to heR:

Life goEs on...i'LL b grieVing a wee biT, but weLL, i knOw we'LL alwaYs meet agaiN... =) loVe u kaK...

Like i saiD, i'LL keep oN roLLing. i'LL catcH up, insyaAllah.. =D

d iNNer d(A)emOn

2007-12-08T08:40:00.000+08:00

pOst goLden coMpass craZe. *hiaKzz*

picTure perFect

2007-11-27T09:50:00.000+08:00

10 November 2007: d daY, moment in tiMe n spaCe weN a uNion betweeN 2 souLs was officiaLLy forGed.

dearesT husbanD, tenkieW so much for givinG me d gifT of Love, care & concerN. maY ALLAH bless our marriaGe and giVe us strengTh & faiTh in our journEy as husBand & wiFe.

deepesT gratituDe to my beLoved family memBers, cLose freNz, coLLeagues & other lurVes for aLL d heLp giveN duriNg d soLemnisatiOn ceremOny & d weddiNg receptiOn.

d weddinG was... picTure perfecT.

speLL: e-L-e-v-e-N

2007-10-30T23:20:00.000+08:00

11 more daYs....gosH. dis tyM in 2 wks tyM i'd aLready be in a marriaGe thaT's 3 days old. *hiakzz*

how fast tyM fLies. n tyM wiLl move fasTer over d nexT 11 daYs. weN i oPen my eyes, it'D be the eVe of mY soLemnisatiOn. =P

i'M stomachinG a loadfuL of butterfLies in my tuMMy..aLl whirLing liKe a washing machiNe. *hehehee*

n i tinK aLL d hustLe & bustLe in d househoLd is addinG oN to d nerVes. d pareNts' antiCs reaLi need me to puT on my cLoak of patieNce. *hiakzz* everyOne's getting prettY excited for d wedding i suPpose. hurHurhur. =P

d masTer bedrOom's aLready painTed; its bryT yeLLow & greeN nOw..all sunshiNe & cheerY. (",) juZ need to fiX new lyTz, sum railIngz for d cLothes & curtaiNs & we're aLL set for d bridaL rooM. =D

feeLz kinda weiRd thouGh 2b stayinG in d masTer bedroOm. sucH sacrifiCe froM d parents. tsK. tsK. so tarchiNg. gUes deY understand d neeDs of d youNg ones beTta. kweKwekwe. *griNnzz*

me & deaR wen for our lasT raya as singLes wif d sLackerz. everY1's teasinG us about our uPcoming weddinG & as oUr cLosest gruP of freNz, i suPPose..theY're aLso exciTed...its d 1st weddiNg 4d grouP! (",) sUm picz for ur viewinG:

faV gruP pic @ naZ's pLace (walaupoN muKe dah stoNe..=P)

mY new bestiE - taufiK, raudHa's nepHew. kiut ryT heee??

drY run for a famiLy pic? *griNzzz*

anoTher faV gruP pic. checK out d backgrouNd. hurhurhur.

sO manY tings about d weddinG is goinG through mY head nOw. juz hoPe it wiLL go sMoothLy. pray 4me tOo, dear freNs..praY for uS..

count wif me peopLe.

11...

10...

9...

8...

7...

six...

5...

foUr...

3...

TWO...

ONE...!

*hiakzz*

mY reD 'Ain

2007-10-20T06:33:00.000+08:00

22 moRe daYs to d weddiNg & i Have d reD eyE.

::SheeSh. i'M seeiNg Red!::

to put it mOre aptLy..d whoLe househoLD is having d reD eye. StartEd froM d daD, foLLowed by d 2 nieCes..n suMhow, yesTErdaY after werK...My rYt eye starTed itchiNg & feeLing agitatEd.

theN a pierciNg paIn surfaCed oN d toP part of d eYe. Sakit giLerrrr.

*siGh*

iT's beeN so Long sinCe i cauGht soRe eyeS. the lasT tiMe i got it was in primAry schOOl. tat's eOns awaY!

n U noe how much i Loathe falling iLL...d feeLing of miserY reaLi eaTs me uP.

As mucH as i detesT geTTing infecTed, i suPPose i shouLd b tenkfuL thaT i aM gettinG it onLi nOw..and not durinG d weddiNg itself later On. @leasT deR's sumtinG positiVe out of this liL' ordeaL.. =)

Dear Allah, please look after mY family members & myself as we go throUgh d weddinG prePz. Please leT the functiOn & ceremoNies go smOothly as pLanned. Do protecT us frOm any harMs & danGErs. amiin. InsyaAllah.

FreNz & feLLow countryMen, maKe uR dO'as for Us as weLL, ya?

Ok..d briDe 2b neeDs to resT.

black huMour

2007-10-17T23:18:00.000+08:00

yesterdaY was a LessoN on "neVa Say tHat U duN wanna get ur aRse to werK".

poSt-hoLiday mOod; heNce, the reLuctanCe & 'liat'-Ness to get d buTt to werK.

d mawNing duLL atmospHere was disrupteD by aN urgeNt pubLic requesT for heLp.

d daY theN waS fiLLed wiF Loads of:

a) bLack huMour - Me & coLleague, zaK weRe amusIng ourseLves wiF snaPshotz of Life, aLbeit d heaRt puMping situatiOn. H/M/I. i shaLL neVa forget. d scenE@ d hosPitaL. d "paY my biLL" one-Liners.

b) T-2 (teaRs & toucH) - d torrenT of sadNess; d suDden huG; d storM of emotioNs; d inTense shUddEr againsT my bodY

c) quicK minDwerK & probLem-soLving. onLy Allah knOws whaT was goiNg thrU' my heAd & heaRt. d reLief tat enveLoped me oNce aLL was saiD & dOne... was..priceLess.

i muZ saY thaT..thoSe 5 hOurs weRe d nexT mosT adrenaLine rushiNg momeNtz of my caReer aFter d aCeh stinT.

'Nuff sAid.

goNna b anOther daY @ werk nOw.

so..wHat's nexT?

n peopLe...Life is preciOus. rememBer thaT.

"u duN tinK sO mucH arH. All probLems can be soLved."

25 more daYs....

2007-10-16T22:00:00.000+08:00

25 more daYs.

Oh yes, before I go oN, eiD mubaraK to aLL my Muslim frenz out theRe. May ur SyawaL be filled with more warmtH & happiness with ur Loved Ones. (",)

Syawal this year has special meaning for me; mainly because it will be the last one spent as a single lady. =) Well, it just feels like any other Syawal, just that my mind is not really about the Eid celebrations, but the wedding preparations. *hiakzz*

monThs of pLanning & anticipatioN; the moment thaT me & dear haVe beeN waiting foR will finally be heRe. the taLk for the past 3 days whiLe visitinG, entertaiNing guesTs and relatives have been pretty mucH about d weddiNg. issuinG cards, mom reminding relatives to heLp out & rewanG2, peopLe oggLing over waD a nice wedding inviTe I Have (yaY! tenX zaK!), uncLes & auntiEs teLling me wad a FAT briDe i wiLL be (*sigh*) and runninG thrOugh d weddiNg preparatioN checklist over & over again wiTh differenT peopLe.

aLL dis iS making my heart skiP many2 beats & my stomach churninG like a washing machine wif many butterfLies in it. anxieTy, warMth, loVe, paranOia & exciteMent aLL roLLed intO one. the thoUght that me & dear wiLL be husband & wife sOon makes me smiLe that secreT smiLe. =) sucH a bLissfuL thought...

iT aLso seems as if mY wedding is THE wedding frieNds have been lOOking forward to. Haaa. i coUld possibLy see speecH bubbLes such as "faJ the tombOy sportswoMan bacK @ skuL, who diN seem to haVe any tyM to daTe or oggLe @ meN back in skuL is gettinG married" forM in friEnds' heads weN news of the wedding is shaRed. d thought of seeinG me aLL doLLed uP in pretty cLothes & maKe uP seem to maKe sUm partieS beaM in wiDe griNs & adrenaLine. hwahwahwa. Yes..hopefuLLy i wiLL be a prettY briDe..lookinG my besT despite d FAT-ness. *sigh* [i haVe sumhOw pLedged & aM resiGned to my faTe, thaT i shaLL fasT for d nexT few weeKs befOre my weddiNg.]

i thinK my sibLingz & parents are enjoying the wedding worK as weLL. its been about almost a decaDe since the hOusehold has not hosted a wedding. having siblings wif their respective families & loads of nieces & nephews sure wiLL make d wedding a memorabLe & meriah one, insyaAllah. can't imagine myseLf on d diaS hoLding my smiLe for snaPshotz wif family after familY, thoUgh. *hiakzz* i dare saY i can't smiLe for Nuts. i dOn't know how to smiLE! aNybody care to teach me hOw to do it withoUt appearinG so pLastic? *grinZzz*

so, i shaLL continUe waitinG in anticipatioN for d biG daY. (",)

i went Raya visitinG to Jb on sundaY. While taking diS wif my eLder sisTer, my youNger cousiN commenteD:

"kak Jaja dah naK kawin nie maKin berseri-sEri ekh?"

hwahwahwa. Seri pengaNtin sudah datang kErr? Maybe there is really such a thing as the seri pengantin (d bride's gLow, or something to that effect, lah).

that maDe me smiLe & aLL warm insidE. i loVed maK's respoNse to d couSin, "Abis biLa kaU dah nak kawiN duLu, takkaN muKa kaU tak berseri-seri??" =P

An uncLe left d hOuse yesterdaY & patted my bacK "Sabar eh naK eh; lagik brapa minggu aja." Wadeva that means, i'll juz take it as positiVe encouragemeNt. *kwekwekwe*

Ok people. come, count d daYs wiF me... (",)

~Two souls with but a single thought,Two hearts that beat as one.~

finaLLy...after a Long, loNg wait....

2007-10-07T03:17:00.000+08:00

Its finally heRe!!!!

Ohhh...abang anuarkUuu...........

daNg..inah beat me to geTTing the CD. =P

Its oK...i shall satisfY myseLf wiF what technoLogy has providEd for firsT...

LurVee his new aLbum! its wertH d wait. Abg aNuar'S such a romantiC. So sorry peopLe for the overfLowing show of affectiOn. I haVe a Long-standinG crusH on Abg anUar. hurHurhur.

2 of my faV sonGz froM d aLbum:

KetuLusan Hati

Cintaku tak berdusta
Tak mengenal ingkar
Tak kenal nestapa
Cintaku hanya indah
Hanya bahagia untuk selamanya
Apa yang kurasakan ini
Persembahan untuk dirimu
Kau biarkan kasihku

Mencintaimu tak mengenal waktu
Tak mengenal puitis
hanya tulusnya hati
mencintaimu tak mengenal ragu
keyakinan hatiku hanya untuk dirimu
selalu

Cintaku tak berdusta
Tak mengenal ingkar
Tak kenal nestapa
Tak ada seribu janji
Hanya bahagia untu selamanya
Apa yang kurasakan ini
Persembahan untuk dirimu
Kau benarkan kasihku
Mencintaimu tak mengenal waktu
Tak mengenal puitis hanya tulusnya hati
Mencintaimu tak mengenal ragu
Keyakinan hatiku hanya untuk dirimu selalu

Apa yang kurasakan ini
Persembahan untuk dirimu
Kau dengarkan kasihku

oooo

Mencintaimu tak mengenal waktu
Tak mengenal puitis hanya tulusnya hati
Mencintaimu tak mengenal ragu
keyakinan hatiku hanya untuk dirimu selalu

I'm the lucKy one

Ku persembahkan satu cita ku..
Setulus hati hanyalah untukmu
dan ku lakukan semampu aku tuk menyayangimu
hingga kau merasa jadi pujaan ku
meski bercinta kadang tak indah
tapi tuk buktikan kau yg terindah
dan kupastikan..i'm the lucky one..
nikmati cinta lebih dari segalanya....

jiwaku ini yg tak tersentuh
kini terasa sejak bersamammu
berikan hangat hinggaku x mampu berjauh drmu
kerna kau yg bisa buatku bahagia

meski bercinta kadang tak indah
tp tuk buktikan kau yg terindah
dan ku pastikan i'm the lucky one
nikmati cinta lebih dari segalanya

caramu membuatku x berdaya
hatiku pun ribut terjaga
kau ubah hidupku ini jadi sempurna

meski bercinta kadang tak indah
tp tuk buktikan kau yg terindah
dan ku pastikan i'm the lucky one
nikmati cinta lebih dari segalanya

LurVee d LyricS of d soNg.

*swOon*

Ok..goNna go huNt 4d aLbum noW & surroUnd myseLf wiF more LurVeeee... *griNzz*

just.read.

2007-10-04T12:55:00.000+08:00

i hate dusT.

i hate faLLing sicK.

i haTe bLowing my nOse.

i hate haVing my nose bLocked.

i haTe feeLing liKe a soFt biscUit.

i Hate spring cLeaning.

i Hateeeeee....NOW.

AArGhhh!

new LooK...new pHase sOon...

2007-10-02T21:50:00.000+08:00

i'Ve decided to give uP editing d size of fonTs for earlier entries. dis entry onwards shaLL be proportioNate to d new Look of d bLog. sO peopLe, should u b scroLLing down the bLog historicaLLy, pardoN d eye sOre due to d large foNtz. Not taT i tinK my readers r visuaLLy chaLLenged, but yeaH, u ruffLy get my pOint ryt?

anywayz..i'Ve been meaNing to bLog an entry doWn here..but as aLways, i'M chaLLenged by tyM.

10 more daYs b4 Ramadhan ends. i muz say i'm quite disappointed wif myseLf dis tym roUnd 'coS i'Ve not been abLe to fuLLy maximiSe d ibadaH opportunities dis Ramadhan. I'm not suRe why i'M extremeLy tiRed @dis point of tiMe. perhaps its 3 tuisyEn assignmeNts & 4 tuitiOn kidz thaT r weighinG me dOwn, pLus d lOad@werK. noT that my bOss is a meaNie. tinK persoNally, i'm struggLing wiF all d current responsibiLities vis-à-viS d tiMe i haVe @ hanD.

my tuitIon kiDz aLL want a pieCe of me 'Cos now its exaM periOd. my case fiLes are screamiNg to be fiLLed wiF uPdates on previOus & current sessiOnz. d duSt @hoME is caLLing out to Be vacUumed 'cOs hari raYa's round d corNer. weddiNg's in 5 weekS tyM & sO manY, maNy tinGz need to be doNe. i'M pHysicaLLy worn oUt & iT shouLdn't be so 'cOs i nEed 2b fresH, aLive & kickiNg for d BIG daY.

aarGhhh! aaarH. aaarGhhh!

n i tiNk i'm haVing d pre-MarriaGe jitterZ. kwakwakwa. 5 more weeKs. 5 more weeKs. 5 more weeKs!!!

bite fiNgerz..bite naiLs. teeTh cLatter. =P

deaR & me haVe been refLecting d moMents b4 our biG daY to each otHer. Its not so mucH of disbeLief..i meaN, we did pLan to haVe d weddiNg, ryT? =P i tinK its more of d reaLisatioN that we wiLL b enteriNg another phase of Our life togeTher wif d speciaL suMone. u tinK about d adjustMents to coMe. u woNder abOut hOw ur soLemnisatioN ceremoNy & weddiNg receptioN wiLL turn out. u poNder abOut each otHer's cLoset idioSyncracies thaT wiLL come to Lyt. *ahakZ* insyaAllah, it wiLL be a wOnderfuL journEy; a process of discOvery and acceptanCe, pePpered wiF sweeT & sour spiCes.

i'D b takiNg days of leaVe each weeK startinG today. cLeaning beckOns me.

n not forgettiNg momenTz of seLf-pamperinG. iTs uroT & body scruB todaY!

.faJ is goNna taKe a waLk in d midSt of heaVy traffiC.

i'M breathiNg @ 2AM

2007-09-25T17:50:00.000+08:00

Love diS sonG by anna naLick:

BreaThe

2 AM and she calls me cause I'm still awake
Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?
I don't love him, winter just wasn't my season.
Yeah we walk through the doors so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize
Hypocrites, you're all here for the very same reason.

Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
and life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button, girl
So cradle your head in your hands.
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breathe, just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base of Fort Bliss
"Just a day," he said down to the flask in his fist
Ain't been sober since maybe October of last year
Here in town you can tell he's been down for awhile
But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles
Wanna hold him maybe I'll just sing about it

Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button, boys
so cradle your head in your hands
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breath just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel
You shout cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made
You'll just make them again if you'll only try turnin' around

2 AM and I'm still awake writing this song
If I get it all down on paper it's no longer inside of me
Threatening the life it belongs to.
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary screamin' out aloud
And I know that you'll use them however you want to.

But you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand, yeah breathe
Just breathe, oh oh breathe, just breathe, oh breathe,
just breathe, oh breathe, just breathe

Hear it 'Live' as weLL:

suMting about d thuMb

2007-09-25T17:35:00.000+08:00

I neEd to get myseLf a new thuMb. seriousLy.

aLL d effort drawinG uP d List of addressEs for d biG daY's inVite & theN... kaPootttTt! d thuMb gaVe up oN me. aarGh. aaaRgh. aaarGh. heAr my reaLLy loUd siLent shrieK. aargH!!!!

nOw....i haVe gotta gO back to squaRe oNe.

n yeS, aLL d peekturEz r goNe as weLL. haiYoOOoh.

n y do deY say tecHnology's suPPosed to maKe liFe sLightlY beTter?? NOT! BaaaH!

i shaLL take comforT thaT todaY is paY daY. Haaaa. caBOoootTtt!!

i lov3333 numb3rsss!!!!

2007-09-21T05:15:00.000+08:00

hoWdy reaD3rz!!

Its that tym of d yeaR - Ramadhan. Alhamdulillah, amidsT d madNess of all things rushinG bY @ hyPer spEed...i'Ve beeN fiNe. StruggLing, but yes, stiLL fiNe. *hiaKzz* tinK i spEak d saMe werDs each tyM i Lag iN entriEs on uPdates. but neva miNd..aren't we aLL creatuRes of habiTs. =P (exCuses.excuseS.excusEs.)

spearheaDed a retReat, which aLmost made me retreaT. But oNce it was oVer, d results were wertH it. D senSe of accomplishMent & disbeLief thaT i'd actuaLi croSsed a hurdLe sanK in. Alhamdulillah. More werK to coMe; but hopefuLLy, D benefiTs wiLL be reaPed thRu' seeinG chiLdren groW & develoP @ d Centre. (",) YaY!

in d miDst of stRess & deeP thouGht, deR's aLways tyM feR camWhorinG:

d nexT entrY woUld definiteLy be a pictograpHy. hePi moMentz stiLLed in pixeLs shaLL be "eternalised" heRe. hurhurHUr.

for Now, presentinG d currenT fAd (besIDes a Mr faD):

d TV sEries - Numb3rs

NumB3rs staRs roB morroW & david KrumhoLtz as d ePPes broThers. One an FBI agenT & d otHer a mathematiCs geeK & professoR; hand in hand, they joiN forces to saVe d werLd. Haaa. no Lah. d broThers werk hand in hanD to soLve complex criMes. i've a fetiSh for in criMinaL investigatiOn and forensiC elements. Hence, anY Tv serieS of this natUre wiLL haVe a die hard faN in Me. *grinZz*

presentinG..d heart throBs of d shOW:

Rob MorroW as doN ePpes

David krumhoLtz as charLie ePpes

*oggLe2*

hehehehehe.

wiLL b bacK wif more updaTes & peekTures!

tiLL theN.

gotta Go!

d odYsseY

2007-08-30T22:20:00.000+08:00

dedicaTed ceNtre's openinG. i haVe no ideA whY..wHy..wHy..i'm chuCked intO d decO departmenT.

peopLe, i sucK @ creatiVe arts, reaLii. ReaLLy. liKe biG tyM. havinG to puLL off sumtinG like decoratinG a major LaunchinG evenT..wiLL senD high leveLs of stRess to Urs truLy.

toGether, wiF anuDer bLind moUse, we ventUred out oN our owN odySsey of unearThing (with much efforT) our creaTive fLair.

suM resuLts for your viewinG:

i thanK feLLow coLLeagues for theiR faiTh & beLief in my so-caLLed taLents in spicinG uP d eveNt. *HurHurhuR*

d oNe whO had to toLerate my noNsenSe in dire straiTs such as diS. *kwenG kwenG kwenG*

The RacKeteer PledgE

We, d racKeteers, do hereBy pLedge that:

- we wiLL aLways find huMour in wadeva we Do & laFF our aSses oFF

- we wiLL alwaYs camWhore @ d sLightest opportuniTy

- we wiLL aLways staY trUe to d spirit of d Ya-Ya sisTerhOod (wadeVA taT means)

- we wiLL aLways gO throUgh nonseNse & craP & momeNts oF abYsseS togeDer

- we wiLL always be loYal to our countrY & our peopLe (haAa!)

majOr identitY cRisis in proGress

2007-08-30T21:55:00.000+08:00

TutoR, senioR worKEr, daugHTer, SistEr, coLLeague, FrienD, suPervisOr, fiancée, faJar, sLacker, besT freN, bridE-to-Be.

aaRghh. i wisH i couLd cuT myseLf up inTo pieCes and uSe ém/myseLf sparingLy... *gaWd*

pasT few weeKs have bEen...hMmm..a roLLer coaster riDe wouLd be an understaTement...trY a supersoNic bacK to d fuTure kinda riDe for mE.

werKing my heaDs off wiF syaH deaRie foR d dedicaTed cenTre's opeNing ceremoNy; noT mucH resT theN camE d saturdaY werkshoP and oNce agaiN stoLen moMents of resT in betweeN whiLst preparinG for d inaugraL retreaT (whicH is happeniNg in 2 daYs tyM). oH yar, pacKage incLusiVe oF frantiC squeezinG in of tuiTion sessioNs pLus, pePpered wiF anxiEties of impendiNg marriagE. *

Oh maN. bLardy tiRed Lorr.

i aM tired. pHysicaLLy, mentaLLy & emotioNally. i aM wearY. @ suM instaNceS, i maY be groucHy and bitcHy as weLL. werSe casE senariO, i maY suffer occasioNal perioDs of insaniTy or eitHer thaT muLtipLe personaliTy disOrder ie. 1 momeNt d niceY sugaRy strawberrY sociaL werKer and d nexT, d sterN tutOr whO's toNe escaLates @ everY bLunder maDe by d tuTee.

i caN go ke-Ra-Zee. whiCh expLains:

d umbreLLa in d oFis. poSe wiF feLLow "rackEteEr" - terM coiNed by biG O in d oFfice.

nevatHeless..hOpe, Love, greaT freNs & hiLarioUs moMentZ stiLL prevaiL. d nexT 2 montHs, i beLieve wiLL be oNe heLLuva loaD of tiMe hussLe for me - more werK, schOOl examiNations & d weddinG round d corNer. maY HE granT me patienCe, eNduranCe & hardinEss to puLL tHru' d last few hurdLes of 2007; maY HE graNt thoSe arouNd me opEn arMs (to endUre my craP wen d goiNg geTs tuFf) and more Love to joiN in my craP as weLL. *hAaaa..hiaKzzz

n weN aLL eLse faiLs, juZ rememBer to...

smiLeee...alBeit d sardiNed-Nes, stOned-neSs & seLenger-neSs u're experiencinG.

woRd of thanKs to esaH fOr her timeLiness in snaPPing shOtz in moMenTz of stRess. *griNzz*

What would you do in the Name of Love?

2007-08-30T20:55:00.000+08:00

Would you wait for the one and only you've set your eyes on? Would you settle for the one who has your heart or the one who has his/her heart on you? Would you move on?

One of my favourite songs from Rossa. Petite woman with great voice.

~Mengapa yang lain bisa, mendua dengan mudahnya;
Namun kita terbelenggu dalam ikatan tanpa cinta...~

thiS is my noW....

2007-08-24T17:30:00.000+08:00

sumone's complaining that i've not been blogging. Guess i better start. i dedicate dis entry to my minah kampong-in-arms. *hiakzz*

few mths have passed since i've keyed in a more "eventful" (for lack of a better word) entry. may tings have happened. werk, love and life.

geez. where shall i start? Ok lah. good tidings first.

I have been in my line of work for 4 years. 4 years. geez. 4 years ago it was between teaching and social working. a decisioN was maDe. perhaps, it was my calling to be a social worker. looking bacK @d past 4 years, little did I realise tHat i have done much in my careeR. theRe have been uPz & dowNz in my werK; but no doubT, doing whaT i'm doinG giVes me fulfillment and addS more meaning to my life. Mak always say that "Kerja tu kan satu amanah". When I am late for work or bring much work home to clear...these words will be on repeat mode at home. *hee* coMe last montH, my hard werK paid off. Alhamdulillah, I have been promoted to a senior position. I thank Allah for all that he has given me - the strength to endure & grit thru' d tough times; the courage to do what i tink is right; the brain cells to get it going and of course for this opportunity.

As Spidey's uncLe says..With great power, comes great responsibilities. Yes, responsibilities are sure piling up around, beside and on top of me. InsyaAllah, I shall take them in stride. I have bigger dreams for my career. I hope and pray HE will sHower me with more blessings and resolve to fulfill my dreams. i thanK my family, freNz & besTies for encouraginG & supporting my werK. ur loVe, care & concerN gives me faiTh & inspiratioN. (",)

a soNg to ceLebrate this milestOne:

nexT, wedding prePz.

wOoHooo~ weddinG's is abOut twO monThs awaY. Yes, not 5, not 7, not 4...its 2 months away! ultra fast lorr... heNce, wedding prePz have beeN on geaR 4. d hantaRan items are more or less settled. carD design lefT to be QC-ed & commented bY siblinGz. most unfOrgettable is d trip to NILAI with d siblings.

what set out 2b a 1-day triP ended up as a stayoVer; misadventuRes wif siBlings are priceLess. btw, NILAI is a mus go shopping place for the brideS & grOoms 2b. spoilt for chOices 'cOs it reaLi is a 1-stoP shoPping place for ur wedding neeDs. i manaGed to get mosT of my weddinG essentiaLs There. lovinG it!

n theN, d lasT minute staYover was hilarioUs lorr. hotel afTer hoteL were fuLL house. we weRe uBer cLose to sleepinG in d caRs. *hiaKzz* anywaY, no choice.. we finally landed in an apartmeNt which was daMn cikeLa'aK lorr. Haaaaa. no towels. dirty water. tOrn out toilet dOor. middLe of d nYt power failUre. i could go on n on; but i dun wish to invoKe d traUmatic experiencE @ d 1-staR port dicksOn apartment. HAAA. beyoNd werdZ man.

coMe september..familY & myself would be buSier. d househoLd wiLL be bustlinG wif weDdinG preparatiOns aftEr eOns (i tinK almosT 10 years). i hoPe aLL will go smoothLy. maKe yoUr dO'as for me, ya? =)

wad eLse for d recOrd huh? i suPPose diS quite enUf for a coMeback froM 'aByss'.. *griNzz* tiLL d next enTry theN. suM pics froM d merry Month of juLy for ur viewinG:

berfdaE gerL cuts her caKe: lunch cuM diNner treaT by slacKer maiTes @ mad Jack's

Post-treaT: whaT a fuLL tummy doEs 2u. hurHur..

aNd anOther oNe weDs...... congraTz raudaH!! (",)

bacK wiF a soNg

2007-07-23T04:45:00.000+08:00

Ok..i'Ve not been upDating..June to July has beeN quite a bZ montH. priceLess experieNce @mouLding d heLpers' of d coMMunity - my 1st stuDent sUpervisiOn; reWardz for my hard werK paiD off in the month of July *smiLez wideLy*; weddinG preParatiOnz happeninG @ acceLerated sPeed; berfdaE ceLebratioN & chiLLing out wiF guD freNz, hanGing out wiF starZ n of kOS, more werK. *hiaKzz*

aLL updaTes r assuRed... in tyM. =P

for nOw, a soNg i thOught was sunG by hazaMi..but actuaLi, by Kaer; new sinGer froM maLaysia..:

Izinkan Ku PerGi

sinaran mata cerita segalanya
duka lara terpendam memori semalam

tinggal segala cinta tiada kembalinya

abadi kasih kita kau bawa bersama

mimpi indah mekar saat cinta bersemi

sedetik asmara syurga selamanya

*Korus*

pergilah rinduku hilangkan dirimu

tak sanggup menanggung derita di kalbuku

pergilah sayangku bermula semula

semangat cintaku membara kerana dia

tiada niatku

tersemat jiwa setia bersamanya

cinta murni berdua beribu tahunnya

mimpi indah mekar saat cinta bersemi

sedetik asmara syurga selamanya

*Repeat Korus

ohh pergilah sayangku bermula semula

semangat cintaku membara kerana dia

tiada niatku

maafkan daku duhai kasih

izinkan ku pergi ...

mY heROoOo..... =P

2007-06-26T10:40:00.000+08:00

i muZ cautiOn U thaT diS few tyMz aheaD wiLL be a spOradiC entriEs of soNgz & tuNes.

n sO d storY gOes.....

beFore deaRest caMe, there was anoTher maN. *hiaKzzZ* i probaBly wouLD souND bimboTic in diS entrY..bUt neH miNd laH, anYthinG for d Ex. =P

n sO d otHer maN: mY abaNg....abaNg aNuaR..... ;o) aaarghhhHh..caN't get enuF of hiM.... :

suNg wiF sucH greaT convictiOn & feeLing.... *aWwwWw* n i compLeteLy lurVeee his neW lOok!!!! sO kaWaiii & koreAn!!!

hOW ofTeN do u heaR gUd engLish siNging frOm maLay sinGers?? *griNzzZ*

mY favouritE soNggGg......

Sesucinya Cintamu

KORUS:
Dapatku membayangkan
Dari senyum bibirmu itu
Terlindung dari nyata
Aku tahu semua
Terucap kata-kata
Bisikan seluhur hatimu
Ku percaya jua
Sesucinya cintamu

Ku kagumi sinar
Matamu yang ayu
Bundarnya
Cantiknya

Wajahmu sayang
Penyejuk rasa
Selembut hatimu
Menjadiku bertambah sayang

(Repeat KORUS)

Senangnya hati kini
Sejak bersamamu
Bertemu dan bermesra

Sering menghibur duka
Biar masa berlalu
Kasih sayang dipahatkan
Ku percaya suci cintamu

(Repeat KORUS)

iniKah asmaRa......??

2007-06-25T18:15:00.000+08:00

AsMara (by AnneKe gronLoh)

Oh begini rasanya
Hatiku sengsara
Mengingat dia hatiku luka
Kerna tergoda oleh cinta

Oh begini rasanya
Hatiku sengsara
Mengingat dia hatiku luka
Kerna tergoda oleh cinta

Diri sanggup membela
Kepada saya, yang sengsara

Diri sanggup membela
Kepada saya, yang sengsara

Oh asmara banyaklah pengaruhnya
Manusia hidup dalam bahayanya

Oh cinta itu memang satu penggoda
Kita harus tahu menjaga
Agar hidup mulia

soMe tuNezzz..

2007-06-25T17:35:00.000+08:00

beeN awhiLe diS bLog is withOut an update. shaLL leaVe d storiEs for Later. meanwhiLe..suM soNgz for d recoRd:

i lurVeeee....baNg saMsoNs'!!!!! =D *hiaKZzz*

rawK neBer diEzzz beB....aMy seaRch juGak d besT.. *yeaAahhhh!!*

YeaaaHhh..kLuarkan lighTer2 Mu sMuerrr!!! *griNzzZzz*

n not forGetting my laGu pebreT sangaT2 durinG d zamaN raWk kegemiLangaN yaNg menYerLah... *faJ sticKz out tonGue n d rawK 3-finGers siGn*:

taK bLeH angkaT maN, see d giTar-isTs. =P

shaMrin sOoo kiuTtt..i loiKee hiM so mucH weN i was budaK2 oKay.. hiaKzz. see hiM sinG diS soNg NOW. *hee* his voiCe stiLL maintaiN beB!

(",)

goT loVe?

2007-06-11T10:55:00.000+08:00

aFter friDay nYt renDezvOus, i feLL in lurVe wif d soNg by acHa sePtriaSa & IrwaNsyaH. YerP, itZ d oNe u're HearinG oN d bLog ryT noW. Ya..ya.. as mucH as i foUnd their initiaL duEt, "my heaRt" irritatiNg.... diS soNg.. is a chaNge. i lurVee d tuNe & d LyriCs of coUrse. =D apparentLy iTs oN d OST of "lOve is CINTA". i beTTa go lOok foR d VCD theN. *hiaKzz*

cLear ur eaRs 4 d wOrDz of d soNg...:

Ada ciNta - AcHa sePtriaSa & irwaNsyaH

Ucapkanlah kasih..

Satu kata yang kunantikan

Sebab ku tak mampu membaca matamu

Mendengar bisikmu

Nyanyikanlah kasih..

Senandung kata hatimu

Sebab ku tak sanggup mengartikan getar ini

Sebab ku meragu pada dirimu

Mengapa berat ungkapkan cinta

Padahal ia ada

Dalam rinai hujan, dalam terang bulan

Juga dalam sedu sedan

Mengapa sulit mengaku cinta

Padahal yang terasa

Dalam rindu dendam, hening malam

Cinta.. terasa ada…

brinG on d Honey!

2007-06-04T17:55:00.000+08:00

oKay..itz d skL hoLz; meaninG, iTs juz me & brO @HoMe. pareNTz, as usuaL r doIng theiR skuL hoLiday rituaL- BaLik KampoNg..

whicH aLso meaNs tHat gOodY me get tO speNd extRa tyM oUtsiDe wiF freNs whiLe deY're @iT. *hiakzZ*

weeKend was a weLL speNt oNe; quiTe tirEd tHouGh. attendeD a weddinG, an engagemeNt functiOn, visiTed a freN wHo gave birTh recentLy, not forgettiNg..tuitiOnnnnn.... *fainTzz*

aNyway, was hanGing ouT wiF my sLAcker maiTez aFter d weddinG on saturdaY tiLL wee hoUrs of d nYt. (noT so wEe lah...haa!)

wiF cuPz of drinKz froM foRum's coffEe beaN, sOme craPPy "bee" joKes caMe aboUt. So, jUz for d recoRd, lauGhter's d besT mediciNe:

I) What dO u caLL beEs thaT prodUce miLk?

Ans: Boo-Bies. (i saiD bi-Su initiaLLy. Haaaa.)

nOw, RaU's joKe goT everyOne staRted. aLL of uS begaN cooKing uP suM oTher hoNey craP...

II) WhaT do u caLL a Bee thaT liKes to tricK?

Ans: BooBy traP

III) A bEe thaT caNNot speaK?

Ans: Bi-Su

IV) a noisY bee?

Ans: Bi-siNg

V) a Bee that coMes in 2 pieCes / a paiR of bEes?

Ans: Bi-Kini (2 pieCes, geddiT)

VI) aN irritatiNg bEe / a gataL Bee?

Ans: BI-TcH

VII) a Bee thaT has Aged?

Ans: BI-oL(d) =P

VIII) a Bee ThaT maY bursT wheN iTs toucHed?

Ans: Bi-soL

*hiaKkzz*

i'M amazEd @mY sLackeR koNcoS' sponTaneitY (n mySelf, of couRse); i suPPose it was juZ d tyM of d daY wheN aLL of Us wouLd starT "actiNG oUt". @pasT mid-Nyt, ouR craPPiness LeveL surE rockEted skY hiGh.

oK..shaLL eNd diS saccHarineLy craPPy pOst wiF a suWeeeTttt peeKtuRe:

a bLissfuL marriaGe tO LiZa & huBBy! (",)

quotabLe quoTes

2007-05-26T19:30:00.000+08:00

i lurVe moVies, and i lurVe quoTes. So, y not mesH d 2 uP???

I'm Faj! I'm Faj!

Which movie was this quote from?

They may take away our Faj, but they'll never take our freedom!

Which movie was this quote from?

Get your own quotes:

This is so relevant to the programme closure later this morning! *grinzzz*

I've got a feeling we're not in Fajar anymore.

Which movie was this quote from?

Get your own quotes:

*haaaaaa*

::watCh ur steP, watch ur turF::

2007-05-26T19:10:00.000+08:00

liFe is LikenEd to a journEy. we, r traveLLers' whO waLk on paThs anD roaDz and manY grouNds n terraiNz; @ tyMz we wouLd croSs paThs, interseCt opportunitiEs or eveN treaD on groUnds unknowN to Us. iT is on thoSe groUnds that perhaPz, we ouGht to actuaLi coVer our arSes...'cOs shouLd we continUe treaDinG on unknowN groUnds without understandiNg d natUre of it...we couLd b in for ~~BIG~~ MAJOR troubLe.

instaNces of Late haVe cauSed me to refLect mucH; oFten abOut werDs said, actioNz doNe, intenDed or noT, attituDes seeN & obserVed. abOut hoW individuaLs seeKz to enteR or shaRe certain paThs/groUnds wif suM otheRs whO haVe waLked theRe befOre theM.

its heartBreakiN' weN I) oNe assuMes dey r "IT"; II) oNe doEs noT respecT oThers' pLace in d paTh III) oNe speaKz & assEsses hOw deY experieNce d waLking withoUt looKing @ d conText - d histOry, d naTure & conditioNs of d paTh taKeN, or simpLy IV) arrogaNce.

knowIng ur pLAce & hOw u fit in d scheMe of tinGz wouLd definiteLy servE gOod pUrpoSe in One's jOurneY throuGh liFe.

Eat huMble piE if u muz; but juZ watch ur stePs wiLL u? traveLLers' haVe eyeZ. n deY carrY taLes too.

every steP, is a steP takEn by otHers befOre.....

taLes r LearninG lessoNz. gooD for otHers. fOr u, how so?

Bird-Watching?

2007-05-24T08:17:00.000+08:00

So much is haPPening at the moment. My liFe revoLves largeLy arounD worK. my braiN is toasTed. i praY for Allah to giVe me more strengTh, patieNce and enduraNce in carryiNg out my dUties. n pLease aLLow my braiN ceLLs 2b fuLLy functionaL & pLease aLLow my brain ceLLs to self-geneRate aT a suPerwoMan raTe. thank you Allah.

I've reaD tuesDays wiF morriE sumtyM bacK (n nOw, wheN is thaT sisTer of miNe goNna returN me ALL d bOOks thaT shE has Loaned froM me????); nOw, sUm guD freNz & i haVe our owN versioN of thiS reflEctive journeY: "TuesdaYs wiF birDs".

i foUnd my "virginaL" experienCe attendinG d biRds' cLass enrichiNg & leaVes me much to poNder aboUt. tenX to dear coLLeagues whO haVe inspirEd mE to joiN theM in thiS refLective & contempLative journeY.

more thoughTs laTer on. i promIsed myseLf d breaK froM werK wouLd onLy taKe, 10 minuTes. i leaVe u wiF diS sonG frOm M.nasiR..:

M. Nasir - Tanya Sama Itu Hud-hud

Tujuh puluh tiga pintu
Tujuh puluh tiga jalan
Yang sampai hanya satu jalan

Beribu-ribu Margasatua
Mencari raja si Muraq
Yang sampai hanya tiga puluh

Ooh... Sang Algojo
Ooh... nanti dulu

Lihat dunia dari mata burung
Atau dari dalam tempurung
Yang mana satu engkau pilih
Dalam kalut ada peraturan
Peraturan mencipta kekalutan
Di mana pula kau berdiri
Di sini

Ooh... Sang Algojo
Ooh... nanti dulu

Berikan ku kesempatan akhir ini
Untuk menyatakan kalimah/kisah sebenarnya
Berikan aku kesempatan akhir ini
Lai lai la lai la lai

"Tanya sama itu hud-hud
Lang mensilang
Kui mengsikui
Kerna dia yang terbangkan ku ke mari"

biRd watchinG: PatienT noW, ListeN, reflect & aM stiLL trying to maKe senSe...

oNe for sorRow, 2 for joY? erMmm..oNe for jOy, or 2 foR sorrow raTher?

2007-05-05T17:20:00.000+08:00

Yes, yes. I have been on a hiatuS.

n wiLL contiNue to b for quite sum tyM.

So.

WaD haVe i been uP to?

oNe: no upDates beCause mY PC @hoMe refuSe to bLardY starT on Me. so frUstratiNg. d lasT tyM it chOked; i changed d wirEs and iT was oKay. d oTher daY, it breaThed agaiN after a few nYtz of sLeep. mUz haVe been a miracLe, i thouGht. n theN d nexT daY, it couLdn't starT again!!!!

noW i'm paying for a dormanT pC which i can'T even utiLise to geT interNert accesS.

bLardy *&%%$%$&^^$%#$*&.. juz entitLe me to oNe momeNt of proFanitY, pLease. *faJ roLL eyeZ*

sHeesH. greaT misEry. i caN't do werK @hoMe; aNd tHe pC has to diE on mE juz weN i neeD it d moSt. sHeesH.

Who'd gUess thaT a coMpuTer couLd b a stressOr??

fOr d Life of Me, haiL d oFFice laptoP... which shaLL b my coMpanioN for werK n pLay oVer diS fatefuL weekeNd. n suM1, pLease heLp me saVe my LifE. briNg my Pc bacK to Me. tsk..tsk..

twO: my haNds r fuLL & i'M swimmiNG up to my necK wif werK. i'Ve aboUt 10 morE dayZ to a dateLine & my evaLuatiOn papeR is bareLy.....iTs juZ baRe. aaaRghhhh!!! aaargHh..doubLy aarGGghh!!!

haAa..maYbe i shouLd maKe d suggestiOn to boSs for uSe of this sigN. =P

nexT waVe of chaLLenge coMing up; heNce, fuLLy arMed aNd aLL geaRs enGaged to joUrney throUgh d nexT streTches oF my caReer paTh.

n d tO-dO lisT i juz drawN out aLmost poPped my eyeZ out of 'em socKetz! haizzZ..haiZzz..haiZzz.

tHree: ya, noT forGettinG d weddinG prePz. shoPping wiF d 2 eLder sisTers in Jb fOr weddiNg iteMz waS a ~~g-r-e-a-T~~ virgiNal experieNce. *hiakZzz* deaR got A tasTe of d Ya-Ya sisTerhOod. =P weLL, he finaLLy goT a chanCe to hang oUt wiF my sisTers n theiR famiLies. nerVe-wrecKing, awKwaRd, amUsinG, aLL in One. iTs a staRt! n manY more to coMe, insyaAllah.

n HumaiRa baBe! we shUd meet uP sooN foR d caRds! (",)

suM weddinG prePz on d to-dO lisT r mOre or LEss checKed. nOw, did i Miss anYthing out?

6 mOre montHs to d BIG day!! so fasTtTTtt!!!!!

*griNzzz*

'nuFf saiD.

i'LL be bacK.

tWo siDes of a coiN

2007-04-12T07:05:00.000+08:00

tHere's aLways 2 siDes to a coiN. yeS?

buT u See, d problem is, most of d tyM, we onLi sEe d siDe thaT's facinG us. n moSt of d oTher tyMz, d siDe whicH we duN faVour or r Less incLined tO accePt or taKe on is d onE taT's facing doWn.

i fiNd it a basiC premiSe thaT in aNY maTter or circumstaNce, there r maNy possibiLitieS & choiCes; n theReafTer, aFter goinG wif a certaiN possibiLity, moRe chain of reactiOns happeN. This, in turN, brinGs oNe to maNy other possibiLities. r u foLLowing?

i fiND it immatUre & annoyinG tHat weN suM1 asKs me for an opiniOn, onLy to shuT me oFf later oN, juz becaUse waD i haVe mentioNed is not LinE wiF d stanD he/She haS taKen.

to starT wif, i do not need to acknowLedge or laY dowN whaT u already kNow or haVe in minD. insteaD, i laY doWn d siDe of d coiN thaT u maY not See, or vieWs thaT perhaPz are not to ur tasTe. i shOw u otHer possibiLitieS thaT u maY not havE considEred. 'coS thaT's what askiNg otHers for vieWs, input & opiniOn entaiL.

sO, if u're not oNe whO is opEn in acceptiNG or eveN consiDerinG possibiLities OR if u'Re d tyPe whO onLy wanT d werLd to sEe thinGz thRu' ur eyEz, dUn eveN botHer asKing me foR inPut or giVe my opiniOn.

u maY not accept d tinGz i saY thereafteR; but @leasT consiDer d possibiLity of it. duN liKe d tinGz i saY, its fiNe by mE.

but reMember, juZ remEmber firsT...whO asKed? n why aSk in d 1st pLace?

n rememBer tOo, thaT there's always TWO siDes of a coiN.

n hOney, dun bLame me for showing u d ugLy siDe of d coiN.

'cOS d worLd is fiLLed witH tOo apLenty of d prettY & priM & proPer siDes, n maNy a-tiMe, we're bLinded froM seeiNg d OTHER siDe.

myseLf incLuded (n thaNk gOd, i haVe peopLe wHo coNstantLy toss my coINz to shOw me d otHer siDe).

d StoryteLLer

2007-04-11T23:25:00.000+08:00

i'Ve aLways beeN an aviD fan of yasMin ahMad's fiLms. y? juSt becaUse.

sHe's oNe heLLuva storyteLLer; her storiEs aRe a sharinG of liFe experienCes & a refLectiOn of certaiN theMes sHe obserVes in soCiety. sHe dOes sO wiF no friLLz, no maMbo-JumBo biG phiLosoPhiEs in haNd, juz in simpLe huMan emotionz & daiLy languAge. ~~moSt~~, no ALL her fiLmz maKe me tiNk a Lot (onLy aFter i'Ve enjoyed, LauGhed aND criEd myseLf to biTz) aboUt my owN experieNces & about liFe per Se.

i lUrve narratiVes & storiEs; eveN in my werK, d approacH to therapY usinG narratiVes iNteresT me. readinG stoRies aboUt therapY capture more of my attentIon, raTher thaN stacKz of readinG on theorIes and interventioNz. so. muNdane.

kiNd of iroNic; 'coS i waS neVer an Ace stUdent weN it came to engLish literaTure bacK in coLLege. in faCt, it was a struggLe foR me. HurHurHur. buT weLL, suMting muZ haVe gotteN thrU' me weN i toOk maLay literaTure & maLay studiEs in mY JC & unI daYz. =P

i wanT 2b a storyteLLer; in faCt mosT of Us aLreadY are wiF thiS pervasiVe thinG caLLed technoLogy. mOst of Us bLog, but its juZ a maTter of whEther we'Re teLLing a guD or baD storY. perhaPz, theRe's no sucH tinG as a bad storY 'coS eacH storyteLLer is entitLed to hiS or her owN maNner of 'immortaLising' (for lacK of a Betta wOrd) theiR storiEs. But theN agaiN, i'm not certaiN wheTher bLogginG quaLifieS as storYteLLing 'coS u maY juz eNd uP bitchiNg & whiNing mOre. *hiaKz*

i wouLd liKe to coNsider my sharinG of experieNces & liFe's moMentz heRe as portiOnz of mY liFe's storY. i'M not eveN suRe wheTher thEre are kiNd souLz hU coMe heRe to Read my lesS thaN perfecT forM of LiteraTure. buT 1 tinG i'm certaiN is tHat, my stoRies are a faR crY froM thOse wHo haVe a fLair fOr peNning dOwn liFe's experieNces iN aPt laNguagE & d abiLity tO weavE humaN emotioNz, to Juz coNnect wiF d audiEnce/reader.

nevaTheLess, i'D liKe to tinK mySeLf as d pengLipur Lara tO my future spoUse, chiLdren, grandchiLdren & exteNded famiLy meMbers; to cLientz whO i've worKed & are going to werK wiF. eacH new persoN meT aDdz uP spICe & fLavour to mY baG of experiEnces aNd emotioNz.

oK, i'M off to huNt for moRe experieNces to fiLL uP d paGes of my Life. u shOuLd tOo.

i leaVe u wiF suM pieCes of werK whiCh inspiRed d fiLm, mukhsiN:

"The minute I heard my first love story,
I started looking for you, not knowing how blind that was.
Lovers don't finally meet somewhere.
They're in each other all along."
JelaluddiN ruMi

First Love by WislaWa SzymborsKa

They say

the first love is the most important.

That's very romantic

but it's not the case with me.

There was something between us yet there wasn't.

It transpired and expired.

My hands don't tremble,

when I stumble upon small mementos

or a stack of letters wrapped in twine

—not even a ribbon.

Our only meeting after all these years

is a conversation between two chairs

at a cold table.

Other loves

still breathe deeply within me.

This one lacks the breath to sigh.

But still, just the way it is,

it can do what the rest are not yet able to do:

unremembered

not even dreamt of

it accustoms me to death.

rememBer the first tym?

2007-04-07T14:59:00.000+08:00

impromPtu, last miNute outiNgz wiF coLLeaguez are aLways unregrettabLe & uNforgettabLe.

peoPle, u haVe got to watcH MukhsiN:

d mOvie leFt me reminisciNg of my owN fersT loVe. yEs, i was 10. anD i met hiM duriNG d skuL hoLidays too wHen i wenT bacK to visiT my uncLe @his viLLage in J.B. *cheeKy griNzz*

aaAah, i lurVe d muVie sOo mucH! to reaD my thoUghtz on d muVee, droP by HERE.

U'd definiteLy loVe adibaH Noor'S voiCe in "HujAn":

tO lisTen, paUse d pLayer in d leFt coLumN 1st & hit d 'pLay' buttoN on diS oNe. (",)

Mega mendung di angkasa
Hembusan bayu dingin terasa
gerimis berderai di merata
bagai mutiara

Rahmat dibawa bersama
Limpahannya meresap dijiwa
adakala bahgia terasa
meskipun duka nestapa

Tika hujan turun
sayup mendayu lagu keroncong
merdu irama dialun
bersenandung

Hujan membasahi bumi
melahirkan keluhuran budi
mengeratkan perpaduan suci
kasih sayang abadi

bangKok Dii MaaK Maak!!!

2007-04-07T05:45:00.000+08:00

yEs, bangKoK dii Maak MaaK! bangKok Very, Very gOoDd!!! iTz a reaL shoPpers' paradiSe!

a 4daYs 3nyTz renDezvoUs wiF foUr of my sLacker maiTez to bangKok finaLLy caMe tHru'..aFter 'bouT 2mThs pLus of pLanning & contempLation & saviN' up d pocKetz fOr d triP....we couLd safeLy saY.. we caMe.. we saW... n we conqueRed (d shoPping maLL, d weekeNd marKets, maKeshiFt staLLz & aBang roNNie's restauraNt).... *winKzz*

we leFt our maRks (n our moNies) @ praTunaM marKet, chatucHak & maH buh khoNg shoppiNg cenTre. wunDerfuL experieNce & yeaH, freT noT 'cos theRe's apLenty of MusLim fOod doWn thEre.

heRe's suM phoTos for d memoriEs dowN theRe:

n Yes, diS is d firsT..bUt it wuN b mY laSt triP doWn theRe. i'D be suRe to speNd morE tyM sighT-seeinG & visitinG pLaces of inteRest d nexT tyM i'M theRe. i mus saY thoUgh thaT d bargaiNz r harD to resisT!

so mUch for teMptatiOns, thaT i bouGht 4 seTz of fooTweaR, 4 toPz, 2 skiRtz, 2 skirTy paNtz, baGz, fOod, sHirtz..hee.. i'Ve losT couNT! ;o)

tHat's aLL foLks' 'boUt mY littLe bangkoK triPpin' & khoP khuN maaK kHa for uR attentiOn on diS entrY! (",)

taKe thiS... and thaT...

2007-04-02T18:20:00.000+08:00

i'M suPPosEd to be uPdatinG about d bangKok triP, buT heY.. aLLow me to ShaRe my moMent 1st, caN? =P

hurHurHur...wad can i saY..eveN afTer aLmost 10 yeaRz.. i stiLL enjOy theiR soNgz...

a miLLioN loVe sOngz

Put your head against my life
What do you hear
A million words just trying to make
The love song of the year
Close your eyes but don't forget
What you have heard
A man who's trying to say three words
The words that make me scared

A million love songs later
And here I am trying to tell you that I care
A million love songs later and here I am
A million love songs later here I am

Looking to the future now
This is what I see
A million chances pass me by
A million chances to hold you
Take me back, take me back
To where I used to be
To hide away from all my truth
Through the light I see

A million love songs later
And here I am trying to tell you that I care
A million love songs later and here I am
A million love songs later here I am
A million love songs later here I am

yEs, taKe thaT. my teeNy booPer yeaRz speNt hearinG theiR sonGz, huMming theiR tuNes, cuttinG oUt featuRez of magaziNes on theM & gLue-iNg my eYez on theiR musiC videOz. thOse weRe d daYz.. sOooo... iNNocenT. n mY, mY, aFter aLL dis yeaRs.. deY stiLL haVe so mucH enerGy!! gaRy's voIce stiL wuNderfuL as eVa.. n maRk's stiLL adorabLy cUuTeEee!! WoOoHooo!!!

diS answeRs the hairstyLe mysTery i'Ve been tinKing abOut. suMting abOut the haiR of d grOup strucK a choRd in me d fersT tyM i watChed theiR new music videO - 'paTienCe'. n Man, i reaLiseD thaT deY looK liKe d beatLes. hEhEhe..

taKe tHat..coMe to singaPore sOooONNN!! aaRRrHHhhh!!! *faJ in spiriT of teeNy booPer screamiNgz..* *griNzzz*

doubLe depressiOn & suM greaT musiC!

2007-03-20T14:58:00.000+08:00

i couLd handLe it iF i was doWn..bUt 2 haVe 2 PCs crashiNg dOwn oN me is liKe maJor bLow!! definiteLy doubLe depressioN!! (D3..*hee*) tenK gaWd for noN-permaNence. 1's recovereD whiLst d werK pC is awaitiNg deLiverY frOm sTan, d comPuter maN (gEe, thaT rhyMezz..).. =P

iTs mondaY, and a soOn-2b tuesdaY; i'M doubLy hiGh todaY. duNno whY. haaa. i tinK you couLd feeL d enerGy in my liNes so far. HaaA!

i'Ve been feeLing greaT. suMhow i've restoRed & rejuVenated my energY for werK: i'Ve compleTed reporTs after repOrTs; doiNg loaDs of mY casewerK admiN & contactIng cLientz & pLanning what to do nexT. juZ hePi and prouD of myseLf. (",)

watChed musiC & lyriCs wif gerLfreNs dis eveniNG.. suCh a suWeet, cheesY, huMorouS in a laMe kinDa waY muVee. *heE* go watcH it peopLe. hecK waD d reviEws saY!

i'Ve posTed my faV sonG froM d muVee on dis bLoggiE. yeah, goNna b my soNG of d weeK for a few weeKs it seeMs. *griNzzz*

Way Back Into Love - huGh granT & dreW barrymOre

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me throught the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do

And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

i loVe d sonG! and d muVee! and DreW and huGh! hEe!!

Yes, theSe are d uPdatEz for nOw! wHeEEEeEEeee~ 2 moRe daYz to bangKoOK!! *smiLing froM ear to eaR*

budaK LelaKi loronG beLakanG.. erKk.. budaK jaLan beLakaNg.. erKk.. =P

2007-03-12T05:28:00.000+08:00

mY thaNks to my coLleague zaK foR triGgerinG a bLast tO d pasT swiTch. HurHurHur.. reLivinG d teeNy bOoper daYz. yeS, suM say, dey can'T sing, suM saY deY're gooFy or wadEva. But @ suM point in d pasT..adMit it.. we DIG theM.. =P

n yeaHz..saMe soNg buT wiF suM moVes. i'D ratHer theY juz sinG thaN danCe as weLL... ;o):

saWadee-Kha!!!

2007-03-12T04:40:00.000+08:00

iTs aLmost mid-March. So FaaSsstTtt!!!!!

buT nevatheLess...aM looKing forwaRd tOoo:

a LiL' trippIn' to winD dowN & shOp wiF 4 of my besT maiTezz.

*heE*

ka-chiNg..ka-chiNg..ka-chiNg...ooPz..emPty pockEts! =P

aFfair wiF tHe affaiRs

2007-03-11T00:34:00.000+08:00

as daYs pass, as tiMe catChes uP wiF me, aS d werLd sumhoW gets smaLLer..i juz waNna wondeR:

waD makes a sPouse seeK aNother, apaRt froM his or Her owN partner?

iS d d Loss of intimacY & affectiOn in hiS or her oWn marriaGe? iS it negLect froM him or her owN spouSe? is it puRe temptatioN? is it fLaws in d partneRs?

whaT is an affair? is it mereLy a matter of lingO? suM knOw it as 'infideLity' or 'adulterY'. suM saY its juZ 'hanging oUt', 'swinginG around', 'nothing serioUs' or a 'oNe-nYt stand'. or is it a mAtter of perceptiOns? wiFe sayS 'goinG out wiF thaT womaN freN of yours' is an affaiR or husbaNd saYs 'thaT maLe coLLeagUe keePs wHo messaginG you is ur boYfreN'. d liSt caN jusT go On & oN....

Geez. theorisTs say theRe are 5 tyPEs of ExTra maritaL affaiRs:

ConflicT avoidanCe affairs
IntimacY avoidanCe affairs
sexuaL addictiOn affaiR
exiT affaiR
spLit seLf affaiR

Read HERE, in caSe u'Re curiOus waD thiS (mostLy) seLf-expLanatory jargoNs meaN. n trusT me, in thiS agE, not onLi meN do thiS. woMen dO faLL intO the 'traP'.

d natUre of my werK is such thaT itS a doubLe edGed sworD: itS both a bLessinG & a hazaRd toO. i sEe d siDe of socieTy hiddeN behinD d concRete waLLs of modernisatiOn & ecoNomY. i sEe d subconsciOus functioNing in individuaLs. i sEe weaKnessEs coVereD by d achieveMents demandeD by socieTy. i sEe d unfortunaTe sideLineD by todaY's systeMs. i sEe d unexPecTed; and d werLd beiNG reaLi smaLL..i sEe peopLe froM my owN sociaL circLe, pasT & presenT & probabLy futurE enterinG my worK spheRe wiF theiR shaRe of difficuLties.

i coUnt my bLessinGs 'coS oThers' Life experieNces are eye-OpeneRs & becoMe my besT teachers. howeVer, meetinG & hearinG storiEs of thoSe famiLiar tO mE..aT tyMz, leaVes me appaLed & disappoiNted (dependiNg on d issUe of course).

a recenT revelatioN/discoVery thaT sum1 i respecTed & his other haLf weRe in d midsT of divorce procEedings. d reasOn: d exTra affaiR wif suM1 way mucH younGer than his aGe. n i begiN to wonder whY.

oF koS, its noNe of my business hoW peopLe run their marriaGes or reLate to each otHer in d marriaGe or deciDe d way to gO in their marriaGes. juZ thaT in my werK, weN u'Re so usEd to meetinG stranGers & hearinG their stoRies & werkinG togetHer wif theM to maKe thinGs righT agaiN.. thaT weN storiEs froM near distances emerGe, it bcoMes oh, so cLose to d hearT.

d news was mind-bLowing. it tOok me awhiLe to let it sinK in. Ya, it seeMs thaT i'm haVing doubLe standardS in my accepTance of whO d probLem coMes to. buT heY, i'm humaN. sumhOw, i dO get over my disappointmeNts aFter seLf-theraPy & discussiOns wiF coLLeaguEs whO heaR my raNts & shaRe their thougHts as weLL.

hearinG storiEs of affaiRs: brinGs reaLisatioN oN d vaLue & sanctitY of marriaGe, thaT it reaLi taKes a Lot of werK to maintaiN it for years & years. no douBt, Allah wiLL determiNe d fate of ur marriaGe. buT @ leasT, humanLy efforTs haVe beeN iNvested into d marriaGE.

is it aLL bLeak aFter an affair is reveaLed or discoVered by the spoUse? yeS & no. suM deciDe to throw in d toweL after d hurT & paiN of d discovEry. suM turn oVer a new leaF. suM refleCt on hoW botH husband & wifE havE contriButed to d probLem & deciDe to wOrK on d marriaGe. sUm enD up experienCing d mosT lossEs @ d end of d daY - losinG botH spoUse & d affaiR that he/sHe's had.

fwaaAah..heaVy & depressiNg coFFee taLk for a saturdaY morninG.

i haVe to nOte thesE tOtz doWn nevatheLess.

is ModernisatiOn corrodiNg our vaLues on marriaGe & threaTening d institUtioN of familY? or is it juZ a matteR of personaL choiCe??

whaT becoMes of d fuTure?

dNa anyoNe?

2007-03-10T23:15:00.000+08:00

thiS is so keWl... =D aN inexpensiVe waY oF retrieVing uR "dNa". kwaKwaKwa.

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Total Eclipse of The Heart

2007-03-06T00:30:00.000+08:00

tHe curreNt featUred soNg on dis bLoggiE - totaL ecLipse of d hearT. d One u heaR on d bLog is covered by westLife. originaL song by boNnie tyLer:

to tuNe in to boNnie's versiOn, paUse d pLayer on d lefT coLumn. (",)

TotaL ecLipse of d heaRt

Turn around...
Every now and then I get a little bit lonely,
and you're never coming round...
Turn around...
Every now and then I get a little bit tired,
of listening to the sound of my tears...
Turn around...
Every now and then I get a little bit nervous,
that the best of all the years have gone by...
Turn around...
Every now and then I get a little bit terrified,
and then I see the look in your eyes...
Turn around, bright eyes
Every now and then I fall apart
Turn around, bright eyes
Every now and then I fall apart

Turn around...
Every now and then I get a little bit breathless,
and I dream of something wild...
Turn around...
Every now and then I get a little bit helpless,
and I'm lying like a child in your arms...
Turn around...
Every now and then I get a little bit angry,
and I know i've got to get out AND CRY
Turn around...
Every now and then I get a little bit terrified,
but then I see the look in your eyes...
Turn around, bright eyes
Every now and then I fall apart
Turn around, bright eyes
Every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight,
And I need you more than ever,
And if you only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever,
And we'll only be making it right,
'Cause we'll never be wrong...
Together we can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time...
I don't know what to do and
I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg
And giving off sparks!!!
I really need you tonight!!
Forever's gonna to start tonight
Forever's gonna to start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

Turn around, bright eyes
Every now and then I fall apart
Turn around, bright eyes
Every now and then I fall apart

Turn around...
Every now and then I know you'll never be,
the boy you always wanted to be...
Turn around...
Every now and then I know you'll always be,
the only boy who wanted me the way that I am...
Turn around...
Every now and then I know there's no-one on the universe,
who's magical and warm as he is...
Turn around...
Every now and then I know there's nothing any better,
there's nothing that I just wouldn't do...
Turn around, bright eyes
Every now and then I fall apart
Turn around, bright eyes
Every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
'Cause we'll never be wrong
Together we can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do
I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg
And giving off sparks
I really need you tonight!
Forever's gonna to start tonight
Forever's gonna to start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
Nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart
A total eclipse of the heart
A total eclipse of the heart

..Turn around bright eyes
..Turn around bright eyes, turn around..

taT hectiC monTh & oTher uPdaTez

2007-03-06T00:10:00.000+08:00

woAhhh...is it marCh aLredi? gEeezZ..jaNuary seeMs liKe onLi yesTerdaY. aaRghhhh!! sO faSttt...

yEs..yEs..i knOw d bLog lOOks ratHer baRe fOr d pasT monTh; liKe a deserT missiNg d raiN (isN't thaT a soNg in d 80s?? sOng in my heaD: N i miSs u...babY..liKe d deseRt miss d raiN...lalalalala...theRe's such a soNg ryTt??).

sO wheRe haVe i beeN? feBruarY was a kiLLer monTh, wiTh moRe werkiNg saturdaYs whicH i wiLL foreva reMember 'coS my braiN & energY weRe sqUeezeD drY of enerGy & thinKing ceLLz. *faJ fainTz juZ at d recoLLectioN of thiS* (nOw d spiCe gerLz soNg is in my heaD: too Much..of suMting is bad enUf, bad enufffff....erMmm, yeaH?) i tinK i goT a littLe...Ok i'M kiddiNg myseLf. i tiNk i goT qUite demoraLised by werK diS monTh. yA suRe, i diD cLaim suM tiMe oFF frOm werK to resT bUt iT was juZ short resPite b4 i hiT anoTher weeKend of werK.

feBruarY was hectiC; a Lot of thiNgs weRe goinG on - i feLL sicK for 2+ weEks: d ruNNy nOse, feVer & koFf stUck to Me for liKe d loNgest periOd eVa in my entirE liFe; toNnes of traiNing/proGramme to atteNd & conducT; weddinG preparatIons; n in d midSt, i waS tryiNg to squeeZe in tyM for a goOd resT. n Ya, gOt to sPent pretty gUd tyM wif deAr whO's cLearinG his leaVe ryT nOw. YeaH, 4 d 1st tyM siNce we goT togeTher, he'S saYing "apa maU kerJaaa?" for a chanGe. kweKweKwe.. =P

i tiNk i got Lost in aLL thaT's goiNg on. MarcH beGan on a NegatiVe nOte cOs i feLt striPPed of aLL mY enerGy for werK. ya, i kNow taT souNds baD. but honestLy, i'Ve neVa feLt sO, sO negatIve abOut werK in my entirE life. i pusHed myseLf to werK & 2b productiVe @werK 'cOs frOm daY 1 i chOse dis caReer, i beLieved thaT iT was my caLLing & thaT i was meanT 2do thiS. n deN i reaLised thaT pushiNg maDe me moRe.... tireD.

theRe u haVe it, faJ was wOrn out, REALLy worN out froM werk (sumtinG whicH peoPle knOw, rareLy haPpens to faJ) & juZ weN aLL d tireDness & negativitieS weRe pushing her doWn...sHe atteNded a wOnderfuL trainIng sessiOn which saLvagEd her moraLe & beLief aBout her professiOn. (",) iT was d 'arT of couPle theraPy'; bUt tO me, it was mOre thaN thaT. sumting about d traiNer, sUmting abOut d storieS he sHared meant a LOT to me. n i'M gLad thaT reLuctanCe was eLiminaTed bY inspiRatioN & neW resoLutioN.

sO..."d problem is Not wif d danCers, but the daNCe itseLf..". i shaLL keeP these weRds in my heaD & cHange mY daNce to a mOre manageabLe rOutiNe. i shaLL sLow dOwn my temPo & beaTs; but exPreSs sTeadY mOves & stePs..& enjOy daNcing... =D tenX moscHe!

firSt d werK. nexT, d lurVe. weddiNg prePz are weLL oN d waY. yeS..i'Ve beeN extRa on d baLL wif regaRds to weddiNg prepz aFter receiviNg disaPpointments frOm sum of d servicEs thaT i wisH to enGage. i diN nOe peoPle r liKe uLtra kiaSu to booK stuFz waY damN earLier thaN me. Neva miNd, lessoN learnt. reGret i shaLt nOt but pro-acTive i shaLL b. Move oN & prePare 4d weddiNg i shaLL!

n weddiNg prePz CAN b potentiaLLy stressfuL.. but hoNestLy...iTs reaLi, reaLi, fUN!!! (='o'=) caN't wait caN't wait caN't waiT!!!!!! wHeEeeEEEeeEe~~~ caN't wait 2b missUs, caN?? ;o)

waD's nexT... erMmm.. bangKok triP diS end mOnth. yaayYy! i'm goiNg oN a Lil' triPPin' wiF my 4 otHer sLacker maitEzz. Look out foR d amaziNg tHai experieNce oF 3 gaLz & d twiN taWerZz diS eNd of d mTh. freT not, i'LL spLash d bLog entrY wif loaDz n loaDz of peeKtureZ! nOW diS, woUld definiteLy b greaT theraPy fOr me fOr aLL d theRapies thaT i'Ve doNe! hiaKhiakhiaK..

ok...HeRe's a Lil' sumting to sHare about mY werK:

HurHurHur... =P

kwenG kweNg.. beTta not leT brudder sEe thaT. *griNzz* fOr mOre sociaL werK humour, poiNt yOur cursOrs HERE.

wad eLse is New?? oh yeS, d cRaze between a feW laDies @ werK. we sociaL werKers haVe a neW hobbY: peeK-vidIng!! kweKwekweee.. www.peekvid.com is a ~~HAVEN~~ HEAVEN foR muVee-goers & sEries staLkerz liKe Us. N my laTest oBsessiOn, apart fOr greY's anatoMy:

.HerOes - thE seriEs.

leMme shOw u MY herOooZ:

SantiaGo CabreRa as iSaac meNdez..d torTured artisT whO caN see d futuRe..

Masi Oka as hirO d Hero. d One tHat caN beNd tyM & spaCe. yeS, i wiSh i couLd do tHat! =P

i'M totally hooKed on d seriEs! waD wouLd you dO if u woKe up 1 mornIng n foUnD out thaT u haVe sOme speciaL abiLities - to fLy, to seLf-heaL, to read peopLe's minD, to walk thRu' waLLz, to See d futuRe?

thaT tinG in d boX & otHer updaTez

2007-02-04T00:10:00.000+08:00

gEez..itz aLredi feBruarY!!! *faJ fainTzz*

bfOre i ramble oN..juZ waNna note thaT wHat i've beeN waiting fOr is finaLLy heRe...:

1sT attemPt @ onLine shoPping....

wHat is it???

grey'S anatoMy seasOn II!!! wHeeEeeeeeE~

yeaHaaaAaa!!!!!!!! i aM sOoooo goNna haVe one heLLuva tyM oVer d weeKend. oF koS, dis tyM i'm goNna saVour each episOde bit by bit. heE.

neVertHeless...i voW thaT i shaLL onLi engaGe in onLine shoPPing weN reaLi2 necessarY..n oF koS, weN theRe's exTra casH durinG boNus tyM or suMting. hAaaa. thaT wouLd ruffLy giVe u an ideA on d outpuT casH sacriFiced to shiP thiS DVD seT froM d US of A. =P

i tinK februaRy is oNe bZ as a Bee moNth fer mE. moSt saturDays i'LL b werKing; in faCt aLL saturdaYs dis montH. yoUth proG starTing tOo, so it'D be maDness juggLing d proGrammE + otHer werK dutiEs. hOweveR, i'Ve proMised myseLf to take tHat much NeedEd breaK duriNg d CNy weeK. tAt's my rewaRd for aLL d hOurs i'Ve put iN. No doUbt, i haVe taKen maNy t/O hoUrs lasT monTh. i aM reaLi pacing myself in terMs of werK dis Year. perhaPz, itS a waY of proTectiNg myself so tHat i can coNtinUe to giVe my besT in diS professiOn.

soCcer was greaT laSt weDnesdaY. pLease duN asK me wHy i eveN agreeD to go watCh that 1st leg finaL matcH for s'Pore vS thaiLand. toT i wouLdn't enJoy it..but i waS deaD wrOng. sOccer-watchiNg iNstinCts buriEd froM d pasT weRe unearThed! *hee* duN caRe laH hoW controVersiaL it waS (cos d Thais weRe sucH SORE losers), sinGapore wOn! do hoPe dey brinG back d cuP this sundaY. (",)

taT cheekY piC @ haLf-tyM

yuN in panorama; whAt can i saY..POSING is her middLe naMe! =P

i Am missiNg suMoNe so d verY d much!!!

DarLing iFfah. teNx coacH fOr aLLowing me to watcH her groW! *huGgzz*

haVe not seeN her in awhiLe...shE's sO kiutTttt!!!!

i sHud staRt joggiNg sOOn. thaT would heLp in sheddiNg d poUnDs. u Noe hOw iT is weN u attenD trainIngs & engaGemenTs outsiDe oFis: fOod, fOod & moRe temptatiOns. past 2 daYs was liKe pFfft! aTe more thaN d portiOns i normaLLy dO. aM so goNna do suMting to coMpensaTe d guilt fOr aLL d exTra caLories i've taKen in! [erMmm..i'M on trainIng agaiN d whoLe of next weeK. leT's sEe iF a weeK's fastinG caN be doNe.. *griNzz*]

ok laH; i goTTa go exerciSe nOw n geT readY feR werK!! yaAayy!! i'm weariNg thaT neW baJu i bouGht yesTerdaY!!!!!! yeeeHaaa!!!

hOw faR, how Long, hOw to??

2007-01-27T16:10:00.000+08:00

i feeL reaLi gUd weN cLients shOw suM insigHt & understanding intO their owN actiOns & their circUmstancEs. tHis, besiDes many othEr reasOns iS whY werK is a rewarD for Me.

@ d aGe of 25+ comiNg to 26 & manaGing a chuNk of maritaL caSes, i feeL as if i'Ve beeN taKen on a roLLer coaSter riDe. d joUrneY wiF d couPles & spoUses i haVe been seeinG saW me experienCe: frustratiOn, anGer, joY, appreciatiOn, ponderiNg, contempLatioNz, amUse-meNt, puzzledneSs.

aNger: @infideLities, irrespoNsibiLities, d lacK of acknowLedgemNt towaRds spoUses' efforTz...d lacK of resPect sPouses show towaRds each otHer.

frustRated: weN d despeRate housewiFe doEsn't seeM to geT d poiNt thaT d probLem is Not d exaCt probLem.

aPpreciatiOn: towaRdz reNewed conviCtionz to werK oN marriaGes despite d darKness surroUnding theM.

contemPlatiOnz: oN how spOuses caN acT, feeL & tiNk d way they do sUmtymz; oN whetHer i woUld pracTice wad i preaCh to cLientz in manaGing my owN relationshiP.

puzzLed: bY d vaLue spOuses attriBute to their marriaGes; or hOw a marriaGe is uPheLd despiTe nuLL vaLue lefT. wad theN is d meaNing of marriaGe??

aMused: by antiCs of spOuses trYing to geT on eacH other's nerVes of finDing eacH otHer's fLaws.

THESE i assuRe yoU, caN Be potentiaLLy lethaL & hazardOus to d miNd weN preseNt in overwheLming shOts.

lisTening to wiVes & husbAnds ventiLating, watchinG their commuNicatiOn stanCes towards eacH otHer, heariNg the stoRies of their marriaGes faLLing & breaKing dowN..mY hearT fiNds great reLief & feeL moRe @ eaSe weN spOuses deciDe to giVe theiR marriaGes a 2nd gO despiTe d storMs & choPPy waTers their love boaT had to 'waDe' thrU'.

tHis wouLd meaN an accepTance of d staTus quO despite uncertainty of chaNge froM d other haLf of d dyaD (if i werK wiF onLy 1 spoUse); diS wouLd aLso meaN thaT couPles decide to refLect on pasT actiOns & werk towaRds d future betterMent of their reLationshiPs; thiS wouLd seE d spoUse acknowLedging that chanGe taKes tyM & he/sHe shaLL prevaiL enduriNg d spoUses' idiOsyncracies & certaiN (baD) attituDes & behaviOurs.

sOme r super gung-Ho & aLL for it. soMe saY yes wiF gustO but actioNs speaKs otherwisE. soMe shoW accepTance which graduaLLy bcOmes a facaDe..& its back to squaRe 1: d comPLains, d disagreeMents, heighteNed dissatisfactIon.

weN maK said that "naK kawiN meste ade modaL.". i'M sure she meant it figurativeLy & literaLLy as weLL. iF taKde modaL, no waY u can werk thRu' issUes, manaGe expectatiOns, coMMunicate effectiveLy, accept ur spOuse & appreciaTe deM for their strengThs..

seeiNg marriaGes @ sucH cLose encoUnters..is marriaGe preparatiOn in itseLf foR me.. fOr d moMent, i tinK it woUld suffiCe to saY thaT marriaGe is abOut d hOws:

How tO maNage iT & hOw to pLay your roLes as spOuses effectiveLy;

How Far yoU wouLd ruN or waLk d distaNce to maKe d marriaGe werK..

AND

hoW LonG yoU visiOn yOur marriagE to Last.....if tiLL d enD of tyM is ur goaL..to d eNd of tyM d marriaGe wiLL endUre..

& of coUrse, wiF bLessiNgz & guidaNce from HIM.

marriaGe IS hard werK. so How??

i See, i heaR..

2007-01-23T15:15:00.000+08:00

i See a woMan desperaTe to saLvaGe a marriaGe.

i heaR heR monoLoguE:

it duN mattEr if theRe is no More Love. it duN maTter iF he Loves soMeone eLse. it duN maTter iF neitHer maritaL bLiss nOr happiNess is wiThin reacH.

as loNg as i haVe diS tiNg caLLed marriaGe to hoLd on to.

it maTTers to me thOugh... how caN oNe hoLd on to suMting thaT haS neiTher meaNing noR vaLue? how caN one breaThe weN aLL vitaL sigNs of Life is inevitabLy fading awaY? is whaT u'Re doinG a sacrifiCe? whOse sacrificE is iT?

wiLL desperatiOn driVe a sPouse, oR anY otHer huMan beiNg to do simpLy anitiNG?

i dO Not undersTand. maYbe i do Not want to understaNd. i do Not want to imaGine beiNg in suCh a positiOn. i fiNd it raTher..unfathOmabLe whY & hOw oNe can acT in suCh a manneR.

wouLd i b ThaT woMan i sEe...wouLd i hoLd on to sumtiNg thaT badLy eveN thOugh aLL hoPe seeMs diM?

wouLd i?

wouLd U?

i kNow liFe werKz in straNge maNnerz.....aNd thaT it Can maKe liVing beiNgz dO d mosT unpredictabLe actiOnz @ tyMz...

thaT woMan couLd be Me.

i sEe her. i heaR her.

PleaAsee...teLL me hOw to...

2007-01-23T15:00:00.000+08:00

....hiDe d freaKing trUth weN i aLreadY kNow it?

HOW do i Juz preteNd thaT i dO not kNow??

hOw dO i burY bacK d caN of wOrmz i've oPeneD....??

HOW??

HOW nOW???

HOWWWWWWWWWW???

d gOod oL' daYzz

2007-01-19T00:21:00.000+08:00

i juZ lurVee weddiNgz @ d viLLage. d atmosPhere is... bYond werDz. bLessed i aM to haVe a paRent whO haD lIved @d otHer siDe of d caUsewaY. eVen thOugh i diN grow uP feeLing d kaMpong atmosPhere ('coS my famiLy moVed to a fLat once i was borN), @ leasT i haVe reLatives in maLaysiA to compensaTe for thaT. *hee*

lasT weeKend was my kuzziN's weddiNg. i wAs so hePi to see her aLL doLLed uP & gLowing wiF radiaNce. iNah , her elder brO & sisTaz weRe my pLaymaiTez eacH tyM maK broUght me doWn to paK ngaH's pLace. we played catch, 'tenG2', pOndoK2..squeezeD aLoe veRa leaVes onto our faCes (koNon2 for smooTher skIn =P)..thOse were d guD oL' daYz.. i miSs thaT. so simPle & carefrEe..(",)

weLL, despite d weaTher & suM frustratiOnz wif particuLar grpz of peopLe whO weren't heLping out, d weddiNg was a bLast. iT was greaT meetiNg reLatiVes i'Ve not meT b4, aNswerinG aLL d queriEs about d fiancE & d Big daY, bicKerinG wiF zaM, inaH's eLder bRo (we haVen't meT in ~~awhiLe~~ d loNgest tyM), n of koS, oggLe2..hAa.. =P oKie, juz a teeNy weeNy bit of thaT. *grinzz*

beeN awhiLe siNce i'd directLy been invoLved as a weddinG functiOn's heLp. makLumlaH, tHere has Not beeN a weddiNg in d family since eOns agO. tHUs, i caN't waiT fOr novembeR to coMe! =D

oKie, suM piCz oF nieCes, nePhewz, sibLingz & relatiVes for yOur viewiNg:

oH ya, of couRse, whO couLd forGet d ramLi sariP overdoSe i experienced @ d weddiNg.. *faJ fainTzz*

a passinG remarK or a criticisM?

2007-01-16T11:30:00.000+08:00

perhaPz, it has got to a poiNt wheRe everYthing i saY is perceiVed or raTher seeN, to Be a criticisM.

a reMark i paSsed becaMe a point of conTentioN aLbeiT, I had more (positiVe) tinGz to saY. But No!

i Am criticaL. sO i am & i shaLL be.

giVen thaT, i reserVe d ryT to nOt contiNue sharinG my otHer thoTz sinCe my 'criticisM(s)' was/weRe under scrutinY.

so frOm dis daY, i shaLL speaK weN necessarY or weN i am asKed. my owN thoTz r pureLy my owN to contempLate.

perhaPz my tyM has passEd. perhaPz, i'M aLredi on my owN.

i aM tireD. n maYbe, juz maYbe, aM begiNning to loSe it.

*siGh*

leT me huMour Me:

2007-01-12T16:15:00.000+08:00

Haaaaaa......pLease arh. juz let me posT dis heRe. suddenLy remiNded of my stinT in indOn; i had a daNgduT khaKi doWn der. crazY siA. we actuaLLy tuNed in d inDon channElz to hear her siNg & watch her ngeBor. gaWd.

goyaNg dOoong... asiKkk!!!! ya amPuuUuunnN!!!!!!!!!!!

wundEred hw daTo' S feLt haVing her soNg danGdut-iSed.. kwekwekwe..

gaWd..lOok @ her outfiT.

for a more interestiNg cLip, cLick ur cursOrs heRe. =P

iT has officiaLLy begUn....

2007-01-12T15:40:00.000+08:00

Yes. it has oFficially beGun. i tinK now i'M more or Less readY to shEd off d loVehandLes & exTras on my body. haaAA.

consuLted mY personaL traiNer-cuM-dietiCian (*Hee*) and it haS begUn. toDaY marks d 4th daY i'Ve beeN on veGgies & fRuitZ meaLz; peppEred wiF tUna & sprinKled wiF raiSins fOr suM meaLz. tenK gaWd for d 1000 isLand dressiNg, & yeaH..i beTta cuT dOwn d dressiNg doSe a biT. secuKUp rasa sahaJa yer? hiaKzhiaKz.

aFter sendiNg bacK d caR lasT mondaY, i hoPPed oVer to giAnt suPermarT to purcHase suM iteMs: tuNa in waTEr, veGGiez & fruiTys, raisiNz, macarOni pacKz + spaghetti saUces. diN nOe it was so fuNN untiL i staRted out oN it.

iTs not taT bad u Noe? dieTing & weiGht manaGement isN't abOut starviNg or maKing urseLf suFfer. its aBout eatiNg d ryT proPortiOnz & beiNg creatiVe wiF ur fOod. sO, i'm enjoYing it.

tiNk i'm quite psycHed up to diEt thaT d miNd is sO benT on nOt snacKing. i aLmost puKed aFter eatinG 2-3 foRksfuL of a coLLeaguE's cheeSecaKe. Not thaT it taStes awfuL, juZ thaT i'Ve conditionEd myseLf not to snaCk in betweeN meaLz. taT surprisEd me. kaLau duLu maiN lantaK sahaJa. *griNzz*

d cuTe tiNg is, suM coLLeaguez r aLso joiNing in d saLad eatiNg. hiLarioUs i teLL u! its liKE i've sTarted suM epideMic @ D OfIS. READ: sociaL werKerz on eatiNg striKe. [sO, paY us More!!] kweKwekwe.. bUt yeaH, its fuN to haVe feLLow comraDes joiNing d quesT for a healThier lifestyLe.

nexT, i'd beTta staRt on d daiLy haLf hOur exerciSes. diS a reaL challeNge 'coS i juz caN't seeM to leaVe my preciOus bed in d mornIng. ;o) bUt i shaLL moVe aheaD & do wHat i haVe to. i wiLL, i caN & i shaLL! CharGeeeeeee!!!!! kicKboxiNg lessOns staRt next weeK. yaYynesss!! i shUd osO staRT ruNning on weeKendz duN u tinK? =D

No more exCuses, faJ!!

sO, praY harD my freNz; fOr i aM werKing hard to geT back to my weiGht bacK in my sportswOman daYz....insyaAllah.

yuN ciPot muz heLp me hoRr!!! (",)

iTs a siGn..

2007-01-06T00:10:00.000+08:00

i juz realised tHat i've not posTed abOut my Kl getawaY down heRe.

pFffT. taNda2 betoL. tanda2 ketuA-An. Haa!

sO, in summarY it was aLL shoPpinG, reaLi2 sLacking, long hOurs of traveLLing tiLL my boNz got craMped & yeaH, not mucH tinKing 'coS i leFt my braiN bacK hoMe. Haaa!!

shoPping Loot: cheaP buT aLmost reaL jerseYz, bLouses, baGz, sandaL, sacchaRineLy suweeT jubah. *hee* spoiL myseLf siLLy!

besT fiNd: "siaKap stiM". [soUndz so ryT, but so wroNg? =P]

beeN a loNg tyM since we caM-wHored...

theRe u haVe it, my Lil' trippiN' to kuala lumPur after mUch anxietieS 'coS of d fLoodin' in M'siA.

waS pLannin' for a triP to bangkok due in enD jaN. n daNg, deN d boMbinG had to haPpen! gaWd...tanDa2 laGik.

perhaps beTTer pLans r linEd up 4me (a baLi triP laTer on meBbe?) or simpLy a siGn to nOt shOp buT saVe? *griNzz*

*siGh* terkiLan tk paT p shoPpin' kaT bangKok... lalalalaa....

stOp it faJ!! cLear d loaD od werK 1st b4 eveN dreaMin' abOut spendiN' bucKz! kwaKwakwa..

aarGhhh.. repotz due today & mosT, in facT, ALL of uS havE not started yeT... tiDaaaaaAAKkkKKkk!!!!!!!!!! *ahaKzz*

i shaLt endeavOur

2007-01-05T00:11:00.000+08:00

iN a nutsheLL, i aM reNewiNg my voWs [*ahaKzz!!*] to fuLfill the foLLowing:

- trY 2b as uPdated as possibLe wiF my Case Notes. my lovE-haTe relationshiP wif CasEs, neVa-enDing! i waN d daYs of stOred scribbLed paper 2b oVer. foR thaT, i probabLy neeD to taKe suM daYz of Leave & do a maraThon by lockIng myseLf uP in my rOOm@hoMe. leMme checK out d daTes besT to do ThiS....

- eXerciSe@leaSt thriCe a weeK & shEd suM kiLos...i haVe tO & i muZ! hoPefuLLy to See suM weighT off by June diS yeaR. gaWd..wiLL powER..coMe...to..ME!!!

- cUt dOwn on snacKing. i tiNk oNce u werK@d oFis, u teNd to..sNack!! i shaLL keeP snacKing to juZ RAISINS + FrUitz!

- keeP my tabLe @ d Ofis & mY roOm @ hOme LeSS messY. i trY Ok? can't heLp it...i werK besT in a meSS. [gee, thaT rhyMes!]

- sticK aroUnd in d kitchEn & graB my mothEr's cooKing skiLLs@ leasT once a weeK. weeKendz pLease??

- noT b tOO hot-headEd, especiaLLy to d peopLe i loVe. i duNNo y, but deY juz hapPen to sEE d wersT of Me. =S sorrY peopLe, i trY ok? no mattEr what, i stiLL lurVe y'aLL!

aNd to accompLish d foLLowing, i shaLL endeavour:

- taKe uP guiTar lessOns

- dO suM traveLLing, or @leasT see & discOver places i've neVa beeN to

- atteMpt to jiggLe my bOnz@beLLy daNcing

- havE loads of fuN & keePin' uP d enerGy prepariNg for my weddiNg

tHere, my lisT for 2007. (",)

*Hee*

neW yeaR..neW looK..nEw...??

2007-01-04T12:45:00.000+08:00

heLLo...testinG..testiNg..1, 2 and 3...

yeS-aaAa!!!

finaLLy, i'D d heaRt to chanGe to a neW blOgskiN!! i lurVed d preViouS sKin to biTz; wiF d fLowerZ & purpLish hUes..whiCh gerL wouLd haVe d heaRt to deLete it off??? hwaHwahwa..bUt yeaH, stiLL, i decideD to do d impossibLe. maKe suM changes!!

So, nEw yeaR, a neW looK foR my bLoggiE!! WheeeEEneSss~~

"You can dance anywhere, even if only in your heart."
~Author Unknown

n wiF thaT..i pLan to daNce arOund moRe dis yeaR....gUd tyMz, or baD tyMz..to daNce i shaLL & i wiLL! (",) tHat waY, i enDeavOur to keeP uP d positiVity in d midSt of aLL d chaLLenges liNed uP for me diS coMing yeaR. (insyaAllah...i hoPe i'D b abLe to keeP up thiS attituDe.)

i shaLL not attemPt to chanGe d fOnt coLours foR my previoUs posTs. i shaLL begin coLour-coordiNating my fontZ wif d bLogskIn starTing frOm diS posT onwaRdz. hiaKhiakHiaK.

seeMz liKe yestErdaY that i juZ did ceRtain tinGz: feLL in loVe, crasHed & burNed, traVelled, got my heaRt broKen, reCce-inG for weddiNg iteMz.

2007's heRe..bIg eveNt aheaD for Me @d eNd of thiS yeaR. d maJor hi-Lyt thaT i wiLL b LooKing forWard tO @anY tyM dis yeaR.. *griNzz*

nOw, i Need to fiGure waD's nEw & waD needS to Be (re)neWed.

giMme a moMent yeaH?

"Human beings, vegetables or comic dust; we all dance to a mysterious tune intoned in the distance by an invisible player."
~ Albert Einstein

loVe & liFe....

2007-01-03T06:55:00.000+08:00

weLcome aBoard 2007..

waD of Life's meaNingz wouLd you b searchiNg for this year?

wad oF loVe would yoU be seeKing foR?

CurreNt tuNe:

arti kehiduPan.

Ku menempuh sedalam lautan
Ku mencari arti kehidupan
Mendaki gunung kekecewaan
Melelahkan

Kau menjelma seperti khayalan
Kau impian dalam kenyataan
Perjalanan yang penuh likunya
Kini t'lah tiba di sisimu selamanya

reff:

Engkau bukan yang pertama
Tapi pasti yang terakhir
Di cintamu kutemui arti hidupku(2x)

Kau menjelma seperti khayalan
Kau impian dalam kenyataan
Perjalanan yang penuh likunya
Kini t'lah tiba di sisimu selamanya

to reff

Creditz to my Fren, mR rudY dJoe for puttiNg togeTher this greaT pieCe, & of kOs..for d greaT vocaLz!! to vieW more of his great werkz, droP by HERE

eNter d daRk

2006-12-31T09:05:00.000+08:00

enTer d darK.

d darK siDe.

wHere deePest faNtasiEs, meaN, darK wisHes aRe unleaShe.. aLL hairS r leT doWn. whEre ruLez r beNt, wHere we bOrder on d proHibiteD & pLay wiF fiRe. wHere u jUz bcOme d oTher...wHere U Be aN aLter eGo.

YuN saiD : "eVery1 haS a darK siDe.."..

n i wuNder...

yEs..aLL of Us haVe our iNner deviLz. buT aLter egOs?

i enTered d darK.

d darK has maNy siGhtz, maNy soUndz, maNy hiddeN hoPes, hiddeN dreaMz, hiddeN waNtz.

n i deCided..

to keeP thaT gLimpse of darKness..in d daRk.

"wHat iF You weRe not whO i thOught yOu weRe? wouLd d pasT & preseNt b in d fuTure? wouLd it?"

brIghter sKies are beTTa. sO mucH bettErr INDEED.

aLL of uS maKe our owN sacrifiCes.

saCrifiCe. i Noe 'diS a raTher darK enTry foR a greaT ceLebratiOn.

StiLL, saLam 'AidiLadHa to aLL that i NoE.

haPPy new Year too! cOme On in 2007!!

tinGz to do whiLe u're cramPing.. erKkkzz..

2006-12-23T03:00:00.000+08:00

aaaArggHhh....i'M in a loT of paiN noW.. so i fiGured thaT i shouLd coMforT myseLf, rathEr than suffer in siLence....

was bLog hoppIng..n foUnd diS! teNx jiEj...(n d rest in Line befoRe U) fOr dis kewL, funkY quiz.. (",)

i'M buYing it; nO reNT! =P

2006-12-08T16:48:00.000+08:00

watchEd a heLLuva fantastiC sHow: "reNt".

makLumlah dah lepas deMam PGL nie; tengoKlah muVee musicaL nie!

tenx humaira baBe! iTs a reaL greAt sHOw!! i'm hOoked on d soNgs nOw!!

definiteLy one of my fav soNgz!!

-::SeasOns oF lOve::-

525,600 minutes,
525,600 moments so dear.
525,600 minutes,
How do you measure, measure a year?

In daylights, in sunsets,
In midnights, in cups of coffee?
In inches, in miles,
In laughter, in strife?

In  525,600 minutes,
How  do you measure a year in the life?

How about love?
How about love?
How about love?
Measure in love.
Seasons of love,
Seasons of love.


525,600 minutes,
525,600 journeys to plan,
525,600 minutes,
How do you measure the life of a woman or a man?


In truth that she learned,
Or in times that he cried?
In the bridges he burned,
Or the way that she died?


It's time now, to sing out,
Though the story never ends.
Let's celebrate, remember a year,
In the life of friends.

Remember the love, 
(Oh you got to, you got to remember the love)
Remember the love, 
(You know that love is a gift from up above)
Remember the love, 
(Share love, give love, spread love)
Measure in love, 
(Measure, measure your life in love)
Seasons of love,
Seasons of love 
(Measure your life, measure your life in love)

rent: no daY but todaY.

boRedOm iN d a.M.

2006-12-02T23:43:00.000+08:00

yeSss-aAah.. anOther ediTion of boreDom & stoNed-Ness in d earlY hOurs of d maWning. =P

Your Mood Ring is Dark Green

Friendly
Outgoing
Cheerful

Mood Ring Generator

It was reaLLy spasTic hOw tHiS one was generaTed. HAAAAA.

Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people.
You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together.
Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly.
People crave your praise and complements.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

Not so hiddEn after aLL eh? noT sure abOut taT lasT bit on praises & comPliments, thOugh. kweKwekwe.

You Are 50% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird...
But too damn weird to do anything about it!

How Weird Are You?

kwaKwakwa.. 'nuFF boredoM fOr a saTurdaY morNing. i shaLt hit d beD againz!!

di PuncaK tertinGGi

2006-11-30T17:40:00.000+08:00

iTs caLLed loVe @ itS peaK.... *grInzzz & swOonzz* oNe of my faVe lurVe tunez frOm d musicaL:

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everYbodY saY "aWWwwwWwwwwwwWWWw"... hiaKhiaKhiak.

lama niE akU nak berganjAk dari cLoud 9. =P

LuRveeeeEe on d moUntaiN... (",)

2006-11-30T17:27:00.000+08:00

Let Me begiN dis entry..wIF a bIg siGh: BANYAK KESSSS!!!!! aKu nak pengsan boLeh nGgakkk????? haiZzzz. it feeLz liKe d moRe i'm cLimbinG up d moUntaiN of caSe fiLes by catcHing uP on my recordiNgz, d moRe highEr it seeMz i haVe to scaLe. ya Allah, graNt me that patieNce & strengTh to dO waD i mUz do as a weRker; do Not waNe my seNse of responsibiLity toWards my cLientz & proFessiOn, pLeaSsseeeee.

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thaT asIde, noW, sumtinG heaRtwarming. i lurVe puTeri guNong LedaNggG!!!!!! tenK God me & geNg got d tiKets earLy. kaLau taK, gigiT jari, beB. =D i haD lurVed d muVee versiOn; but i lurVed d musicaL eveN moReee!!!

n oF koS, i conVerted dear froM a musicaL skeptiC tO a "i waNNa go 4d-nexT oNe" musicaL enthusiaSt. So, we'Ve deciDed that phantoM wouLd b nexT on ouR to watCh lisT.

PGL musicaL was a wunderfuL mix of Love swOon-ingNess, hurT & saD, huMour & a bitter suWeet enDing. d triaLz & tribuLatioNz of d haNg tuah & Gusti Puteri RetnO dumiLah, aKa, puteri guNung LedanG; d reLatioNship beTween kingdomZ; taT idea of LoyaLty to d sultan & thaT feaR towaRdz d suLtan's dauLat.

i studiEd sejArah mLayu in my uNi daYz. i caN't recaLL dis loVe tinGy btWn PGL & hanG tuaH. i toT tuaH was in lurVe wiF tun teJa leeh. buT neh miNd laH, deR's mOre ficTion den faCt in that histOry bOOk. =P sO its tuaH & PGL theN. hiaKhiakhiaK.

d stAge theatricaLz & proPz were simpLy suPerb. i waS so amaZed wif d uSe of cLothz, d sCreen, d moVabLe wooden bLockz, d lightiNgz. i lurVeeee!!

n oF koS.. aBg tuaH waS so...'makE me on cLoud 9'. He has stage preSence, maN! no haRm in urs truLy joiNing in d sCreamz of teeNage gerLz weN he'S on sTage. *griNzz* i lurVee his vocaLz, verY stroNg & greaT pitchiNg. desPite hiS 'S' syndroMe [heHe..], i mUz giVe him creDit fOr grasPing d LanguaGe aLbeit, it iS not his motHer toNgue.

beiNg aN ex-siLat-Er, i mUz coMment thOugh taT abaNg tuaH'S laNgkah2 siLat is So..sUmbanG! =P i fOrgive hiM thOugh, siNce he waS an imPort frOm wesTern Landz. *wiNKzz* nEvathEless, charm oVerrides everYting abaNg stephen! kweKweKwe.

faV sCene haNdz dOwn: d caBaret-Like daNce rOutiNe by d suLtan. taT caMe reaLi unexpectedLy. kWakwakwa.. ;o) weLL, its a musicaL anywaY! =D

tyM to remiNisCe:

tHeir love makEs me gO 'oOoh', 'aaaH'.. & i aM aweD.

i lurVee diS sceNe; cLoth broUght liFe to seA & shore. pure kewLneSs.

aLL proTagonIsts & antaGonisTs oN stage nOw. Gua taBikz Ac miZaL's depIctiOn of adiPati of MajapaHit!

"kaTa deMi kaTa, merubah tutuR jadI raSa...": luRveEe-iNg bY by maJapahIt's StArz & MooN

"kaTakaN haDirmU keraNa cinTa tuAh...": loVe coMes b4 duTy, or duTy b4 loVe? love thYseLf OR lovinG thEe?

gaWd..i'M on PGL overLoad. weLL, mOst of my coLLeaguEz aRe. daY in & oUt d PGL OSt is on LooP on d PC's media pLayer by manY. kekekee... suCh a roMantiKkkk taLe. defiNiteLy a muZ waTch, especiaLLy wiF a loVed oNe bsiDe U! ;o)

mOre poseS pre & posT shOw to end diS pgL triBute:

mE & gerLfreNz shOwing oUr heaRtzz 4d shOw!

waTch out 4d recent musicaL/theatricaL convert! =P

deFiniteLy wiLL watch d nexT seasOn. iF it ruNz in KL, saNggoP haMba merentaS daraT untuK meNuju ke LedaNg. cedeYybaaahH!! =P

seAsoN of LurVeee

2006-11-25T00:20:00.000+08:00

i shaN't maKe proMises myseLf to uPdate dis bLoggie. i get big tyM disappoinTed maN! *ahakzz* yeah..been teLling myseLf i shUd uPdate d bLog more ofTen. get myself so Lost in werK & tyM..So it seeMz, updatez wiLL come onLi once in a bLue mOon. Betta maKe deM preciSe & Ones taT haVe coVerage as laRge as d sateLLite disH. [kreKre..aPa aKu meraPekz nie? =P]

weLL, weLL..if it isN't d seaSon fer lurVeee. d lurve buG haS entered d hearT of One of my coLLeaguez. isN't it saccharineLy suWeet 2b faLling in lurVe? taT looK on d faCe, d secreT smiLez (which u tiNk r secreCtz yeT cLearly evidenT to othErs aroUnd U *teeHee*), d dressiNg uP, d joYous & hePi mood switcHes, d huMmingz to soNgz, d looKing forward to daTes. aaaH. hiaKhiaK. aLL i caN say is thaT, baBe, weLcome to d werld of giviNg tuitiOn. kweNg kweNg kWeng. ;o)

whiCh made me tiNk about myseLf faLLing in lurVe. biG O saiD that i toK about fiaNce as iF i've been married for ten yeaRz. nOw, is taT a gud tinG, or bad tinG? *griNzz* basicaLLy, i tinK i'M one hu doEsn't show my loVe n affectiOn opEnly to otHerz. onLi taT speciaL sum1 geTs to see tat siDe of Me. sO to otHerz, i'd toK abOut fianCe & other cLose 1s in a practicaL mannEr, i guEss. [tat'S about d besT waY i caN eXplain it. *teeHee*] i'D blUsh eveN more if peoPle seE or spOt tat i'M bLushinG. hiaKhiaK. ya..coMe to tinK of it..weN i was faLLing in lurVe with fiaNce, i waSn't showinG clEar siGns to coLleagueZ & thoSe aroUnd me taT i waS getting intO a reLationshiP & experiencing mucH butterflIes in my tuMMy. *hee*

iTs an enjoYable experience indeeD to see suM1 faLL in lurVe. noT taT d bLushinG, d menteL smiLe & d dressiNg uP are tings i griN tO my expensE. a bLossoMing loVe remind u of ur owN & hOw urS bLossoMed. lurVe in d aiR translates to groWing of moRe feeLingz of loVe. iT strengThens ur convictiOn in loVe as weLL. Ok laH, shan't geT aLL sappY@diS hour of d daY.

tO my coLLeaGue, enJoy d hoNeymOoning & i hOpe deR's mucH tasTe of hOney in aLL phaSes of ur reLationshiP. it couLd b a roLLer coasTer riDe; bUt i'M verY mucH suRe tHat u'D b enjOying mosT parTs of d riDe. (",)

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juZ waNNa say thaT..i lOve u much, deaR.

d accideNt. d hiTs. d miSses.

soMe chaLLenges haVe coMe our waY.

But let'S have faitH fOr:

to love is tO fyT, to endUre, to beLieve.

tiLL d daY we r UniteD as husBand n wiFe.

maY Allah bLess & protect oUr reLationshiP froM negatiVitieS. mAy Allah fiLl our heaRts & miNdz wiF positive feeLings & thOughtz. maY HE help us in diS jourNey 2B beTTer partners & servaNtz, insyaAllah.

everyBody saY "aWwwww..." *winKzzz*

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carniVal coMing uP [in whiCh d couPonz r not soLd as yeT. *gaWd* i'd prObLy end uP juz purchasiNg d tix fer mY famiLy memBerz. waitinG fOr toMorrow tO coMe. hehehe!]

traIning sessiOn coMing uP. 60% doNe. nOw, d cHasinG & confirMing & caLling uP of d meN has potentiaL 2B aN arduOus tasK!! *fainTzzz*

more caSes to foLLow-Up & see.

AaaRGghh!! sO many tinGz to dO yeT i caN't fiGure wHere to staRt & where it aLL enDz!! gRrRRrrr!!!!!!!

chANt d maNtra: i lurVeee werK. werK lurvEs me [taT's y it keePs coMing! ;o)] i lurVe U. u lurVe me. waH maTi, kaLo werkLoad maKin tinGgi. hiaKhiaKhiaK. =P

Ok laH! naK siaP p koje nie!!

tHat yeaRly evenT: oPz sLAckeraYa veR '06

2006-11-17T22:57:00.000+08:00

waaaH..haVen't beeN updatiNg in awhiLe. wiLL sHare about d LatesT fiRst deN.

nOw, Let suM picTureS do d taLking ferSt:

caN't beLieve a yeaR haS goNe by; feeLz liKe onLi yesTerdaY taT i pOsted laSt yeaR's raYa gruP piCz..

grEen waS d tHeme chOsen foR diS yeaR. oF coUrse, deR wEre sUm deFectErz liKe mE & deaR..& naZ. yaNi caMe laTer bY defauLt. *hEe* aS u caN see frOm d picz, deaR & me LoOked kiNda sweEt. *seLf-praiSe in progress..grInzzzZzz*

i drOve diS yeaR. gAwd, i actuaLi droVe. yeSterdaYz agO, i simPly saT in d caR beiNg chaUffeUred arOund. moMenTz awaY i jUz watcHed my feLLow sLacker maNage d vehicLe. quiTe an achieveMent, but raTher tiriNg. tOwards d enD of d daY, i Let otHer driVers take d wheeL. deaR droVe me hOme & heLped me parK d caR. ;o) parKing is mY weRst nYtmaRe!!

sO..greY & siLver neXt yeaR aye?

suNdaY@ d ofis

2006-10-30T18:54:00.000+08:00

Yes..it waS a sundaY @ d oFis wif 2 other ladiEs. we brOke d 9pm curfeW. *griNzz*

heaRd diS song oVer cLass 95fM. i lurVeeeee.....(",) oriGinaLLy suNg by roD stewaRt & covered by KennY loggiNs fOr sum moVie's soundtracK.

fOr d firsT tiMe

Are those your eyes, is that your smile?
I've been looking at  you forever, but I never saw you before
Are these your hands holding mine?
Now I wonder how I could have been so blind

For the first time I am looking in your eyes
For the first time I'm seein' who you are
I can't believe how much I see
When you're lookin' back at me...
Now I understand what love is, love is
For the First Time

Can this be real? Can this be true?
Am I the person I was this mornin' and are you the same you?
It's all so strange..how can it be?
All along this love was right in front of me

For the first time..I am looking in  your eyes
For the first time I am seein' who you are
I can't believe how much I see
When you're lookin' back at me
Now I understand what love is, love is
For the First time

Such a long time ago I had given up on finding this emotion ever again
But you're here with me now
Yes, I found you somehow
And I've never been so sure

And for the first time
I am looking in your eyes
For the first time, I'm seein' who you are
I can't believe how much I see
when you're lookin' back at me

Now I understand what love is, love is
For The First Time...

sMacK ryT in d middLe!

2006-10-28T16:33:00.000+08:00

In d midSt of mY anxiEtieS bCos d u-Know-Whoz r coMing doWn nexT weEk & mY struggLes TRYINg desperateLy to comPlete d u-knOw-whaTz....i'D deciDed to taKe a breatHer dowN herE.

meT my beSt maiTe, priS @her offiCe aFter a meetinG & chaTTed awhiLe. taLked abOut liFe & werK & companioNshiP & lurVe. i always kNew taT besides sociaL werK, deR r otHer tingz taT she hoPed to dO. priS saiD she mYt moVe into journaLism or werK in a churcH settinG.

sHE asked me, "u Leeh? staYing loNg @ur current werkpLace or nOt?"

i peppered mY answeRz wiF bitz & pieCes of siLence & uncertaiNty geLLed togeTher. come to tinK of it, i duN tinK i reaLLy answeRed her questioN.

sO, wad lieS ahead?

i'V paSsed d 3 yeaR marK in my caReer & i muZ admiT taT i neVa did expect myself to mOve @ My preseNt raTe. new chaLLenges. more ResponsibiLitieS ie. More werK.

[praY my boSs doesN't read diS.] painfuLLy, i muz saY taT fer d 1st tyM in my werKing liFe...oF laTe, i'Ve toLd myseLf a couPle of tyMz taT i juz waNna droP everytinG & ruN away froM werK.

i M a bit tirEd. NO. in faCt, quitE.

No, itz not tat i dO not loVe my jOb. i dO...BUT:

i'M not exactLy suRe if i feeL liKe i'm routiNely doiNg stuFz daY in n daY out. i'm not exactLy suRe if i'M burnT out. i'M not exactLy sURe if mY braiNz r werKing @ d ryT pLace. @ diS poiNt..i'M juZ thaT - UNSURE. UNCERTAIN. GREY. BLUE. i geT daYz of GREEN too.

deR r tyMz i feeL chaLLenged. whiNing to Mak doeSn't heLp 'cOs her resPonse woUld be: "if U're so tirEd & got so mucH werK, juZ chaNge jobz lorr." *sighz*

deR r daYz weN i fiNd goiNg to werK dreadfuL. i draG my feeT. literaLLy. i feeL guiLty abOut it. But deN i tinK agaiN - i haVe d ryT to my feeLingz tOo.

sEe. i stiLL hvN answeRed d questiOn yeT. i'M juz...grousinG wiTh a capitaL G. weLL, maYb i'M noT readY to tinK abOut iT yeT. maYb i feaR waD my heaRt truLy saYz 'coS maYb itz not wad i waN to beLieve iN. maYb i'LL wait a littLe & sEe waD surPrises liFe has 4me b4 i chaRt out consequenT paThz.

waD liEs aheaD?

smacK rYt in d middLe i aM. not iNert; aM awaRe. juZ ambivaLent.

perhaPz..diS is juz a pHase...perhaPz itz contemPlatioN. perhaPz iTz juZ a highLy imaginatiVe minD waNdering...perhApz..perhaPz..perhapz!

So, priS..asK me agaiN in a yeaR's tyM, can?

n yeS, i'd trY to geT moMMy's briYani wiF loaDs of niCe side disHes 4U, hoRr? =P

cooKies haNgoVer

2006-10-20T13:12:00.000+08:00

i'M haVing a cooKieZ-baKing hanGoVer. i breaThe, dreaM, smeLL & perhaPz taSte liKe bisKot raYa. perhaPz i shUd juz serVe myseLf weN guesTs coMe. hOw 'bout taT?

2 doWn..2 mOre to Go. gaWd.

aLL in d naMe of goiNg aLong wiF waD maK sayZ, maKe her hePi..brinGing botH of US out of d cooKie-baKing hiaTus..n nOt forGettiNg..as raYa faVourz 4 d fUtuRe mOmsiE-in-Law.

[i caN aLmost heaR deaR griNNing in d bacKgroUnd.]

gaWd. dreAd. dreAd.

i Love bakiNg though. hAaa. iroNic ryT?

iTz cornfLakez & biskot dahLia nexT.

aNy proMisEs?

2006-10-19T20:04:00.000+08:00

i heaRt diS soNg @ d moMent...:

nO proMisEs - ShayNe waRd

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Every time you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high
I don’t want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

Here tonight

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Everytime you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high
I don’t want to let go, girl.
I just need you you to know girl.

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

I don’t want to run away, I want to stay forever, thru Time and Time..
No promises

I don’t wanna run away, I don’t wanna be alone
No Promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, now and forever my love

No promises

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight.
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erMmm..nO proMiseS to cLear waD's neCessarY BUT i shaLt trY!!!! (",)

onwaRddddd faaaAjJJJj!!!! =P

d eNd. sOon.

2006-10-19T19:02:00.000+08:00

iTz d 26tH daY of ramadHan. GeEz. suRe doeSn't feeL liKe a month jUz raN past mE. gaWd.

seeMz & feeLz liKe i'Ve losT aLL sensE of tYm.

i'Ve beeN swiMming & tryinG 2 catcH my breaTh in d sea of werK. nOw.. wiF festivitieS rouNd d corNer..itZ d yearLy roUtinE cleariNg uP d "uNseeN meSs" in d hoMe & "back to d kitcHen to get iN toucH wiF my abiLities" pHase.

*siGhzzzzz* i M serioUsly in NO mooD to ceLebratE dis Year. duN ask mE whY. itS Juz SO. haIzZZzzz.

mAcieM nak relek 1 corNer aJerrr... *roLL eyezz*

i'M on a few daYs leaVe. taT'd giMme suM leeWay 2 dO my chOres & baKing; N hopefuLLy no lasT minuTe frantic moMents liKe preVioUs yeaRz. my heaD, haNdz & feeT r juz foLLowing roUtine.

d braIn. hoWever, is parKed morE @ weRk & d ofis. mY bodY's @hoMe; yeT @d bacK..No, d froNt of mY miNd, itZ juz werK, werK..werK.

aiYoOo. i jUZ waNNa get oVer d next feW daYz n geT my aSs back to OffiCe. i NEED 2b on my desK..doiNg d tingz i niD to dO. juz weN my braiNz r begiNning to functioN....d festivitiEs had to kicK iN. aAargH!!!

audiT is in 2 weeKz tyM aNd i haVe reasOn to saY taT..i AM sO uLtra DeAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

d eNd of mY p/E/S traUma; It'd beTta eNd d bacKloG of mY caSe recordIngz as weLL. Ya Allah...heLp me! give my fingeRz d suPer soNic spEed to tyPe, n a fabuLoUs-O heAd tO tinK pLus owL-sharP eyeZ to siFt tHru mY squiggLe-wiggLe-heLLuva haNdwriting! =P

no reLatioN to d entrY; buT hecK..laff iT ofF!

brieF-iNg

2006-10-13T16:15:00.000+08:00

curreNt mOOd: b-L-U-e

cuRrent feeLingz: disaPpointEd; tiRed; aimLess

curreNt coPing mechaNism: beIng proDucTive (or @leasT tryinG to); burYing my heaD & heaRt intO werK

cuRreNt escaPe: in Vegas miNing gOld (u juZ lurVe onLine gaMes, doN't chA?)

currenT staTe of miNd: swiTchinG oFF. eLsewheRe. How's taT fer wantiNg to pacK uP & jUz rUn away?

iS taT brieF enuF?

nYtz werLd.

hePi 26tH to Me.

2006-10-05T14:55:00.000+08:00

juZ rememBered taT i wAs boRn in d moNth of ramadhaN.

5th RamadHan 1401H.

ceTt. miSsed it. iTz oredi d 11tH.

technicaLLy 26 yeaRs of aGe accoRdinG to d isLamic caLendar.

waH. so oLd.

hMmm.

[mentaL note: deaR's On 21st dZulhijjaH 1400H]

i'M a ceLebritY??

2006-10-04T09:42:00.000+08:00

waS waitiNg for buKa...decideD to fiLL my tyM wiF sumting construcTive. *griNzz*

iF oNce famOus waSn't enOugh...here's anUder roUnd:

thIs couLd explain mY affiNity wiF priDe & preJudiCe & foreiGn induLgences sucH as koreAn & jaPaNese muVees & draMa seriEs. =P

uH-huH..diS exPlains my fetiSh fer d entertainMent werLd.. muvess + vCds..no wuNder i haVe john wOO, juLia stiLes & j.K.rowLinG on diS lisT.

*aHakzz*

wAaaHh....sO maNy ceLebritiEs looK like me!!! =P

seeiNg nuMberzzz...NOttTt!!! =P

2006-10-01T04:55:00.000+08:00

heRe i aM in d oFfice on a saturdaY afterNoon. ReaChed office haLf an hOur laTe. enTer d OffiCe dOor & behoLd d proPhetiC expRessiOn taT saYz.. "U r Late!" hiaKhiaKhiaK. soRry bOss. YeS..i am guilTy as chaRged. =S sO sorrY, beeN feeLing siCk n raTher lethargiC of Late. *siGh*

ouT of aLL d ramadHans i'Ve gOne thRu' in my werkiNg liFe, diS is d moSt tirinG thuS faR. aiYooOo.

neH miNd..3 more weeKz of ramadhaN to gO. hoW faSt tyM fLies..gEez.

deciDed to taKe a breaK frOm aLL d thoUght-consuMing & finGer-pressiNg Sms-Es oN d heLpliNe phone wiF diS:

You scored as Mathematics. You should be a Math major! Like Pythagoras, you are analytical, rational, and when are always ready to tackle the problem head-on!

Mathematics

100%

Dance

92%

English

92%

Philosophy

92%

Journalism

92%

Psychology

92%

Anthropology

83%

Linguistics

83%

Theater

75%

Sociology

75%

Engineering

58%

Chemistry

50%

Art

33%

Biology

25%

What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3)
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gaWd. i lurVe matHs, yEs. buT i m So nOt a maThs whIzz. in faCt, i deTest fiGures [whicH exPlains mY lurVE haTe reLationshiP wiF mr PES]; saVe d tuTor haT taT i'm weaRing.

bUt yeaH, d quiZ doEs me justiCe in terMs of anaLysing & rationaLising weN it coMes to probLem-soLving. *wiDe grinZzz* [whICh, couLD turN me intO miSs-tOo-practicaL @ tyMz. gaWd.baD faJ, baD.]

oKies..goTta geT back to werK. haVe a greaT weeKend peopLe!! i'M off to prePare myseLf for a weeKend oF sMs-es & wunDerrfOol conversaTions wiF d bLue-coLoured handphOne.... *kweNg kweNg kweNg*

~10-miNute breaK~

2006-09-27T05:39:00.000+08:00

i aM takiNg a 10-miNute breaK miDst d typiNg..werdzz..sO manY werDs.. sO ke-rO maNzz mY eyEs...
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7 July 1981

Your date of conception was on or about 14 October 1980 which was a Tuesday.

You were born on a Tuesday
under the astrological sign Cancer.
Your Life path number is 6.

Life Path 6:

The Life Path 6 suggests that you entered this plane with tools to become the ultimate nurturer, and a beacon for truth, justice, righteousness, and domesticity. Your paternal, or maternal, as the case may be, instincts with a 6 Life Path exceed all others by a considerable margin. Whether in the home or in the work place, you are the predominant caretaker and family head. While the 6 may assume significant responsibilities in the community, the life revolves around the immediate home and family, for this is the most domestic of numbers. Conservative principles and convictions are deeply ingrained and define your character.

You are idealistic and must feel useful to be happy. The main contribution you make is that of advice, service, and ever present support. You are a humanitarian of the first order. It is your role to serve others, and you start in the home environment. You are very human and realistic about life, and you feel that the most important thing in your life is the home, the family and the friends.

This is the Life Path related to leadership by example and assumption of responsibility, thus, it is your obligation to pick up the burden and always be ready to help. If you are like the majority with Life Path 6, you are one who will willingly carry far more than your fair share of any load, and you are always there when needed. In doing so, you take ownership and often become an authority over the situation.

In romance, the 6 is loyal and devoted. A a caretaker type, you are apt to attract partners who are somewhat weaker and more needy than yourself; someone you can care for and protect. The main ingredient that must prevail in the relationship is complete harmony. You don't function well in stressful relationships that become challenges for you to control. It is the same with friends, you are loyal and trustworthy. But there is a tendency for you to become dominating and controlling.

It's likely you feel compelled to function with strength and compassion. You are a sympathetic and kind person, generous with personal and material resources. Wisdom, balance, and understanding are the cornerstones of your life, and these define your approach to life in general. Your extraordinary wisdom and the ability to understand the problems of others is apt to commence from an early age. This allows you to easily span the generation gap and assume an important role in life early on.

The number 6 Life Path actually produces few negative examples, but there are some pitfalls peculiar to the path. You may have a tendency to become overwhelmed by responsibilities and a slave to others, especially members of you own family or close friends. It's easy for you to fall into a pattern of being too critical of others; you also have a tendency to become to hard on yourself. The misuse of this Life Path produce tendencies for you to engage in exaggeration, over-expansiveness, and self-righteousness. Modesty and humility may not flow easily. Imposing one's views in an interfering or meddling way must be an issue of concern.

The natural burdens of this number are heavy, and on rare occasions, responsibility is abdicated by persons with this Life Path 6. This rejection of responsibility will make you feel very guilty and uneasy, and it will have very damaging effects upon your relationships with others.

Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 3, 6 & 9.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 8, 11 & 22.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2444792.5.
The golden number for 1981 is 6.
The epact number for 1981 is 24.
The year 1981 was not a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/5/1981 and ending 1/24/1982.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Rooster.

Your Native American Zodiac sign is Woodpecker; your plant is Wild Rose.

You were born in the Egyptian month of Paopy, the second month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).

As of 9/26/2006 2:27:48 AM EDT
You are 25 years old.
You are 302 months old.
You are 1,316 weeks old.
You are 9,212 days old.
You are 221,090 hours old.
You are 13,265,427 minutes old.
You are 795,925,668 seconds old.

Celebrities who share your birthday:

Michelle Kwan (1980)	Cree Summer (1969)	Shelley Duvall (1949)
Ringo Starr (1940)	Doc Severinsen (1927)	Pierre Cardin (1922)
Robert Heinlein (1907)

Top songs of 1981

Physical by Olivia Newton-John	Bette Davis Eyes by Kim Carnes
Endless Love by Diana Ross & Lionel Richie	Arthur's Theme by Christopher Cross
Kiss On My List by Daryl Hall & John Oates	Jessie's Girl by Rick Springfield
I Love a Rainy Night by Eddie Rabbitt	9 to 5 by Dolly Parton
Private Eyes by Daryl Hall & John Oates	Rapture by Blondie

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 3.60547945205479 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)

There are 284 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 26 candles.

Those 26 candles produce 26 BTUs,
or 6,552 calories of heat (that's only 6.5520 food Calories!) .
You can boil 2.97 US ounces of water with that many candles.

In 1981 there were approximately 3.6 million births in the US.
In 1981 the US population was approximately 226,545,805 people, 64.0 persons per square mile.
In 1981 in the US there were 2,438,000 marriages (10.6%) and 1,219,000 divorces (5.3%)
In 1981 in the US there were approximately 1,990,000 deaths (8.8 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.

In 1981 the population of Australia was approximately 15,054,117.
In 1981 there were approximately 235,842 births in Australia.
In 1981 in Australia there were approximately 113,905 marriages and 41,412 divorces.
In 1981 in Australia there were approximately 109,003 deaths.

Your birthstone is Ruby

The Mystical properties of Ruby

Ruby is said to open one's heart to love.

Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Carnelian

Your birth tree is

Fir Tree, the Mysterious
Extraordinary taste, dignity, cultivated airs, loves anything beautiful, moody, stubborn, tends to egoism but cares for those close to it,rather modest, very ambitious, talented, industrious uncontent lover, many friends, many foes, very reliable.

The moon's phase on the day you were
born was waxing crescent.

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hiaKhiaKhiaK...i mUz b sOo stoNed. =P

fLy HeRe fOr yOur berFdaE caLculatOR! (",)

d grEat raMadHan worKout

2006-09-26T23:18:00.000+08:00

a typicaL daY in raMadHan begiNz wiF d 4 R's.

ReCitatiOn.

refLectiOn.

RecreaTion &

ResT..

RecitatIon: hopefuLLy diS ramaDhan, i geT to comPlete reaDing mY favOuritE bOok of d moNth..aLL 30 chaPTerz oF it, insyaAllah...haraP2 taK terseKat di sepAruH jaLan lagi... =P

RefLectIon: tinKing 'boUt Life, 'boUt myseLf. d Upz & doWnz of LivinG. mY pLus & miNuses. tsK..tsK..

RecreatioN: in aN efforT to tiNK posItiVe..housEhoLd chOrez r d besT reCreatiOn fer d Month. greaT werKout cLeaning d kiTcheN, taKIng dOwn laUndrY & haNging deM uP tO.

resT: IF i haVe d tyM aFter aLL d cLeaning. caTch a couPLe of winKz or simPly stoNe (n Allah heLp me, taT i duN waKe up laTe fer werK! *griNzz*)

Ok nOw, oFf for a daY of werK. mY aiM fer wErk diS monTH: to cLear tat recTanguLar bLack tiNg fiLLed wiF scribbLes of soRtz & tranSform deM intO tYpe-wriTten reaD-abLe caSe noTez..

i caN imaGine bruDder pointinG THE propHetic finGer..."

"EeerrPppppp! U neVa dO ur reCordiNgz hOrrr!!!!"
n deN d fiLes piLe uP on my tabLe....*faiNtzz*

gaWd..i duN eveN waNt to beGin imaGininG... *kweNg kweNg kweNg*

raMadhaN aL-muBaraK

2006-09-25T16:24:00.000+08:00

iTz here, ramadHan. i'M gLad. giVes me tyM & spAce to looK hard intO d mirrOr. sTare loNger if i Muz.

gudbyE harbiNger of eviLz; yeT my iNner deviLz i muZ chaiN. i Muz kerB.

i feaR moSt myseLf & d tiNgz i m capabLe of.

hIs guidaNce i seeK. @ tyMz i faiL. @ tyMz i'M losT. @ tyMz i'm cLueless. @ tyMz i questiOn.

moSt tyMz...i huRt. i oPpose..Me.

*siGh*

dear seLf...fYt d battLes u Need tO. sTand uP agaiNst wHat u Have to.

deAr aLLah. heLp me, pLease. i NEED u.

maY dis ramaDhan puLL me bacK to saFe shorez.

untiL i'M bacK heRe...agaIn.

aMiin..insyaAllah.

naVigaTe:mE

2006-09-14T21:54:00.000+08:00

i tiNk i neeD a freakiNg biG coMpass aNd a score-boaRd size remInder paNel ryT in froNt of my desK @ werK. compLete wiF d tiMekeePer. biaR sedaR skeT diri Nie bahwasaNya ada berLambak2 lagik tugasAn yaNg perLu diseLesaiKan. HaiZzzzz.

waKe up faaJjj!!!! waKe uP..

*faJ sinGz: haLLLoooooo gud mawNing... haLLooooOOoo guD mawNing....haLLooOOoo guD mawNingg... haLLLoOOooo guD mawNing..guD maWning...guD mawnInggg...*

HahhHAaa..kentaLzzzz!!

i aM getting suMwhere lah. nOt tat i'm totaLLy stucK & froZen. juZ need 2b more productiVe. 2 haNdz, 2 feeT, 1 braiN & heLLuva load of tinGz to dOooo. *uwAaaaaAAAaaaaaaahhhhh*

naVigate:me - freaKing lOst in d maP of tingz to dO ryT nOw. sumone, anYone, anybody... caRe 2b my savioUr @ dis poiNt in tym?? tsk..tsK..

deBu di haTi

2006-09-11T20:40:00.000+08:00

fWaaaAaahhh..i'v finaLLy fouNd d soNg aFter hOw manY doNkey eoN hoUrs, miNutes & daYs.. *gaWd* beeN searchiNg 4d sOng siNce mY viet-cOng daYz sia. enD 2004? gaWddd...i waited so LooNngg fOr dis kLasik 80s'..

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feeL free to lisTen to d sOng. *daZed* pepaGi buta daH AwwWw-ing oVer a song... HeeHee. Ok. guD nyt smUer.. ;o)

aKu cinTa padaMu

2006-09-10T06:09:00.000+08:00

i lOve u in More waYs thaN oNe..... (literaLLy..)

hiaKhiaKhiaK... =P

sUper kaWaaiiii ryT?? i lYk d danGdut especiaLLy..heeHeehee..

maKe me..??

2006-09-03T03:35:00.000+08:00

iTs saturdaY & i juz had 2 caseS marathOn.. n herE i aM wonderinG how to maKe 'Me'..

checK d kewL quiz out yeaH? hiaKhiaKhiaK..

How to make a Fajariah

Ingredients:

3 parts intelligence

5 parts courage

5 parts energy

Method:

Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Top it off with a sprinkle of lustfulness and enjoy!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

fwaaah...oNLi need 3 parTs of inteLLigenCe? kweKwekwe.. so taK proportionaTe to d couraGe & energY oNee... =P heeHee..yeaH..duN tinK i'M taT smaRt anYway.. *griNzz* buT yeaH..u DO need Loads of enerGy to be Me! n gaWd knOws how mucH couRage i'd to musTer to do d tinGs i diD & haVe beeN doing in diS liFe of miNe thuS faR...

nOw..wiF d 3 paRts of inteLLigeNce, Let's see hOw i tinK! =P

Your Dominant Thinking Style:

Exploring

You thrive on the unknown and unpredictable. Novelty is your middle name.
You are a challenger. You tend to challenge common assumptions and beliefs.

An expert inventor and problem solver, you approach everything from new angles.
You show people how to question their models of the world.

Your Secondary Thinking Style:

Visioning

You are very insightful and tend to make decisions based on your insights.
You focus on how things should be - even if you haven't worked out the details.

An idealist, thinking of the future helps you guide your path.
You tend to give others long-term direction and momentum.

What's Your Thinking Style?

noT bad eH for a 3-paRt inteLLigenCe huh? kWekweKwe.. ;o) yeS...i teNd 2b more exPloratOry & alhaMduliLLah..i do tinK aheaD. taT's so reaSsuriNg. HeEHee..

nexT..leT's measUre femiNity & mascuLinitY:

You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

GeeZ...did deY haVe to pUt d euNuch paRt in deR? hwaHwaHwa... =P

'Nuff saiD 'boUt mE! nOW, bacK to werK! (",)

i aM. i aM. i Am

2006-09-01T13:35:00.000+08:00

i'LL let picTures dO d toKking:

i aM.....

*siGh*

iTz taT poiNt whEre u duNno where to starT & wheRe it enDz.

i waN to be:

brIng in d sunshiNe pleaseeee......

i neeD to phoTosynthesiZe & b productiVe..... aaarGghhh!!

tranSitionz. transitiOnz. (",)

2006-08-24T16:00:00.000+08:00

i wen out wiF yun smLm. yeaH. sorry 'Bout wad happeNed. if i'd kNew it woUld taKe me tt freaking loNg to geT my hair doNe, i'd haVe done it on another daY. i taKe no Pleasure in asKing U to traVel 2d wesT. but yeaH, apoLogise once agaiN 4d inconveNience cauSed. next tYm woUld b beTta, insyaAllah.

suM1's aLL groWn uP nOw. finaLLy. hehe. =P nOw i heaR u taLk werK; breaThe werK, tiNk werK. hopefuLLy nOt sLeep (wiF) werK & eaT werK as weLL. ;o) macaM taK caya giTu tLinga ini meNdengar perbincanGan seriUs berkeNaan deNgan aLam pekerjaaN dari si Dia. kweNg kweNg kweNg.

weLkem to d werKing werLd. wiF its fair shaRe oF wonderZ & harsh reaLities. i Heard d miNd of a 21 yeaR oLd speaKing. whiNing & groUsing. & aLL i caN say is.. gOOd luck beB. hiaKhiaKhiaK. i diN saY werKing wAs eZ. juz goTTa adaPt, cOpe & werK smarT aite? =)

i caN't beLieve its beeN yeaRz. frOm skuL kiDz, to uncertain, souL-searchinG aduLtz (stiLL are) to werKing peepz. i haVe seeN u & me grow. hwaHWahwa. daMn i feeL oLd! *griNzz*

neVatheLess..a warm weLkem oNCe agaiN. haVe fuN, fiNd fUn & enJoy d riDe.....seeK ur niChE & werK hard for ur achiEvementz. *thuMbz uP for ciPotzz*

transitiOnz..transiTionz..wad's next?? (",)

shaLL i saY...mOre muSingz?

2006-08-24T15:15:00.000+08:00

i haVe lived a life in a famiLy cuLture wHere i shOuld not jatoHkan aiB orang; personaLLy, mY creeD is as such UNLESS tt arSehoLe reaLi pisS me oFf. liKewiSe in my reLations wiF other peoPle, i shaLL not stOop to taT leveL; no maTter how miNute or smaLL d maTter seeMz 2b.

aS an individuaL, i tinK i haVe maDe fair sacrifiCes iN my oWn capacitY as a dauGhter, a woRker, a freN, a fiaNce, a sisTer & an aUnt. fOr a moMent if deR r anY soUlz out deR hu tinK taT i aM incapabLe of puttinG myseLf in oThers' shoez or faiL to consiDer feeLingz, deN i hoPe tat thEse verY peopLe reconSider waD deY saY. hOw about steppinG in MY shoes fer a moMent?

i tinK sumtyMz we waNt d werLd to liVe according to OUR ruLez. @ some poinT in tyM, Isn't it tat waY for aLL of Us? we foRget taT most of d tiMe..liFe is a masHed up versiOn of different peopLe, different beLiefz, differenT neeDz & wantz, differeNt sYstemz. if i had my waY, i wouLd want tingz done to my tasTes. But sorry baBy, liFe ain't taT eZ liKe taPping our eX-liNkz foR a bus ridE. So quiT finding fauLtz aroUnd U & moVe oN. InsteaD, focuS on tingz U or me caN do to make liFe beTTa , if not, slightlY, at tat poinT in tyM.

diS is liFe. U caN't haVe niCe, greaT fooD all d tyM. sumtymz ur steaK coMes 2u haLf donE, or eveN burNt! sO eithEr:

A) seNd d fooD bacK
B) deMand for a refuNd
C) geT ur buTt off to anoTher restauRant
D) order sumTing eLse
E) picK a fyT wiF d restauranT owNer/waiTer
F) looK disGusted & peeved
G) coNtinue whiNing abOut d fooD even waY afTer diNner
H) gO to d kiTcheN & coOk oNe urself
I) smiLe, b patieNt

So...picK one yeT?

incoHerent? waAd?

muSing waaaDd..??!!?

d hiGht toWn...erMmm..

2006-08-22T22:45:00.000+08:00

heRe's a gLimpse of kota tinGGi for yoUr viewIng pLeasure....(",)

gOsh...i miSs d pLace...mountaiN cLimbing d nexT tyM baBez & hunKz?

FreNz whO maKe d triP all werthwhiLe!!

hindi-Mania: faNaa

2006-08-14T20:15:00.000+08:00

aNOther haNg-oVer: faNaa. *faJ has dreaMy, oggLy look iN her eYes*.. aaMir kHan & kaJol..sOooo purrfeCt in diS muVee. i loiKeeee...

lurVee aLL d soNgz in d muVee. 'tiS mY favouritE:

sOoo taa-chiNg.. (to kNow whY, DO watch d muVee.. agaiN, to watcH cLipz, do PAUSE d music pLayer on d bottoM of d rYt coLumn of d bLog.)

~choiCes...to chOose betweeN riGht & wroNg is simpLe...buT wHat defiNes oNe's lIfe is thE deciSion beTWeen d greaTer of twO goOds OR d lessEr of twO eviLz...~

aaMir khAn stiLL hasn't loSt d charM despiTe his aGe.. aWwwwww....

sO kenGkawAn..saper naK teNgok..beraTur cepAaaaatt!! siaAaaapp!!!

faJ: d laTe nyT oggLer.. definiteLy noT a sKo-deR. HAHAHAHAH!! *chiNg2*

oKies..i beTta geT suM sLeep. i goTta geT my aSs bacK to werK in a feW hOurs tyM!

koTa tingGi - missiNg it

2006-08-14T20:10:00.000+08:00

iTs aLmost 5aM in d morNing. aNd i can't sLeep. throat hurTz & mY noSe bLocked. =S bUt iTs aLLryT, i'M in higH spiriTz 'coS i'M juz bacK froM a reaLi2 exceLLent breaK@ kota tinGGi & i juz finIshed waTching a newLy boUght hindusTan VCD - faNaa. yeaH..i'M oggLing@ aaMir kHan & kaJol in d wEe hours of d mornIng. *griNzz*

nOw, let sum picTures dO d taLking.. =P:

peaCefuL & sereNe; fresH aIr & woNderfuL viEw iN d bacKgroUnd.. koTa rainforesT resort... i'M missiNg it badLy nOw!! *soBz2*

aNd another One.... niCe riGhttt??????!!!??

...we WenT naTure-treKking & meT smaLL buT bLood hunGry 'paCatz'...

..pOsed bY rocKz & soaKed ourseLves in fresH, cooL waTerz...

n oF koS..tOok loTz & loTz of picTures!!

..greaT coMpanY maKes d triP eveN more weRthwhiLe...(",)

teNk gOd for handphOnes & freNz wiF digiCamz & freNz hU shaRe d coMmon spirit of caMwhorinG!! muaHahahaha.. =P urs truLy heRe did nOt briNg her cammiE wif her (hint2: partLy bcOs suM ciPot borrOwed mY caMMie..lalalala..heehee..) & aLso partlY becOs i kNew taT suM others in d gruP woUld b eva faithFul in bringiNg theiR caMeras aLong! mOre piCz wiLl b coMing ur waY once i geT hoLd of d coPies froM d gerLz in d gruP. =)

i had sucH greaT fUn! i dId not eveN tinK about werK or dateLines. Life & tiMe seeM to stand stiLL once i crOssed d cauSewaY. ;o) jUz d breaK i neeDed. i'M so tenkfuL taT i stumBled on d resort weBsite about 2 yrs baCk. siNce thEn, i'Ve beeN wantinG & dying to Go to diS wunderfuL place. tenX to d sLacker maitez..taT dreaM of goinG theRe has been fuLfiLLed & i wouldn't miNd coMing deR once again!!!

i miSs d rustiC & spaciOus rooM. i miSs d fresH air. i miss d moUntain viEw. i miSs d ruggEd naTure treK (miNus d pacaTz!). i miSs d waTerfaLL. i miSs waLking in d raiN. i miSs d firefLies. i miSs d laTe nyT snaCk kenduriS. i miSs d pasaR maLam. i misS d coMpany. i miSs d lame jOkes. i miSs d cooL aiR, d biRds, d fooD huntinG & money counting. Gee.. caN i gO back deR agaiN?

So, as U caN see...i reaLi2 had toNnes of memOries oVer 3 daYs & 2 nyTz. tenX baBez & hunKz fEr firstLy, agrEeing tO d short hoLiday. reaLi appreciaTe thOse hu tooK leave & tyM off despite d naTure of ur werK respectiveLy. teNx feR d coMpanY - i thorouGhly enJoyed d joKes, d crappiNess & our sLack-Jackness. so gaNg, next yeaR hendaK ke maNa??

taT's mY kota tinGgi stinT in a nutsHell. More detaiLz weN i geT more picz, caN? *griNzz*

faJ is sO havinG a kota tinGgi haNgoVer. =P

fLy me to d sky?

2006-08-11T10:15:00.000+08:00

i lUrveee d soNGs bY diS koreaN gruP - fLy to d skY. verY r & b-isH. i loikeeee..hee. i tinK dis oNe's a theme soNg to suM drama series, if i'm not wrong. (",) enjoY!

oh my baG's not pacKed yet; bUT i'M all ready to go!!

fLy me to Kota tinggi!!!

wHeee...oFf to a weekEnd of fuN & relaxatioN! =P

DeaR neW teNant

2006-08-03T05:05:00.000+08:00

deaR neW teNant

weLcome to yoUr neW home. i'M suRe u'LL loVe livinG heRe
as Much as I diD.

aWwwwWwww-inG stiLL oVer keaNu & sanDra...

Went thE caThay wiF coLLeaGuez-cuM-yoUng & energetiC ladIez to caTch "the LakehoUse" after werK yesTerdaY. of coUrse, beinG a koreaN muVee tracKer, i kNew @d bacK of mY heaRd taT LakehoUse is a reMake of "iLL maRe".

So oFf gOes 3 laDies, wiF ice-creaMs froM beN & jerrY's chucKed intO pLastic baGs, smuggLed intO d theaTEr. we thorOughLy enJoyed d shOW.. n aYasaN & kiaH r oUt to graB d koreaN versiOn of d mUvee, n awaiTing d reLease oF d muVee VCD. HeEe..gOo-gOo ga-Ga! =P

waD caN i saY...d shOw is sOoo shUweeeTttt. iMagine having foUnd d One, onLy to fiND out that boTh of U are in twO entireLy tyM zonEs? fWaaAah..caN't fatHom it happeniNg...*guLpzz* N i emPathisE & sympathiSe d guY more in d engLish versioN. pOor guY had to waiT fer 4 lonG yeaRs befoRe meeting D oNE. weLL, wouLd anYone b abLe to waiT taT lonG?

"How dO you hoLd on to soMeone you'Ve neVa meT?":
coMMunicatioN & feeLingz traNsCendinG tyM

iTz kinda cooL anywaY, to b abLe to communicaTe throUgh maiLboxes liKe taT. in our conText, i tinK it wouLd reaLi freaK us out to seE ouR letTerboxes opEn & cLose wiTh nOtes froM d pasT or fuTure. heeE. especiaLLy, kaLo deR r peoPle liKe me out thEre, whO check their letterbOxes at nYt. HAhahhahHAHha!!!!!!!!

~finaLLy foUnd U~

LakeHouse - d heaRtachE, d reaLisatioNs, d yearnIngs & longings, d waiT...n finaLLy bLiss..(",) iT was paiNfuL, bUt definiteLy wertH d waiT & d paTiencE.

hMmm..iF i couLd chaNge d coUrse of hisTory or soMethiNg in tyM...waD wouLd i do o wad coUld i haVe doNe?

i wouLd haVe been more carefuL@ taT instaNt....

i woULd asK iT to stoP & tinK..

i couLd have beeN married by nOw, or sooNer.

couLd i?

neVatheLEss..no regreTs. (",)

tO whOm it maY concerN:
coUld i geT a house by d Lake? HeeHee..

~ Even though this is clearly impossible, it's amazing... ~

coMe, coMe-laH over heRe..hEEeHeee

2006-08-01T14:01:00.000+08:00

a soNg by varioUs indoNesian artisTs.. sO kiutt d soNg.. =P paUse d soNg pLayer oN ur ryT 1st if U waNna vieW d cLip yeaH? heeHee..

Marilah kemari..hei hei hei..kawan..
aku lari sini...hei hei hei..oh kasiiih..
maRi bergemBira bersaMa-saMa..
hilangkaN hati duKa lara...
laLalalalala... =P